Just Want to Be Appreciated
Lousy

This morning Risa felt her body so sick, especially at the core. With slowly Risa got out of bed and into the bathroom, after soaking with warm water for a long time Risa began rinsing herself under the shower.

"Mas," Risa was shocked when she saw Hilman already standing in front of the bathroom door, maybe Hilman was waiting for her to come out.

"It's over?" hilman asked, because he wanted to take a shower immediately.

Risa nodded, she clasped the towel tightly on her chest. If from yesterday-yesterday Risa was just ordinary with a towel in front of Hilman, but not now. Now Risa felt a sense of awkwardness, and also shame. Remembering last night what happened between the two.

"Quick move in from there, before I pull you in again. Then we take a bath together" Hilman said.

Risa immediately left and was afraid that Hilman's words would become real instead, not Risa would not. It's just that he is still very tired after being in the fighting all night, even he can only sleep after dawn and wake up at 07:02.

Sintia's mother felt there was something different in the morning, if usually Risa was always excited but not this morning. Even Hilman was also seen occasionally sipping coffee while looking at Risa, Sintia's mother's brain was thinking harder. What is going on between Risa and Hilman, and Sintia's mother is very afraid if Hilman divorces Risa.

"What's wrong?" mother Sintia asked breaking the silence.

Risa just silently lowered her head, and scooped food on her mouth. Risa was indeed very hungry, but the shame was no less great and either she could look at Hilman's face today after what happened last night. For a moment Risa realized that there was no need to be ashamed, and awkward. But still the feeling came by itself, until Risa could only keep trying to calm down. There was no regret as he handed himself over to Hilman, as it already belonged to Hilman. It's just that Risa is afraid that if she is pregnant and Hilman can't accept it, that stupid thought seems to haunt her. Although Hilman may not be as bad as Risa thinks.

"Hilman, Risa," Sintia's mother is still confused and afraid that her son and daughter-in-law are fighting, and she needs an explanation, "You Why?" ask Sintia's mother again.

"Why, Mom?" ask Hilman back.

Sintia's mother mendesus, and she felt she had not got the answer she wanted, "You and Risa why are silent, usually you fuss. You're not thinking of splitting up, are you?" sintia's mother asked with a feeling of anxiety.

"Ohuk...uhuk...." Risa immediately choked because of Mother Sintia's question, because the opposite happened. Risa and Hilman have been united like a husband and wife in general.

Hilman gave his drinking water to Risa, and quickly Risa took a sip.

Sintia's mother was shocked by Hilman's treatment, and perhaps her guess was wrong until she breathed a sigh of relief. Her biggest fear is the divorce between Risa and Hilman.

"Mom, Hilman to the office first" said Hilman.

"Yes, be careful."

"Risa is also Ma'am" said Risa.

"Yes," Sintia's mother was still confused and wondered if what had happened until this morning there was no commotion, and she felt something different, "What are they?" mother Sintia's mind began to lead to something halal for the couple, seeing Risa walking so gracefully was completely different from usual. Then Mother Sintia's lips were drawn to each corner, "My grandson will soon be OTW," Sintia's mother said with a happy smile.

"Risa," Hilman's hand held Risa's arm.

Risa who wanted to get out of the room Hilman could not get out, she turned around and looked at Hilman who was sitting on the sofa.

"Yes?" answer Risa.

"I want to talk," Hilman patted the sofa beside him.

Risa nodded and immediately sat down beside Hilman, then she also had no idea about what Hilman was going to say.

"Are you sorry?" hilman asked, he was sure Risa knew the meaning of his question.

"Repent?" ask Risa back.

"Yes, after last night," Hilman explained.

Risa shook her head, "Not at all," replied Risa, "When I'm willing to marry you, it means I'm ready for it. And when you're legally my husband, it means I'm ready to give you your rights."

Hilman was surprised by Risa's answer, because it turned out that Risa was so sincerely married to him. And he also feels the most stupid man, because all this time resisted the desire because of prestige. Risa is also ready without refusing.

"Am I being too cheap?" risa asked, because Hilman looked silent. And Risa did not understand Hilman's current thoughts.

Hilman who looked down turned to look at Risa, he smiled at Risa's question that sounded ridiculous, "Murahan is not like you, you are a woman who is full of surprises and I did not expect. Thanks again."

"Mas can I ask you a question?" Risa feels bad if constantly confused, she is afraid of being wrong and better to ask. What else to remember Sintia's mother who loved her so much.

"What?" Hilman was looking forward to what Risa would ask.

Risa took a sip of saliva, and tried to remain calm. Better to ask than he made a mistake, "Mas, we've already....." Risa looked at Hilman with her words hanging, and she was sure Hilman knew her intent, "And Mother blatantly asked for a grandchild, but I wanted to ask. Because I know after last night there will be nights ahead, whether you want me to conceive your child or not. Otherwise I'll see a doctor, and be ready to do KB?" ask Risa.

Hilman was surprised by Risa's question, but Hilman's current wish did not want to part with Risa. And one of her streets is Risa must be pregnant with her child.

Risa was silent waiting for Hilman's answer, she was wanting to hear Hilman's answer. If Hilman does not want her to contain meaning Risa will not involve feelings during being Hilman's wife, Risa will keep her heart from ever falling in Hilman's arms, as well, even Risa will prepare herself if at any time she and Hilman divorced.

Risa never knew whose name was hurt, even though she was rejected by men before her. That was because Risa was good at guarding her heart, and this time was the same. Even if he has surrendered himself does not mean he gave up his heart, and he is looking forward to Hilman's answer so much that he is good at placing his current position.