I'm Single Mom
ASM 22's

"After you meet me and El, what do you want now?" Ask again.

He was silent without a word. His face was bent, I don't know what was on his mind at the moment.

" We met at the wrong time, Akmal. You know, Zaskia was my little sister, we split up while I was fighting for El. And now you're present next to Zaskia with the label as her boyfriend. You sane?" There are emotions stirring up in me.

" I never knew Zaskia was your real sister. The first time I saw Zaskia, I found you. Zaskia was present to encourage. If I knew your sister Zaskia, I wouldn't be so stupid as to make her a boyfriend." Akmal.

" How far are your relationships? Have you managed to damage zaskia, like you ruined me?"

This loser guy is silent.

Brak! I hit the table in front of us. Some visitors noticed us both.

" Sa..?" Akmal looked at me sharply.

I'm really sick of seeing this guy. I hurried out of this place. Akmal tried to chase after me, after he had paid for our food earlier.

" Sa wait!" Her request.

I don't give a shit. Why would I love a man like Akmal? Where is the special place of that man? In fact, he always suffered throughout the journey of love that I went through.

" Sa's.." Akmal managed to pull my hand.

" Hey! Listen to me first." He asked me to get in the car

" Sit down and calm down! We'll talk about everything with a cold head."

We were already in the car, he started the car engine and turned on the AC so that the atmosphere did not heat up.

" Sa, okay I'm so depraved for ruining your future, forsaking you while you were pregnant El, even now I'm dating Zaskia who in fact is your sister. I know how you feel, Sa. But I swear to God, I never ruined Zaskia. Our relationship is clean. I've never done more for Zaskia. The only thing we do is hug, that's it." He tried to be honest with me, but somehow it was so hard to trust Akmal.

" If you don't believe me, you can ask Zaskia." Pinta Akmal is down.

" Now we go home. I'm not used to leaving El alone."

Without rebutting, Akmal drove his car towards my house.

It's strange! I feel weird about myself. I used to miss Akmal's voice, but after we got close, I kept quiet more. Am I being too prestigious? I deliberately sought attention from him? Or am I just curious, is my name still in his heart? Akmal, why does your love always make me skydive?

" Sa, we should get married!"

That phrase... For a moment I flew into the sky. If shameless want it to feel like I'm hugging and cheering for joy. Akmal's statement I've been waiting for nine years.

" Sa, you hear me?" It seems like Akmal is running out of patience in facing me.

" Why are we married?" I also sell expensive.

" For El's sake. And I think it's the right time. Besides I'm ready, I'm well established."

" What about Zaskia? Are you sure you dare to be honest with Zaskia? Don't expect me to tell Zaskia my life story. Remember Akmal, it's enough that I hurt both my parents but not my sister. Unless you advance in front of me, I will not advance in front of you. I've been persistent in keeping El in my womb, but that doesn't mean I'll be persistent in keeping you."

Akmal looked at me again. Maybe he doesn't believe Salsa now. The old Salsa and the present Salsa are clearly different. Salsa is now tempered by a hard life.

I got out of the car and rushed into the house. I let the man down, whether he'll come down or go straight home.

I lay my body on a bed with a floor mattress. Not only was my body tired, but my soul was much more tired.

I heard El talking to Akmal.

" Om, um don't want to be El's father." Babe El suddenly made my eyes almost jump out of place. How dare El speak like that to Akmal. Does El feel a strong inner bond?

" Yes dong, did your mother want to marry om?"

" Hey... Must want dong, om. It's a handsome man." Rayu El to her own father.

" Do you know?"

" No."

" lh. El seriously om. El had long wanted to have a father like El's friends, but my mother always said 'patiently yes El, I must have come to see us' but El's father never came." El's words changed.

No answer came out of Akmal's mouth. Now I'm curious what they are doing. Now I try to peek out from behind the crack of my room.

Akmal hugged El, he rubbed his son's back. From here I could see, Akmal rubbed the corner of his watery eyes.

"Akmal, I've fought for El's life. Now it's your turn to prove that you're a good father to El." I said in my heart.

There was a feeling of seeing the scene in front of me.

" El, tell your mother yes, so you want to marry me." Akmal started using El as his mainstay bullet to achieve his wish.

" El does not promise, because many like the same mother, but the mother said nothing suitable. Hehe..." El laughed a little.

God, do you know what a kid as small as El? Does he always listen to me when he's with Grandma Aminah?

I was still peeking out of the slit of my house wall, I saw Akmal giving me some fiber money.

" It's for you and mom, yeah."

" A lot of it? Mother must be very happy om. Mother does not have to be tired of working anymore." Said El plain.

Akmal rubbed El's head gently.

" Oh, go home first. Next time you come by again."

" Okay, um..." El kissed his father's cheeks.

Akmal's car has already driven out of our house. I breathe heavily. Akmal's departure does not mean bringing me relief.

" Mother is not polite. There's Akmal even going into the room." El protested to me.

" This is for you from Om Akmal." He gave a fiber of five pieces.

" Om Akmal is good deh bun. El wants to have a father like Akmal loh, bun." El is still fascinated by the kindness of his father.

" El, can't we talk about anything else?" Snap me.

" Evil mother!" It passed from before me. As usual, he spent the day playing and playing.

In El's lifetime, I never scolded her or even yelled at her. Then now?

You idiot! I cursed myself. El doesn't know anything. I shouldn't have vented my anger against El.

I'm pinching my forehead. Dizziness these days is becoming more and more frequent.

El's supposed meeting with Akmal was the sweet moment I was waiting for. But what about Zaskia? For Zaskia, Akmal was her first love. There was already a lot of hope that he wanted to knit with Akmal. One of them is to build a household with Akmal.

If I remain selfishly married to Akmal for the sake of El's happiness, then I will also break Zaskia's dream. He will also experience the same as me, his first love dashed before its time to bloom.

God, what should I do?