I'm Not/Only a Shadow
Adam's Threat
"You've decided, when did you get married?" arya asked, at this time they just finished dinner, Alyla is not allowed to go home before dinner.
Alyla sat with a canticle in front of Adam's family, especially Arya Papa from Adam, who had been staring at him sharply.
"Fastly the reward" replied Adam.
Alyla frowns when she says she will marry Adam, "Sorry Mr. Arya but we won't marry" Alyla certainly doesn't want to marry someone who doesn't love her at all,while Alyla knows how much Adam loves Aluna, and Alyla does not want Adam to just make her a shadow of Aluna during her life.
"So you mean you're gonna stay like this, right?"ask Arya.
"Awhile.." Karina stopped the chatter of the adults in front of Azka "Azka want to join Eyang for a moment? we'll feed the fish in the front pond"
"Come on" Karina takes Azka away from the dinner table.
"We're getting married to Pah"Adam spoke after Azka and Karina were not seen again.
"When I agreed to get married we never even talked about this"
"Why should we talk about it, sooner or later we should get married!"Adam spoke sharply and in a high tone.
Brakes..
"You guys don't talk like little kids either, remember I don't want my granddaughter to grow up in an incomplete family" Arya left Alyla and Adam.
Silent..
"We should get married"
"I don't want to"
Alyla gulped down her rough saliva "I don't love you". 'more precisely you don't love me' Alyla said in her heart.
"It's not time to say who loves who, whom I want us to marry and give a complete family to Azka"
"We can still be like this you are free to meet Azka whenever you want, without any bond between us."
Adam chuckles cynically "Egoist once you, thinking about your feelings without thinking about Azka feelings, you think I also want to marry you I only think of Azka, Azka who always dreamed of having a family like other children, Azka,do you know Azka always hears you crying silently and Azka considers herself a burden for you because you have to raise her yourself,and do you know that Azka was always ridiculed by her peers for not having a father, I don't care if you love me or not, at least think Azka"
Adam closed his mouth for a moment to ease his emotions, Adam looked at Alyla who was staring blankly at the front.
Actually it was Adam who was selfish in his teenage years Alyla was taken away by him and now when Alyla should have gotten someone who loved and loved Adam forced him to marry himself which obviously had damaged him.
Adam did not care that Adam would not willing Azka to have another father other than himself, imagining Azka calling others as Daddy made Adam growled himself.
"If you don't want to, we'll take care of it in court and I won't let Azka's custody fall on you" there's no other way but the threat now, Alyla is very stubborn.
Alyla glared her eyes and shook her head"No. no. Don't do that, well we'll get married, I'll do it for Azka's sake"
"Good.we will do it as soon as possible, and you will come with me to Jakarta, and then we will stay there"Alyla nodded resignedly.
"Let Azka stay here tomorrow night there will be a wedding anniversary party mama and papa, we will introduce Azka to the whole family" Adam passed by.
'Why should it be like this, can't I live quietly, Astagfirullah ya Allah' Alyla tears wet her cheeks and Alyla immediately brushed her face up hoping her tears don't flow down.
From afar Adam noticed Alyla crying "Sorry.sorry, this is all I can do" whispered Adam who can only be heard by himself.