Jandaku's Story
Paet 6 (Mental Preparation)
2days passed without a message notification that would shock me back, but today is the day that I have to mentally prepare me to meet with Al. my ex-lover who I was forced to consider a friend.. it was awkward, it was hard to reconcile myself with this situation, stress started coming to me, I couldn't sleep even though I was taking prescription drugs dr.lala, "it seems I have to see dr.lala" I said in my heart
**flash back on
✓(Anna)
bete nyebelin work leave even no activities, eating sleep mulu.
✓(juna)
brisik....
✓(Anna)
reunion again yok, but b6 aja..
yukkkk yukk gaes
✓(Ririn)
where Anna.
✓(juna)
here to Wonosobo aja, we go to Dieng, there happens to be a lantern festival here, later we camp it so stay in the tent..
✓(Anna)
mauu.......
ayook the laen pleasee pleaseee the yahh
✓(Raka)
by when? I work shifts have to adjust the schedule.
✓ (Anna)
weekend so that Dinda can come..
Dinda... ayoook follow yahh please please, for my sake.
✓(Dinda)
Iyah, I'm coming, but it's weekend well.
✓(Raka)
I can ... friday afternoon we leave, but Sunday we have to go back because Monday I must already be in Jakarta.
jun you prepare what is needed there, I will take care of the transportation problems back home..
✓ (Ririn)
I can too, but I take my husband and children gpp right?
✓ (Raka)
it's okay .. Take it
✓(Anna)
okeeee sippp can all asikkkkk.. friday afternoon get together at my house yaa. we otw farh asikk.
✓(juna)
I wait in wonosobo ya gaes. careful later.
✓(Al)
Raka please book a ticket for me too, I'm coming.
✓(Raka)
readympa...
✓(Anna)
ohhhhh myyy goooooddddd Alllllll really fun you come.. ahh senengggggggggggg aaasikkkkkkkkk*
flash back on
I'm at dr.lala's clinic
"dock noontime" I greeted him as I opened the door and sat myself on his couch
"ehh Dinda, what's up here, isn't your schedule next week?" he wondered to walk towards me and sit beside me
I told all the details about the events of 4 days.so many people entered in my story now that it feels so sudden..
"my fragile soul accepts this sudden situation doc, I'm not ready to get caught up in the story of my own past that I never imagined, I'm afraid to meet Al, I'm confused when I meet Vicky, too, and Syaif makes me feel that he is now happy with his new family, while I doc. I'm like a loser, I hate my life, I hate myself" I said softly bowing my head and unconsciously my tears fell on my cheeks.
the doctor hugged me, calmed me down before he spoke, but Dr. Lala did know how to calm his patients.
"Dinda.. go meet Al, isn't he married and has children, don't be afraid if your presence will ruin your relationship, open a new page with him, if you are awkward to meet him and wherever it is, so be it, be firm to thrust your hand, tell her will you be my best friend" explained dr.lala advising me and managed to make me breathe a sigh of relief
"i'll try doc, but what about Vicky doc?" I have a little high-pitched
"why Vicky, he was your first love, you knew him so well and you both stopped by what you feared Dinda" he asked a little bit of a sneer at me
"dock's new relationship, I'm afraid of it. I'm afraid of a new relationship" I replied limply
"why are you scary things that haven't happened and probably won't happen Dinda haha" this time she laughed at me a little
" Dinda, make peace with yourself, don't let your fear win, you have to master yourself, live your life in the way of the gods, this is no coincidence, this is destiny.. smile now that you are in a good environment with your best friend, Al will be the way for you to learn to make peace with your past story, I'm sure when you make friends back with Al by itself you'll forget and accept the story about Syaif, believe me" again dr.lala makes me smile wide, said the author,
every time I met with dr.lala there was PR I had to work on, but PR made me calmer and slowly forget about my depression..
"dr.lala is right, I have to be confident.God help me" I said in my heart
***
today is the day I wait, the day I will meet Al and my best friend, I will spend my weekend with them,
I said goodbye to my parents and hurried off to Anna's house.
when they arrived at Anna's house, they were all gathered just waiting for me and Al to arrive.
"it's finally coming too" Anna said
"ayu's leaving" asked Ririn
"where's Al?" I was the one who swept through Anna's residence
"cieeee hahaha udh wait in travel, ayu hunt later Raka ngambek can forfeit our ticket transaction" Anna teased me