Jandaku's Story
The Part 94
"astagfirullah...Dinda.." muttered Vicky
"He just assumed, but did not believe for sure, at first he rejected his own thoughts, but not given permission to meet you is one of the big mistakes of your parents ky, ky, he feels alone living in your home alone. Feeling guilty at the accident, crying, anger, laughing and hallucinating. Dinda was also not given access to communication by your parents, so Dinda could not reach communication with her best friend"
"who told Dinda that Vicky died Doc?" ask Juna
"later I will explain" replied dr. Lala
"and why did my papah do that?" ask Vicky
"at first they were confused, they really did not know that his son-in-law had a history of mental illness, when he came home from the hospital, Dinda just kept quiet, your parents thought that it was only natural because Dinda was feeling sad about your condition, then they left her alone at home and only accompanied by a maid who came in the morning and went home in the afternoon. Your parents also did not dare to report all the conditions and events of this accident to Dinda's parents and family, they assumed they would discuss with you first, waiting for you to realize"
"but doc, I once came to the same house as Juna, inget kan Jun, when you opened a branch in Cirebon. And he looks fine, yes, he did not have time to chat anyway because Dinda again slept in his room" said Raka
"but yes, there is something different.. Dinda was hard to sleep, even at night, and it was daytime when she could sleep well" said Juna
"the trauma has risen again, the fear of loss, guilt and helplessness has enveloped him who is lonely, so he hallucinates, just to comfort himself" said Dr. Lala
"She feels lonely, until a hallucination will be created, and written in detail by Dinda in this book"
dr. Lala brought out a green book with a cherry blossom pattern from Dinda
"hallucinations..?" al
"yes, during these 2 weeks Dinda hallucinated..he wrote everything here, dr.Al when was the last time you met Dinda?" ask dr. Lala
"when the accident, with you also dock and there is Juna also there" replied Al
"that was the beginning of this story...
Juna... You see when Dinda cries hysterically.? shortly after asking you about Vicky's condition" asked Dr. Lala
"yes, but I'm not saying that Vicky died doc" replied Juna
"that's where Dinda's mind begins to divert from the real world to the hallucination world.
Indeed, there is no one who claims that Vicky is dead.
His fear of losing someone again, and plus not meeting you at all, made Dinda draw her own conclusions.
imagine for these two weeks he fought against his own hallucinations, and see how many stories he wrote about you"
"about us?" ask Ririn
"yes, this is all about you, because I ask that you all gather here.
Al.... Have you ever met Dinda before, and just the two of you?" ask dr. Lala
Anna immediately glanced at Al waiting for her answer
"once doc, while in Jakarta, after the seminar I met Dinda again brought her ex-husband, we continued to the station to make plans to go home to Cirebon, and a little chat until Vicky comes to pick him up and then it's done" Al replied
"in this book Dinda hallucinates that you still like her and pursue her, because Dinda thinks that she is a widow" said Dr. Lala made Al shocked
"huh." asked Al surprised
"Anna... When was the last time you saw Dinda and what were you talking about?"
"mmm... before going to Jakarta Dinda never met at the mall, I was with Akbar at that time, we discussed Dimas dok" replied Anna lowered her gaze because she knew Al was staring at him.
"maybe it's a little sensitive, but I'm sorry, are you divorced?" ask dr. Lala
"yes" replied Al
"but unfortunately Dinda hallucinates that you are fine, even Anna loves Al very much, and in this book it is Al who wants to maintain the marriage, and even the, but in the end Dinda thinks that Anna is jealous of her because Al still likes Dinda, which results in you fighting back. In essence, Dinda still blames herself" said Dr. Lala
"huh.. who's right?" mummy Al
"Dinda notes that after you had a big fight, you decided to try to continue your relationship, asking for and forgiving each other, you were told by Dinda as a couple who were just starting their life, but because Al always approached Dinda, Anna became jealous and hated Dinda" said Dr. Lala
"i don't hate Dinda...!!!" anna was upset
"i'm just explaining what Dinda wrote, can we continue?" ask dr. Lala
"please dok" said Vicky
"Hmmm.. Dinda and Vicky dok's wedding time"
"oh.. lama yes, maybe that's why your figure is made the one who hates Dinda the most here, because in the world in fact you haven't seen Dinda for a long time, this makes Dinda feel that you don't care about her" says Dr. Lala
"astage... Dinda" muttered Ririn
"June..."
"yes doc.?"
"have you discussed your household with Dinda?"
"you never did, you didn't" replied Juna.
"it was June, the time in the cafe with Vicky and Dinda, who suddenly Vicky nitipin Dinda was" said Raka
"ah.yeah doc, I got goosebumps remember Vicky's words" said Juna
"you've never, intentionally or unintentionally, joked around with Dinda" asked Dr. Lala
"she's all the girls being seduced by the doc" replied Ririn
"hehe yes ever doc" replied Juna
"Exactly... Here Dinda tells that you are the one who likes Dinda the most, a sense of responsibility to carry out Vicky's request to keep Dinda sniffled by Dinda. She assumed that you would take care of her by marrying her after divorcing Mayang" said Dr. Lala
"uh.. lah buset dah..?" surprised Juna
"the only person who cares the most is you ka, Dinda knows that when the accident all your administrative affairs are taken care of, so all the affairs that are in Dinda's hallucinations, all of you also manage it"
"me.? arranging.? meaning?" asked Raka curiously
"here it is told that you planned how to make Dinda happy and responsible for Dinda's future. You are Dinda's only grip" said Dr. Lala
"may I read the book Doc?" ask Raka
"maybe, when our conversation is over" replied dr. Lala
"but I reiterate at first, please don't blame Dinda completely, this is just her illusion, her shadow and her delusion because she's sick, the rest of us as normal people please look at this with a wise perspective"
"dok.. are hallucinations dangerous?" ask Al
"if Dinda continues to hallucinate, Dinda will be stuck there, and will reject the real world" Dr. Lala replied
"actually what did my wife hallucinate doc?" ask Vicky
"there is still a positive threshold, fortunately Dinda has not far into the hallucination" replied dr.Lala
"dok, I heard Dinda went to the hospital again yesterday, why doc, Dinda's okay, right?" ask Anna
"we re-excited yes, in his hallucination he felt that Mayang was meeting him and scolded him for the circumstances where Juna liked him.
forcing Dinda to feel guilty for being an actor in your household.
but in reality, Dinda's depression peaked, Dinda could not control her emotions, and coupled with never having Dinda brought your parents to see me for a consultation...... And Dinda.....
He jumped off Vicky's balcony"
"astaga.." All were surprised without exception.
"Dinda tried to kill herself again Doc?" ask Vicky
"yes" replied dr. Lala
"o Allah Dinda.. pardon me aa nda" muttered Vicky grieving.
"so yesterday wasn't a motorcycle accident, it was Doc's suicide?" ask Al
"yes" replied dr. Lala
{sorry, if it makes my loyal readers brain-twist to remember some of the previous parts, because the groove will go back and forth}
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