I'm Single Mom
ASM 45's

"Yuk leaving." Akmal took our suitcases into the car.

After saying goodbye to them, we finally went on vacation.

Along the way, El was very enthusiastic. El was talking to his father. Joseph and I were just good listeners.

After getting tired, El finally fell asleep in the backseat. Joseph was also sound asleep in my arms.

" Where are we really going?" I opened up a conversation between us.

Akmal just blinked his eyes next to his. " Secret." Said teasing me.

Without asking much more I resigned wherever Akmal took me. Just one belief in my heart, Akmal will not harm us.

Due to the cold air conditioning of the car, my eyes became very heavy. Turns out I'm sleepy. Before I completely closed my eyes, I made sure that Joseph was safe in my arms.

" sa... Wake up!" My shoulder feels in a loud shake.

I opened my eyes, The sound of the waves colliding with the rocks on the beach. The sea breeze blew fiercely against the hijab that covered my hair. It's not the cold I feel, because Akmal has lowered the windshield.

" It's arrived. Yuk down!" Akmal got out of the car and took Joseph from my sling. While I woke El.

" El, wake up! We've arrived."

El looked to rub his eyes.

" ye... We're beaching...." El cheered in excitement.

I just smiled watching my daughter get excited.

" Dad.." El ran towards his father.

I saw El menci*m his father's cheek.

We ordered grilled fish and orange ice.

El ate with it. We took turns to eat, while waiting for Akmal to finish eating, I just observed the two of them. My mind began to wonder, "If this were real..."

Uh. I hit my own head." Stupid." My maki.

Akmal looked at me astonished, "who's stupid?"

" Yes ma, who's stupid?" El asked, asking makes me nervous.

" E... Anu. that..." I don't even have a reason to answer their questions.

Akmal just shook his head. He continued eating quickly.

" Dad, "call El.

" Hey?" Akmal without looking.

" Mama likes that. Many times El saw mommy like to talk to herself. Even El often saw mama crying herself."

Akmal was shocked to hear his daughter's confession. He looked at me deeply, I threw away my sight. Can't stand the sight of Akmal.

" Fuck El." My soul is in my heart.

" Why mom, huh? Do you want to be crazy?" Ask El again.

El's question this time successfully blinded Akmal choking.

Uhuukk...

I immediately poured water on Akmal.

" That's why don't eat while talking, El. See your dad get blown up?"

" I'm sorry ma. I'm sorry, 'cause El's been choking." El feels guilty.

" Dad choked not because of El, but because I wasn't careful when I ate." Akmal defends his daughter. It seems he's getting good at seizing El's heart.

Akmal had finished eating he washed his hands cleanly and immediately took Joseph out of my lap. Akmal invites El and Yusuf to play on the beach. Before eating I put the camera towards the father and son. I want to record all the good memories today. And one day I will show them that their father is a good man.

***

We're done playing on the beach. It's time we rest. Akmal had already reserved two rooms for us to occupy.

Previously we have cleaned the body of sand attached to our bodies.

One of the rooms has two beds, while the other has only one bed that is not so big.

Me and the children chose a room that had two beds, while Akmal chose the other.

" You guys take a break, yeah, I'm going out for a minute to order a meal."

" Okay, dad..." Sahut El glee.

About an hour later, our hotel room door was knocked on by someone. There is a sense of worry in the heart. Honestly, I'm afraid the Akmal family came here. The knock on the door didn't stop, my phone rang. There's an Akmal name on the screen. Soon I might press the green button.

" Akmal, someone's knocking on the door." I complained to Akmal.

There was a crisp laugh there, "You can still laugh? While I'm here scared." I snapped at the phone line

(Sorry.sorry dit.just open the door. It's the courier that will deliver the food I ordered. I forgot to tell you earlier.) Akmal on the phone.

I turned off the phone and opened the door immediately.

There were two men who looked exhausted from waiting too long.

" It's been a long time to open the door, buk?" Ask the courier.

" Sorry sir. sa-me..." I'm not done talking already cut by them.

" Sign here buk." Pinta the courier.

Without answering I followed the courier's orders.

" Please accept ma'am."

" Thank you sir. Sorry for waiting so long." I'm polite.

Without further ado the two couriers left me.

I went into the room. " Who is ma?" Ask El curiously.

" The courier delivered the food from my father's order." My solute.

I opened the order.

My eyes widened to read the message on top of the rice cone

(Happy birthday dear Salsa. May the longevity.healthy always. and always be given abundant sustenance for you my soul mate. Dear salsa, thank you for giving birth to two angels for me, thank you for taking care of them with love. Salsa, you are my great woman, although I only have an ex-husband for you, but you are the best in my life. Don't ever hate me. I love you Salsa.)

My tears spilled after I read Akmal's sweet message.

Suddenly the door of the hotel room opened, Akmal's face was behind it. His hand carried a birthday cake with a candle ornament inscribed with a togapy-year-old figure.

" Happy birthday to you.. happy birthday to you... Blow out the candle, don't forget to pray." Akmal Pinta soft.

With wet eyes, I took the time to pray in my heart and then blew out the candles.

El looked excited. After the candle died, he was busy rummaging through my birthday cake. El doesn't care about me and Akmal.

Cup..

I gave a ciu*man on Akmal's cheek.

" Thank you for today.I love you, Akmal." My sobbing.

Shamelessly I hugged Akmal tightly not to lose Akmal returned my embrace no less tightly.

Long enough we hugged each other, the most comfortable hug I've ever felt. How can I love another man? If I feel that heaven is only with akmal.

The night is getting late. El, exhausted from playing for too long, fell asleep beside Joseph. Only Akmal and I are awake. Not wanting to miss the sweet moment, Akmal took me to his hotel room through a closet-like room. Without me noticing, if my room and Akmal's are connected. There is a secret door to enter Akmal's room.

" Smart you are?" Said teasing.

" For the sake of enjoying the moment with the angel, whatever I will do."

Akmal's praise that made me fly floated in the clouds.

"We can still monitor the children if someone wakes up or cries." Whisper eared.

Not wanting to waste any time, Akmal pulled me into his arms. As adults, we don't want to miss the night without a touch. And tonight, Akmal created the most beautiful moment of my life, though sin must be repeated.

" Lord.forgive us..." I said in my heart.