I Love U! Husband Carried
CHAPTER 58 - 24 Hours of Being a Parent

"Sister?"

"Yes, honey? I'm right here."

"Sister Anta, why are you crying? Though this is the first time we become parents, not even 24 hours we pass today take care of Rania. Sister Anta, what caused sister to cry?”

I asked brother Anta in the middle of the night to sleep with Rania in one room, even though we still live in the hospital. On February 6th, precisely at 11pm yesterday morning I was accompanied by a man I loved so much betting his life on the operating table to give birth to the wonderful gift of God; Rania Ananta Flowers.

Actually, Kak Anta was sleeping soundly and sleeping very early. Naturally, because I was still not fully healthy, so he took care of Rania all day, certainly draining a lot of energy, mental and mind. The night before Rania's birthday, she can't sleep. She said that her nervousness kept hugging her; many times she went to the toilet, as if she wanted to keep urinating. All because of seeing my struggle during the contraction and opening, she was worried for me, as well as for Rania who was still in the stomach.

This event was a momentum that he was waiting for and sacred to him. He will build a whole household, as a husband and also a father. Finally, he will now play his full role as the leader and family builder. Which he dreamed in every breath and do'a-do'anya in the final third of the night.

I cannot describe how grateful I am to have you Sister Anta, you are the rainbow that is present in our lives, you are the lamp and savior among my downfall and the disappointment of my father, you are the most perfect person in my life, the manifestation of all my desires and the direction for me to determine life, I thought.

The man alumnus of the Police Academy, completed his law science master program in the Netherlands. A young cop who has carved out his career well in the police force, with physical, emotional, spiritual, and intelligence capabilities that are very mature. Often I admire him, what good deeds I have done until given my husband like him.

"I'm not the one crying, baby. But you?!" When he answered that, I immediately woke up from the daydream.

And by the time I realized Brother Anta was already walking to bed approaching me.

"What's up, Kania? You cry these nights, keep talking about 24 hours of parenthood?" Said Brother Anta, while grabbing my cheek and rubbing it gently.

Only then did I realize something, I was moved to see Sister Anta in the corner while rubbing her body with massage oil.

"Sister, I'm sorry, Sister Anta is tired of taking care of Rania. I haven't been a mother for 24 hours, but I sleep a lot." I said.

Then Brother Anta smiled knot and took my needle-free hand. "What I feel now, will never be comparable to all the sacrifices you made of Rania for nine months, and your struggles with giving birth to her. Being a mother is not easy, and it's my job to help you."

"That rania is our daughter, our shared responsibility. Don't ever apologize just because I've been taking care of it all day." He said again with a very soft voice and intonation, as soft as Rania's cry tonight.

"Awhile, I saw Rania first ya----"

Sister Anta got up and turned around to take Rania who was on the right side of my bed. While I keep glancing at him.

"Why son, Papa's son? Sleep yeah, sleep----"

He put on a shady face with a bit of a funny expression to deal with our little girl. But unfortunately, it was not enough to calm Rania down. She kept crying, so Sister Anta decided to pull her out of bed.

"Try here brother, let me suckle. Maybe Rania's hungry." I said.

"Oh, can you, baby. Wait a minute," replied Brother Anta softly. He then approached and handed Rania to me.

Since that declaration of love, I don't think we have any awkwardness anymore. Even now, when I breastfeed Rania. We have been able to behave more calmly and not drift in each other's feelings.

Brother Anta immediately took a position to sit beside me, and stroked softly on Rania's soft cheeks.

"He is hungry" said Anta glancing at me. "It's very, very similar to you."

"Oh, huh?" I smiled, and Brother Anta replied with a small nod. "I also hope that later Rania has the same attitude and personality as Kak Anta." I said.

"Don't overdo it, I might not be that fit to be Rania's reference, I'm afraid that just disappointing your expectations later."

"You're so much more perfect than I've been expecting, brother." I answered while looking at his dim eyes. "At the very least, you are the human with the best character I have ever met, therefore I hope that our children are able to absorb Kak Anta's attitude and character as his father."

"I don't feel like a good person, but I'm going to try to be the best father for our children. I'll make sure of that!" Said.

"The first time I witnessed your struggle as a mother, I honestly felt like dying every time I saw you in pain in the nursery bed, seeing you walk in a hurry to make it easier for Rania to be born later, she said, seeing you are nine months old with a big belly, it is not easy. Therefore, I'm heartbroken to imagine that your dream has come true."

Sister Anta who from earlier looked down, finally raised her face in front of me.

“Kania, forgive me!”

“Why did you even apologize?” 

Knowing Kak Anta's suddenly dramatic response, I was confused. My heart is agitated. What caused my husband to tear up, and why he apologized.

"I'm sorry, because my sister gave you pain that pain is not playing, sorry because she made you have to bear this heavy thing alone. I know your life's been so painful, and I'll never be able to bring that past to you."

"Sister---" I said, looking at him deeply. If I hadn't been holding Rania, I might have held her hand right now, I held her tight, even hugged her if I needed to.

"I will not care about the past anymore, for me now how to build a household and build a better future with Kak Anta, Rania and our children later. I am so grateful to be given a man like Brother. I can face and appreciate today, all because of the kindness and presence of my brother. Forget about sadness, I've long forgotten that. I've ruined my past, so I won't let the future fall apart." Continue me.

And when Sister Anta was about to embrace me, I immediately held her back, because I remembered Rania.

"Sorry, I forgot." Said.

"Rania is asleep, sister," I replied slowly.

"Here, let me put him in his bed again."

After Sister Anta took Rania, and put her to bed again. He sat down beside me and said;

"Now it's your turn, go to sleep. I'll keep an eye on you."

I shook my head softly, "Not now, before I help brother."

"What help?"

Then I reached out in front of him, "Here's the oil, let me help you apply it to Brother's body."

"I can, you sleep." The answer.

"Well, I'm not going to sleep now."

Worried by my threat, Anta finally complied, she got up to the sofa to take her massage oil and give it to me.

So after that, I apply slowly while I give a little massage on his body despite using one hand. It's true, he has a perfect athletic body, in every corner. She is beautiful and she is a hard worker.

"Nake?" ask her.

"Very, very, very." He replied while closing the eyes, "No need to massage, just smeared it is very good. But if he rubs it with your hands."

"What if someone else's hand?"

"I don't like being touched by others!" said brief.

And I admit it's true, because I've experienced it. Long ago.