I'm Not/Only a Shadow
The beginning of new life
Risa was standing on the balcony of her house looking far ahead, while everyone was asleep at 3pm like this,Risa will wake up in every night.Even like an automatic alarm nightmare it will make it right when Risa left the man at 3 pm 5 years ago.
If it is so Risa will cry while continuing to ask for forgiveness to the khalik on his alphabet one third of the night, asking for forgiveness for the sins he has done to produce Azka in the world, and then he will be forgiven,even though it happened because of coercion and because of her helplessness Risa felt very sinful because it had given that gap until it happened.Also for her Azka is the best gift in her life.
Up to a month since the ingestion of purity Risa found the fact that Risa was pregnant, worse, angry and destroyed when Risa will forget everything and try a new life, but other realities make her worse.
One day Risa almost gave up but someone saved her and gave her strength.A beautiful woman who is graceful with her syar'i clothes reached out gave Risa the opportunity to learn with her for the better.Together the woman was Risa learn to rise up, and start to continue his studies even though he had to hear ridicule from others for getting pregnant out of wedlock but the woman continued to hold his hand and encourage.
It is not easy to go to college while working even in a pregnant condition like Risa.But thanks to her persistence Risa can succeed.
Annisa Azzahra From that woman Risa learned to close her aura.The woman was like an angel to Risa who kept pushing her in kindness.
Until 4 years ago Annisa died because of the disease she suffered hidden from Risa, during which Annisa always cheerful before Risa so Risa did not know if Annisa suffered from pain.
The woman had taught him that there would be ease in every difficulty.
After Annisa died, Risa moved to the house she lives in now, along with Azka in her arms, renting a house and looking for a lucky job everything felt easy for Risa I don't know but Risa thinks God loves her so much, Risa said, although living alone but never lacking at all especially if something related to Azka.
It is from this place that Risa starts everything with a new leaf, even with a little lie that says she is a widow.
"Mommy today Akka did not participate in the difficulty, Akka wanted to play at aunt Ane aja's house" Azka sat at the dinner table.
"Relatedly? "Azka nodded.
"OK, but Azka promised not to make a tantrum, and don't disturb Mang Udin, he was busy working" Mang Udin was a part-timer of the villa guard in front of their house who is now in the process of renovation.
They live around the beautiful and cool village of Lembang around it filled with beautiful tea plants, so many villas are standing there,one of them is the villa that is guarded by Mang Udin belongs to a wealthy businessman from Jakarta who is right across their house only blocked the village road that is not too big.
"Oke Mom"Azka gave her thumbs up.Risa broke her hair azka anxious, without Risa realizing Azka had planned something that would make her happy today, colonizing Aira for example,Azka always makes Aira cry because of the pranks that Azka made.
"Yes, my mama has gone first, and my mama wants to go to your aunt Ane's house" Azka nodded.Risa kissed Azka's forehead.
"Asalamualikum.happiness"
"waalaikum salam's.. Mama"