I'm Single Mom
ASM 42'S

I'm Single Mom 42

" If I refuse to marry Zaskia, then mama will not hesitate to make our lives suffer. Especially you. Our lives are threatened, and in my mind you, El and Joseph will live in threat and there is no peace. Even if I take you guys as far as anything, mama's man will find us. And worse, the diploma I have will not apply to job search, because mom will block all access related to me. Sa, I chose to marry Zaskia just for the sake of the comfort of your lives. If I follow my mother's request, she will put all of your names on the monthly payroll receipts list. Mama promised to give you a monthly living. I'm sad to give your account number to my mom. Please don't refuse, even though I know your pride is at stake. But think that the money will be useful for the future of El and Joseph."

I was just stunned to hear all of Akmal's talk. Is that how Akmal sacrificed for us?

The noise from Akmal's phone broke the silence between us.

" Come home! Just follow your family's rules. I can take good care of your children and be the one who will boast of us."

" Please sa, please tell El don't hate me." Akmal sobbed in my arms. Is this weak? He should have given me strength, not the other way around.

After feeling fine, Akmal finally stepped out of the house, leaving behind me and El and Joseph. Bosa so this is our last meeting. Once Zaskia's legal husband, then Zaskia will increasingly have the right to bind Akmal's feet so as not to meet with his children.

*

Trings. One message came in from a number I didn't know. Since Akmal parted ways with me, since Akmal is about to marry Zaskia so many unknown numbers have been on my phone. Bothering me mercilessly.

Though I was very willing to let go of Akmal without ever asking him back to me. Less where I sincerely.

And now someone sent me a video of Zaskia and Akmal's marriage contract. With luxurious decorations dominate their weddings. And that's inversely proportional to my previous marriage to Akmal. Our marriage was very, very simple.

I played this video in a slow voice. Don't forget I locked the door, afraid El came in all of a sudden. I'm afraid El will hate Akmal. Instead Akmal sacrificed for us. For the welfare of our lives.

Akmal loudly and boldly uttered the ijab qabul in the name of Zaskia. Validly! So many people shouted happily welcoming the newlyweds.

I try not to cry. Damnit. In fact I still cry sobbing myself in this room, a room that once bore witness to the wonderful memories between me and Akmal. The room that was once our witness once shared a blanket.

My eyes until sembab cry over the marriage of Akmal and Zaskia, have tried several times sincerely and berlapang chest accept destiny, in fact I am just a human being.

*

The night was getting late, several times El tried to call me, but I just kept quiet. I don't want to meet El with my bad situation. Blotchy eyes and a messy room. Luckily, Joseph was with you today.

I opened the hood, there was a piece of fish and a clear vegetable that was cold. But because my stomach was hungry, eating this cold became delicious for me.

" Sa." a pat on the shoulder surprised me.

Nek Aminah sat next to me.

" A hungry huh?" Her question gently teased me.

" If you are sad, then sad. If it is bad, just throw it. But don't forget to eat. Remember, your kids need your attention. El is sad to see you're not out of the room." Nak Aminah's.

I was stunned to hear the words of Aminah's grandmother. Yes, I can't be selfish. There is still El who is a teenager. El who needs my guidance so as not to fate the same as me.

" When you eat, please meet El, yeah." Pinta nek Aminah's.

I just nodded and immediately continued my food.

" Thank God... Lovely." I said it myself in my heart.

Then I went into my daughter's room. Oh Allah... He fell asleep at his desk.

I want to lift it up I'm not strong.

" The el..."

After shaking his shoulder a few times, he finally woke up.

" Mother..." El hugged me tightly. " Mother don't be sad." Sad talk.

" I'm sorry mommy, I promise you'll be a good mom to you."

El looked at me, we stared at each other and hugged each other back.

" Sleep is already night."

El nodded. After El fell asleep I left him in his night's sleep.

Now it's my turn to not sleep. What's inside my head right now is Akmal's shadow making out with Zaskia. I can't believe that Akmal refused the raw meat parcels offered by the owner. Indeed, cats will not refuse if given salted fish.

Lord... Why is my destiny like this...

Trings.

My phone rang, again from an unknown number. Intention once he bothers me, until it is early morning he still sends a picture message. Book this time with a picture of the bridal room with a luxurious atmosphere. There's a picture of Akmal hugging Zaskia's waist. Uh. Idiotically. Why am I thinking? Are they not legitimate. Even tonight I'm sure they're sipping the world's honey.

I turned off my phone, afraid that it would get a much more horrified picture, because it would disturb my mind and my ASI would be a little.

*

After Akmal's wedding, I never expected Akmal to come home again, but in fact...

" Sales.."

The call in front of the house made me look for the source of the sound.

As soon as possible Akmal pushed me into the house.

" Akmal? What are you doing here?" I'm drowning.

" I miss." And then he kissed my lips. I who have not felt for a long time to reply to Akmal. I am like a thirsty man, like a land that has not been in the rain for a long time. Until I can't resist Akmal's actions more towards me. Yep... We did the ill-gotten deed back without fear of sin.

Many times we enjoy the paradise of the world without the bond of marriage. We woke up when we were both tired. Akmal still hugged me and we were our bodies without a thread covered.

I cried back in Akmal's arms, there was a sense of regret for having to fall back in the mud of blasphemy.

" Akmal, huuu." I cry regretfully. Akmal just went silent without a word. I don't know what's on his mind.

" What happened to Akmal? why do we have to do Akmal?" tergugu.

" we still love each other Salsa, don't force me to stay away from you. I can't afford it." whispered weakly in my ear.