I Love U! Husband Carried
CHAPTER 75 - I'm Pamit

"Yes, where exactly?" Ask her.

I looked at Marwah, but just as I looked at her face, she chose to hide her eyes from me.

"I can't tell you, sorry." The answer was slow I could hardly hear.

"Do you really have to go?"

He was silent for a moment, only then replied; "I think so. It's the first time I've ever felt in love, so I really didn't expect that forgetting and getting rid of these feelings wasn't that easy. Every night I had to cry, and every time I cried my heart hurt so much that it was hard to breathe. Whenever I imagined her, I smiled but my chest was tight, just because I was unable to reach her shadow that was present and sank like a mirage."

Destroyed me like a new meteor broke out before it reached the earth, not knowing very well I how the taste of Marwah experienced. Until then he came to me to say goodbye a second time after all these years ago. For some reason, this morning the wind rustled more intensely than usual, besieging me with a piercing cold. An uneasiness and sadness overwhelmed me, throwing me between her tormenting pulse and gaze.

"Just by going far away from here, maybe I no longer need to hope to reach him. It's hard, but I have to go." Her speech.

"What about the kids on the street? they can't without you."

"Unlike you think," he said, "They're much stronger than you think Kania is, I can know how to make money on that path, all because of them. So you don't have to worry."

"But Marwah---"

He smeared his red lips, then again tried to smile, as his eyes looked at me. Although the effect is very sad, but I can do nothing but follow his will, because it is not easy for me to face this kind of dominant feeling.

There was no choice but to follow his will this time, because no matter how I convinced him again, he was always hurt by the lure.

"I'm saying yes?! it's almost noon, I'm afraid the shuttles at the terminal have all left. Give my regards to your husband." He said, breaking our silence just a moment ago.

"Then I'll take delivery" I said.

"You just wait at home, cook. Accompany Rania play, about I don't need to think. If you deliver, you'll know where I'm going, right?!"

He then opened his bag and took out a small box of green gift wrappers, "I can just drop this for Om? This is my wedding gift to her. It's not much, but I really hope she likes it."

I took the gift from his hand. Cute wrap patterned head of frogs, animals that feared Kak Rambo as I remember. I stared at the gift box, under the watchful eye of his burning but grieving eyes, like an angel of death who was not ready to take his life.

"You purposely wore a frog-motif pack." I said vibrate.

"Should I give this to him in front of his wife, or to him alone?" ask her.

"Free, it's just a pair of regular bracelets. During that lunch break, I saw a new product at the front T-junction Accessories store where I used to ram and rub the car glass. I was a little interested, so I asked the staff directly. He called the bracelet a 'Pragma' or 'Eternal love', perfect for their wedding?"

I'm washed. I don't know what kind of heart Marwah has, it's not about the meaning of the gift, but I also know very well that the Accessories store Marwah means to me is not just any ordinary store, either, the items inside there have a fairly high price for a medium to low size. So, it is certain to get it, Marwah has to work extra hard to collect money. Could it be that Marwah rarely came to my house back then because she was working day and night on the road to save money?

Why can you think about it even when you realize that it would hurt you so much Marwah, I thought.

"Take care of yourself!" I said with a sob, "If you have managed to forget Brother Rambo, you tell me yes! or come back here again."

"I know that." He said while hugging me.

"I don't have any more words for you. I just pray that God will always be together at your every step. Don't forget to call me, always." I tried hard even though my tears couldn't be lifted.

Marwah smiled and just nodded, then she disappeared behind the gate and went away carrying her pain and love.

The night after Sister Anta came home from the night patrol, with a heavy heart I interrupted her who was hugging me tightly trying to be spoiled. Then I whispered the question to his ear;

"Pragmas?" His head while frowning.

"Yes" I answered. "What means? Meaning how?"

"Ehm, to my knowledge it's a foreign term." He said while thinking. "The term love in Greek mythology. It means eternal love. It means so deep."

"Look," he began to try to explain, trying to find words that were easy for me to digest. "Look, do you remember I ever talked about mature love? that is the true meaning of Pragma, there is no more selfishness between two people in a relationship, all they do is try to make happiness and make their partner happy. Yeah, that's how it is."

It shook me, swept away in the murmur of the night wind by its profound and touching meaning. Is this proof of your love for Rambo's sister, Marwah? you're trying to do everything for Rambo's happiness, even if it hurts you so much.

Indeed love without struggle is a loser, like a commander who is afraid of war. But the love that was forced to retreat because it was much more painful, like a disabled warrior who could not fight in battle.

All this, again about gaps and confidence ......