Jandaku's Story
The Part 86
Experiencing a traumatic life event made my life story even more complicated, I charged everyone around me. To make myself an object of ice that cannot be brittle and melted.
"i should have gone, you know, not Vicky, if Vicky had lived, he would have been happy with his parents, remarried and happy with his children, look at me when I was alive, he said, I am just a huge burden to the people around me even to my unborn child" I told Raka, who was not answered with a single sentence
My two in-laws re-entered my room and stayed with Dion who accompanied him.
A different look on their faces compared to when they entered my room for the first time, welcoming my pregnancy with joy.
This time, their smiles looked heavy pushy.
"sad.. try asking granddaughter, what would she eat.? or what do you want.?" ask my mother-in-law
"no, Dinda wants to go to bed it's already night.. In. you guys just go home, there are already mamah and papah" I said telling them to leave
"are you okay we're staying?" ask Raka
"it's okay.anyways the clock is over. Please end your duty until here ka, leave me alone here. I'm fine, and thank you for everything" I said
"om. aunt.we say yes" said Raka.
"thank you for everything, you are indeed a good child Ka, Vicky's proposal in Bali, honeymoon in NTT, Vicky's accident, Vicky's funeral, until Dinda's happiness until now all of you are taking care of it, may your rezeky be smooth, facilitated all your wishes and all your life affairs in the world and in the hereafter. Greetings to your family, long soul mate and healthy all yes Ka" said my father-in-law
Raka. figure of my best friend who never tired accompany me, never selfless and never complain.
It's not because of me, Raka is nice to everyone.
When Juna's business fell, it was Rakalah who embraced Juna until Juna became successful as he is now.
When we lost the figure of Al who chose to stay away from us while with Hesty, it was Rakalah who struggled to stay able to communicate with Al just to find out.
At the time of Ririn's husband's business fell, Raka also helped invest his capital in Dadang.
And when Anna's mother was very sick, Raka was the one standing in the front row taking care of all her insurance until Anna's mother was fully healed.
Raka never said anything, even saying that he loved us he never said.
But his warm treatment of us was enough to prove that not only dear, but he loved us.
From the grand treatment to the small treatment like giving drinks to me and Vicky while sitting in a row busy serving the guests.
"drink first, you'll get sick later" he said to me and Vicky
And with this incident..
I know that Raka's heart is broken, Raka has been killed by her own expectations.
Who expects his friends to be as sincere as he is.
This incident broke his heart.
I don't know what happened to our friendship.
Because actually the main role of our friendship is Raka.
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"no need to pesen ojol, the cave is inter" said Dion knowing that Raka's car used Al and Anna to Cirebon
"nothin?" tanya Raka made sure
"it's getting tired of thinking about other people and forgetting about yourself, don't always ask questions like that, everything will be fine, stop worrying that people around you feel uncomfortable" Dion said
"yeah, yukk ..all those who want a bullshit cave, maybe we stop at one of the cafes first later"
"about what?"
"Minda"
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In a cafe with a crowd of young people who gathered to enjoy a cup of coffee and accompanied by a band, Dion and Raka sat in the corner of an outdoor cafe with a view of the streets of the capital bustling.
"what about Dinda?" asked Raka directly without further ado
"his pregnancy is the best gift for Vicky's parents, but for him this is the beginning of his psyche will be disturbed" said Dion made Raka think hard
"you mean what?" tanya Raka strained her two eyebrows waiting for Dion's reply
"Dinda has begun to hallucinate, and also feels guilty for Vicky's death so she wants to give her child. This is also driven by the fear of not being able to take care of her child alone. Ka. she just knew her pregnancy has not been 24 hours but has shown symptoms of depression, try to imagine how the next 9 months" said Dion explained that was listened to well by Raka who listened without cutting her speech
"not to mention when giving birth, when the child is not born, he shows that he does not accept it especially when the child is present, the baby blues will collaborate with his depression later" explained Dion.
"then what will happen?" ask curiously Raka
"he's going to have a mental breakdown.!"
.....!!!!!!! Cafe table in a loud buzz by Raka
"be careful in talking yes, do not because you are a doctor so it can be arbitrary, Dinda has a psychiatrist, we will take him there" said Raka pointed at Dion's face
"we..? who's? the friends of Dinda.? the friends who did not make Dinda happy but instead made new wounds in Dinda's heart"
"what's.?"
"don't you think that far.Dinda's problem is getting more complicated since you attended, you should only meet at the reunion just don't have to continue to meet again"
"Dinda was destined to meet Vicky at the reunion, but you guys dominated their meeting"
"but we also brought them together in Bali"
"they will remain united, if there is no Al who proposed to Dinda, there is no Al and Anna quarrel that caused Vicky to have an accident"
"it's destiny Di. You have no right to blame anyone for someone's death"
"i'm sure you know Juna likes Dinda, everyone knows even if he only sees Juna's eyes on Dinda, but you... choosing to close your eyes and ears while things still feel fine for you, that's why you dare to leave Dinda in Juna's shophouse which causes his wife to misunderstand, and when it happens it becomes like this. You just cursed Juna who likes Dinda, even though you can prevent it at the beginning"
"you also understand that your friendship has been unhealthy since Anna became jealous of Dinda, and Ririn advised Juna and Al about their household while at Dinda's house"
"where do you know all that.?" ask Raka
"it's not important the cave knows where.The important thing is you don't be selfish, don't feel that everything will be okay, if you can't afford it, you still have time now"
"meaning"
"to stop trying to make Dinda happy, stay with Dinda and let Dinda find her own happiness. Dinda would rather suffer for being abandoned by you than suffer for the problems that will arise if you stay by her side"
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