Jandaku's Story
The Part 70
I was taken by Al half running towards the courtyard of Homestay Al and Anna..
Al's hand was still clasping tightly onto my hand that was shaking in fear.
"quiet me I'll grab a drink, you wait here" Al passed leaving me sitting in a still chair with a trembling body.
"drink" Al thrusts out a white drinking water in a long glass glass. And I drink it.
"You're okay, calm down. Do you have medicine? ah.. Your medicine is up, right? that's why I told you to go to dr.lala, why don't you think about yourself while we're all thinking about you..!" Al was upset half-screaming that I felt he was going to wake Anna inside.
"sorry." I said, still shaking and crying
"don't apologize, calm yourself..Are you panicking now?" asked in a soft tone. I nodded my head in a nod, still trembling and crying.
Al suddenly hugged me "calm down... A depressed person just needs to feel calm" he said, now hugging me tightly, burying my face in his chest.
The hug I felt in college with him. It hasn't changed and it's still as warm as it used to be.
Although I did not return his embrace nor did I refuse his embrace, Al kept holding me until I felt that I had calmed down with a body that did not shake and did not cry anymore.
Slowly my body followed my warm heart, its vibration now turned into the pounding of my heart, and my cry now changed with my hot face.
I came to my senses and pushed Al's body slowly not showing that I was resisting his embrace right now.
"thank you Al, I'm calm now" I said
"good.would you like another drink?" he said and I shook my head
"do something positive if you don't want to sleep, don't even join someone who is drunk, it's dangerous.I don't know what happens if I don't come" the man who now sits facing the beach.
"yes. sorry"
"forget what Juna did to you, and don't talk to anyone about this anything else about Juna kissing you, just pretend nothing happened"
"how to do, even to meet Juna just feels unable to"
"That's exactly how you become weak and depressed, fight everything, you are a strong person.don't lose.if this is how our friendship will become awkward, even awkward, I'm sure Juna is unconscious and won't remember what happened tomorrow night"
"seriously he won't remember?"
"yes.but usually what the unconscious person says is true, it's good that at least he can express his feelings to you, then what about you, do you like him too?"
"He's my friend where possible"
"I was your friend too"
"don't equate dong. moreover Juna was married, I didn't even think that far towards Juna even though he was a good person"
"you know you're bad"
"why? i why?"
"you are too kind and never reject men who approach you, so they put their hope in you. If you do not want to, then when they approach reject them or with your body gesture. They'll be able to read and finish"
"how to resist something that has not yet begun, does it seem that I am too confident to conclude that the man likes me without them saying it"
"yes, too. ah. Just take care of yourself, now you're alone"
"yes, I know I'm alone"
"mys..."
"hmmm"
"i'm sorry I left you with Hesti"
"ah.. I didn't even have time to ask your reason for being blocked with you huh"
"i was that bad, I'm sorry"
"forget that I too have forgotten, do not open the wound that Al has healed"
"every day meeting with Hesti makes me lose my mind"
"Letting go of the good for the better is not as smooth as I expected"
"I..."
"yes..?"
"That rumor... about Hesti.. Can I hear from you?"
"He didn't commit suicide, we had a fight that day, and until he finally left home and had an accident, and his bruises were caused by his death. So it wasn't her accident that resulted in her dying, but she had a heart attack during the accident".
"Ah. I'm so sorry Al..."
"that's okay, because that's why I know what it's like to be you when you lose Vicky."
"yes, thank you"
Moments later I chose to go home to my Homestay and Al drove me to the front of the house, I saw Juna and Raka still lying by the bonfire. Al said to ignore it and let it go. Al will accompany Raka and Juna to keep her from approaching the campfire and also prevent her from entering the house and making a noise inside the house.
I went in my room, locked it tight so that no one could get in here.
**
The morning had come, we had breakfast and then it would be followed by our return.
I had breakfast sitting in the apit by Nabil and Raka next to me.
"good Morning gaes.wih breakfast is very heavy, coffee dong coffee" said Juna who just came to sit next to Al.
"Dinda.you left us, yes, the evil one" I looked at him and smiled forcefully.
"yes it's good, why also wait for you guys to be tepar, strange, that there is a danger of tau" said Ririn.
"ih... I'm the same Raka did not do anything, yakan nda?"
"hmmm yeah, it's just cold so I came in" I looked at Al and looked down
"uh right.. gua mah maboknya not rese tau. oi coffee oi, lama..!" juna
"had something happened?" Nabil whispered to me. I shook my head
"you should come in when I come in" he said, taking vegetables for me
"thank you" that's all I said from my lips.
Breakfast was over, and we were ready to go home.
When on the ship I prefer to chat with Nabil back than to join my best friend. I was completely avoiding Juna.
"you're okay, didn't really happen last night?" I looked at me waiting for my answer
I forgot that Nabil was good at reading people's situations and feelings, the more I answered, the more suspicious he was.
"yes, but I can't tell you, it's just a matter of friendship between us. Please don't talk about it, I know you understand the situation but just act normal for the comfort of my friends, please"
"well, it's smart of you to beg, well make yourself as comfortable as possible" she smiled at me.
**
By the time we reached the port, Nabil immediately withdrew my hand.
"Like me yes, you guys first we will meet at the station there is still 3 hours left for the train to come" he said talking to my best friend
"cie. yaudah be careful" said Ririn.
"but you wear a skirt, we've discussed this before" said Juna
"i've bought her pants and a jacket for her, so relax she's safe with me, put Dinda's suitcase on" Nabil said, pulling my hand away from them, and I just forcefully smiled and followed in his footsteps.
And Juna looked upset by what happened, especially when he was tucked away with my suitcase.