I'm Single Mom
ASM 49'S

I approached them and witnessed the sad story of the two of them.

" Zaky, El, from now on... Learn to love each other as brothers, not as lovers. Weight is... That's a test for you. Believe me, you will definitely find the best soul mate. God has prepared that for you."

I tried to give advice to both of them.

" Am I capable of mama?"

"You can do it, baby..." Sad say.

Whoever the person is certainly does not want to experience such complicated love problems, but good luck has not been on my daughter's side.

After breaking up the relationship, El and Zaky agree to be friends. They try to make peace with the situation. Zaky's last hug gave to El. Many tears have been wasted.

" Zaky, may you get a better woman than El, remember!! You are not headed for a serious relationship because you are not blessed. Because the blood ties are thicker than anything." My message to the handsome guy who turns out to be my own niece.

Zaky's gone after saying goodbye to me and El. Something more important than their relationship.

" El, there's something you'd like to ask."

El momentarily stopped his steps, "what's wrong?"

" Sit." My love.

El sat down next to me, "what do you want?"

" El, how far along are you with Zaky?"

" You mean mama?"

" Did Zaky touch you?"

El was silent as if he did not understand the direction of the question I was giving.

" I mean mama... Has Zaky taken your virginity? Emm.. What do you mean by mom... Have you been having a husband and wife relationship?"

El's eyes suddenly rounded. He shook his head many times.

" Just answer El!" My insistence.

Honestly, this is the thing I'm most afraid of. I don't want El to make the same mistake I did.

" El and Zaky aren't that low, mama. El and Zaky still have the faith to stay away from adultery. And it was not so easy that El gave the most precious possession of El to the man who was not the husband of El, ma.

The huft! I can breathe a little. Apparently El is much smarter than I used to be.

" Mama can be wrong, and El won't follow in your footsteps. El does not want the child born from the womb of El will have to suffer the same fate as El, mama. El also did not want El's mother-in-law to look down on El. And neither do you want to lose El's husband, like you have to lose your father."

El passed leaving me pensive.

El's words were like a sledgehammer hitting the chest.

It turns out that my past mistakes, made a bad impact on my children.

***

Today El has started working. After last night's storm of trouble, there was something different about El. His face was much more tapered, even the work clothes he wore were like a joke.

We enjoyed breakfast together. If once El was a jolly boy, now he is more silent.

"A, El's leaving yeah.."

I stared at the plate in front of El. Even the content has not diminished at all.

El kisses me on the cheek, "be careful El." My message.

El just left a little smile on me.

What happened to El?

After they all went to work, now I live in my own home. I went into El's room. I haven't checked into El's room in a long time. Maybe there's something there.

I opened the door to El's room. The smell of smell is in my sense of smell.

Unlike the room a few days ago, now the Princess's room is neat, she is indeed I taught to clean her own room.

I looked at the wall near her dresser. There are some photos on the patch there.

" El, how would you forget that the photo is still on the patch?" My complaint.

I was looking for something strange in this room, but I no longer found it. I finally decided to leave this room.

***

The house was cleaned by a maid. El and Yusuf purposely made my life more relaxed and comfortable. Finally having no job, I chose to take care of the plants behind the house.

Dreams of the past can enjoy a relaxing time with a partner on the back porch only become dreams that will not be realized.

" Sa's.."

My body was so full that someone suddenly called my name.

" What are you doing?" Ask the kidnapper for that voice again.

I turned to the origin of the voice, just like the dream of the man could be here.

" How are you?" Sweep friendly.

The man is still handsome, even though he is no longer young. Her hair began to be covered with white hair.

" Why did you get in?" Uh. Talking to him why should I always be nervous? How humiliating. Your age is no longer young.

" So I forced this house assistant to be allowed in. Don't blame him, I'm wrong. Can I sit down? It turns out that standing too long is tired." He said with a charming smile.

" Please. What do you want to drink?" Lick him.

"My favorite drink if I may."

" I don't know what your favorite drink is." Ketus.

" If you forgot, why don't you get married again?" His words are no less fierce.

" Married or not is my business. If you're just gonna argue and pry into my past, please get out of this house." My banishment.

Being hurt so many times by Akmal makes me a sensitive person.

" Don't get angry when you get old." God again.

I chose to leave it in the kitchen. Make some sweet tea. Whether he likes it or not. Because I'm the month of his wife who has to understand what his favorite is.

" Drink." Cold speech.

" Thank you princess."

As we ran out of words, we were both silent.

Akmal just watched me, making me misbehave.

" What's up lookin' at?"

" Lost."

I don't want to be fooled again by the longing from Akmal's mouth. Don't let me go back to the khilaf and easily it all ends up in bed.

" Did your wife know you were here?" My investigation.

" He doesn't need to know. All he knows is that every night I have to go home. And I'm yetap belongs to him." His face changed.

" By the way, how many kids are you?" I started to get involved with my ex-husband's home life.

" I don't have any children."

My eyes wanted to jump out of place. " Really?" I don't believe it.

" Maybe God is punishing my family, especially me and my mom." Akmal covered his face for a while.

" Mama's always making a fuss with Zaskia. For twenty years, I lived in hell. I want to go back to you guys, but.. Zaskia always threatened to kill my mom. I don't know what my mother's choice is. Mama often regrets that she rejected a woman as good as you and didn't acknowledge the granddaughter of my own flesh and blood." Curse me.

I can't give any advice to my ex-husband. I can only be a good listener.

" Sa, thank you for successfully educating children to be great and wonderful children. I'm proud of you sa. The money I send every month is not much for you. But... You can send them to a higher level. Oh yes Sa, last night when I heard that Zaky was going to propose to a woman, I didn't want us to be there. You know what's on my mind?"

" What.." I asked.