Jandaku's Story
The Part 64
"are you here, na?"
Anna let out a long sigh, from her gaze I knew that she did not like my presence. "this is my husband's office, why is it that if I'm here, what are you doing here?"
"ah. i..."
"na, the doctor already..uh nda, I thought you were the day" said Al who was surprised to see me.
"you're making a pact?" said Anna
"yes, there's something Dinda wants to talk about with me, but I'll take Anna first, yuk the doctor is waiting for you" Al grabbed Anna's hand and left me
"what do you want to talk to Dinda about?"
"i don't know either, come in" Al asked
(dr.lala room)
"morning doc. introduce this to my wife Anna" said Al.
"good morning mba Anna" said dr.lala
"dock in the morning" Anna smiled at the hand of dr.lala shaking it
"please sit down" said dr.lala
"mmm if that is so. I'm sorry doc, happened to have Dinda also in my room" said Al pamit.
"it's not a family consultation, at least you should be here" Anna stared intently at Al
"but your privacy is discussed" replied Al
"i won't consult if you don't get me here" Anna said
"not what doc, both are actually better because they will pour out the wishes of each heart directly" said dr.lala
"oh. well, I'll tell Dinda for a moment" said Al
"he can wait for Al, sit here" said Anna patting the sofa next to him
dr.lala who from the beginning had noticed Al and Anna now only smiled faintly and let out a long sigh.
I waited 30 minutes for Al and Anna to arrive in Al's room. They still haven't come back. And my phone rings
✓hey Jun...
✓you all right?
✓well, you?
✓well...
✓why call?
✓mmmm this... mmm. tomorrow we directly collect at the station yes.
✓oh.
✓don't bring a lot of stuff, we just stay not anywhere
✓iya, I know ko
✓mmm you what again?
✓me again in the Hospital, in Al's room exactly
✓hah.. what?
✓kkan you told me to find a job
✓ah..iya yes... have you talked to Al?
✓not yet.. Al sama Anna kanya had business so have not returned to the room
✓you were left alone in the room
✓iya.. I wait for them to come back.
✓do I have to go there?
✓make what? I can handle it myself, soon Al same Anna also comes
✓if there's any news of me yes
✓iya... uh tumben speaking politely, why am I you?
✓ah.. yes. yaudah gua matiin yah bye.
✓bye Jun
"Dinda.." said Al.
"so what do you want to obrolin nda?" ask Anna
I was really uncomfortable with Anna's gaze "is Anna jealous of my arrival?" speak my heart
"ah.. yes, I was going to want a locker, but just called my friend, ngabarin if my application was accepted" I said
"oh yeah.. Where? you almost work here"
"ayeah..." I scratched my head that wasn't itchy
"why the risk if now even looking for a job?" ask Anna
"mmm Vicky told me to start working at home, so I just needed to work at home, but we forgot it was just our plan as humans, all God willing, be me like this, far from my own shadow" I explained
"Vicky has been around for how long" asked Anna
"about 2 weeks, why? I smiled at him
"i'm surprised, you can still smile sweetly even though it's only been a few weeks since Vicky's departure, have you really lost her?" ask Anna
"what?" much
Anna's question surprised me, not just me, but Alpun responded similarly to me.
"you said what the hell" said Al
"i was wrong, sorry, sorry, sorry" he said
"ah.yeah it's okay, I hear you guys are not getting divorced yes, I'm happy to hear it, congratulations ya" I said divert
"it's good that you're happy" Anna said
"mm tomorrow we're going to the island?" tanya Al melted the atmosphere
"yes.. Juna said we were meeting at the station" I replied
"good" said Anna
"mmm if I go home, there's business" I said
"nda.. dd.lala wants to meet he said, your medicine is also exhausted right?" ask Al
"mmm I'm okay, I have business, so just say hello to dr.lala yes, okay I go home yes, bye na.. Al.." I said and then passed away leaving them.
Right now why it feels awkward to meet them, why am I so nervous, uncomfortable even though they are my best friends.
Is Anna really jealous of me?
why is he jealous of me?
I never said I liked Al.
I never said yes to Al.
he never encouraged her to divorce.
I was dizzy, for some reason lately I was easily dizzy and tired. Before bothering others, I had to hurry to get home and rest to prepare for my departure tomorrow.
This time I decided to go home to Vicky. The house I was supposed to live with, the house we dreamed of being our future and our old age. Making a happy family, mawadah and warahmah with him, and also our children.
"assalamualaikum... Dinda came home" I said stepping inside the house
The house is warm and quiet despite being in the middle of the city, when I entered I was greeted with a picture of my wedding and Vicky.
Our happy portrait. You look great in that picture.
This house is neatly arranged, Vicky really likes art, he is an amateur painter, a lot of art here. There is one of the decorative stones with the inscription "lucky the dead bring their love"
I don't understand what that means..
I watched our wedding video clip, it was so fun and happy we were there, I occasionally shed tears, flowed hard remembering the moment. "a Dinda kangen aa so much" I cried sobbing
Why did Vicky meet me, be reunited with her first love and leave her with her last love. "Lord.what exactly are your plans.'
"I felt grateful that God had given me a husband and a son, but the moment God dropped me by parting with them, God took my son God snatched my husband.. When I fell down, God lifted me back with happiness with Vicky, not satisfied I was happy God dropped me back with the departure of Vicky.. is this your game god..?'
"Why does it feel like I hate God today.There are too many sins I have committed that God hates me. Is that bad for me? is that what I am? if that's how I should go, I'm dead, why Vicky? can't God see a mother and father who lost a child? don't you thank God for me, the wife that her husband left behind?"
"What do I really hate? do I really hate God? or do I hate myself?"
All day long I cry over the things I regret in life. Crying so much, thinking of nothing but the pain of my life.
When the afternoon came, I realized that the sun had sunk and began to cover the darkness in Vicky's house.
It felt like spending the night here because of my tired body, but considering that tomorrow morning I had to rush to the station to wake me up that my belongings were still at home.
I also went home even though my body was reluctant to leave this house "Dinda go first yes a, later Dinda will go home as soon as possible" I said