
"I'm sorry---"
Immediately I closed the door again, once I found out who the guest who came. Petra, seeing her face again made my body tremble violently. Whatisthis? after all had passed and I had been happy in a new leaf with Sister Anta, this person, suddenly came again before me.
"Cania... I know you hate me, but please open the door I want to talk. Give me a chance for a second!"
"Go!!! don't bother me anymore!"
"No will! before you give me a chance to talk."
He knocked on my door many times, but I refused to answer. Hoping for her to leave, I immediately took her and put Rania to the room so that she would not hear a knock from the man outside. I pondered in the room, waiting for the man to come home, or if possible Brother Anta who came home to throw him away. Damn, Sister Anta left her phone in the room.
The sun slapped my face. For God's sake, right now I just want my hearing to disappear because of her voice, Petra keeps getting into my eardrum, painful and dizzying.
"Please Kania!"
But he didn't leave. I went back to the front door to observe him. Until some time, apparently he still continues to struggle to express his purpose of coming here.
"Well, if you don't open the door, I'll yell for the crowd. And they'll all know that your son was the result of an illicit relationship with another man, before your husband!"
"B4y you!" I said loudly. I had to open the door after hearing the threat, "Why would you still bother me?! I've been out of your life, so what else do you want, what exactly?"
"Well, from now on, I don't need to be provoked by emotions. We can have a good chat from earlier."
"I don't care about you! tell me what do you want?" I said.
"All right, all right." She sighed, then began to speak, "You've given birth, haven't you? based on my calculations the answer is yes, or maybe the baby you just care about was our child?!"
"Don't you dare call my son that! your mouth is dirty!" I answered while pointing at his face, which I thought was more appropriate to be hit or doused. "He's not a br3ngsek boy like you!"
"Hey relax. No need to be rude, right?! I just want to see our son, but I'm still his father anyway."
"When did you admit my son was your son? What the hell cares about you with my son? From the beginning I was pregnant until I gave birth, have you ever confessed to her? you were never by my side until I married another man. And now? without the wind without rain you suddenly came to admit my son was your son?"
"Stress!!!" Continue me.
"Don't say that" he replied, "Okay I admit that I was wrong. You know for yourself the reason I was reluctant to take responsibility back then because I wasn't ready to marry young and become a father, I was too young. College just came in. But now that things are different, I'm really sorry Kania, I'm now aware of my mistake. Please give me a chance."
"A chance? What other opportunity do you want?"
"Cinting!" My answer.
"Go you, or I'll call the police right now."
"Cania!!! if you're reluctant to accept me now, that's fine! I won't force you to forgive now, I'll give you time to think, okay! But please allow me to meet our son, just for a moment to see his face, for me to hear his voice."
Then he lowered his head to pick up his luggage, which as I said was filled with souvenirs as well as a glimpse of baby gear.
"Look! I've bought our son's things. Oh, I also buy you fruits, women like you will definitely need a fresh intake and full of vitamins after breastfeeding."
"Enough! get out of here, and never disturb my life again."
"No, I'm not leaving."
"We are used to living each other, I am without you and you are without me, you can live happily without thinking of us, and I already have happiness with my little family. Then what else would you like now to suddenly come here without wind without rain, acknowledge my son and ask for a chance to take responsibility. Your brain is gone, right? Go, there will never be a chance for you again in my life. There will never be!!" My answer.
The morning wind blows. White clouds hang in the sky. The sun is getting higher through the catapult tree into a jet shadow. While the white rose on the terrace raises her daughter again. All of this was too beautiful for the presence of this brainless man.
"My son and I are happy with another man who is more responsible than you!"
"Damn! Don't be so arrogant, Kania. You can talk like this now. But, I won't give up, I'll keep coming here until I can meet my son and rock him like a father in general."
I just kept quiet, waiting for a word that might still come out of his mouth, but with a heavy feeling, because I knew very well who this person before me was.
"I came here all right, I just wanted to see my son, that's all. But the other thing I got, you overflowed like a house that was a great fire. To be honest, I am very angry and offended by your attitude. But it's okay, really I will understand, because you may not have been able to accept my presence. So I assure you, I will continue to strive to be united with my son. You understand." Further.
Shortly afterwards he raised his hand and threw his luggage onto the floor. Then say goodbye.
"I go home first, I leave these things. You want to wear it or throw it away."
He disappeared behind the gate and went far away leaving behind fear, uneasiness and emotions in me that were ruffled so badly.
Then I took the big plastic, and I slammed it forward until the contents collapsed. There are even fruits that are destroyed, but I do not care, because my life is much more ruined than that.
"Yahoo!!!"
I don't know what other problems will come to me this time. Just among the whole matter, why should Petra again? And now I'm asleep, drowning in madness.