Just Want to Be Appreciated
Diaries

"Hueeekk..... Hueeekk....." Devan continued to vomit, because he remembered the face of the grandmother who had asked to be smeared by him.

"Dev, what's wrong with you?" ask Sarah who saw Devan.

"Mual Ma," said Devan, then Devan entered and he immediately headed for his room. Arriving in the room Devan went into the bathroom after that he changed his clothes with joggers and t-shirts to make it lighter. Repeatedly Devan rubbed his face, because he was still upset at Adam who worked it all out.

Tok to tok.

There was a knocking on the door.

"Lake in!" devan said with a heavy voice.

The doorknob moved, until the door opened and Sarah was there.

"It's hot tea," Sarah put her on the table, and then she sat down next to Devan, "You still nauseous?" ask Sarah.

"Ma, can you make rujak?" devan asked, I don't know why he wanted to eat rujak.

"Ruby?" Sarah was confused, so she asked again.

"Yes, Ma."

Sarah for a moment and, because she knew Devan never liked to eat rujak. But for this time Devan's request was quite strange.

"Are you sure you want a rujak?" ask Sarah again.

Devan nodded, because he wanted to eat rujak.

"Huueeekkkk......" Devan closed his mouth and immediately went into the bathroom.

"Dev, what's wrong with you?" ask Sarah to panic.

"Huuueeekkkk......." finished vomiting Devan out of the bathroom, he sipped a warm tea made by Sarah just now, "Where is the dish?" ask Devan.

"Huh?" Sarah nodded, she thought Devan was not serious about asking rujak, "Mama make it first yes. Youwait. Not long," Sarah rushed out immediately, and headed for the kitchen.

Devan took another sip of tea, and he briefly recalled Hanna's face. After that Devan came out of the room, he went to the room that used to be occupied by Hanna. In the hope of hopefully treating a bit of longing in his heart, Devan's legs slowly stepped in. He sat down on the side of the bed and remembered Hanna's face, and Devan opened the drawer hoping that Hanna's belongings would be left there. And the bottom of the drawer was none of Hanna's belongings, there was only one money she might have given Hanna.

Devan's feelings are getting more and more unnerving, because it means Hanna left empty-handed with no money in her hands. Devan then opens the closet, there are no Hanna clothes there. There's only a ring she put on Hanna's ring finger. It was their wedding ring, but Hanna was no longer wearing it. Devan squeezed the ring in his hand, he bowed down with one of his hands holding the closet. A drop of Devan's tears fell, along with a growing sense of longing. Until Devan saw there was an object there, it was a pink diary.

Devan lowered his head and picked up the diary, without which it fell accidentally until it was left there. When Devan will open the diary terrenya in the key, so it can not be opened just like that. It was not difficult for Devan to make the key break, with just a little bit of effort he managed to damage the key. Devan sat down on the side of the bed, and began to open it.

'He came with love, but left with a million wounds. He was present happily, but not to last forever!.'

'Thank you for giving me a little happiness, I just live a kara thirsty for love. Even if you only come for a moment, but at least I've known the meaning of love. And it turns out love hurts. Very.'

Devan fell silent, unable to see more of the contents of the diary. Until he accidentally saw the writing behind the photo.

'This feeling is dead, and it will never come back. You're just the past. It will never be my future!'

"Hanna, don't ever forget me. I can't be without you" said Devan, bowing in lethargy.

Sarah originally wanted to go to Devan's room, but as she passed the room that Hanna had once occupied. Sarah's eyes saw the door half open, finally Sarah unravelled to Devan's room. He slowly enters Hanna's room. Sarah's heart ached when she saw Devan crying there, her hands squeezing a ring. And Sarah's convinced it's Hanna's ring.

The pain Devan felt was the same as the pain Devan felt. Because of everything that happened because of him, Devan did all this because of him. Sarah is not really strong to see Devan's suffering, Sarah came out of the room before Devan saw her. He put a crack in his hand on the table, and with a run he headed for Agatha's study.

Cleks.

Sarah opened the door and saw Agatha standing in front of the window. Reading some papers in his hand.

Agatha saw Sarah coming in, but she didn't care. Since then, Agatha and Sarah's relationship has not been good. Even Agatha and Sarah have never communicated as well as they once did.

"Pa," Sarah immediately ran, and unexpectedly Blood immediately hugged Agatha's leg. Sarah's tears spilled so hard, "Hiks....." Sarah kept crying hoping Agatha would forgive herself.

Agatha remained silent, staring out the window without looking at Sarah.

"Pa, Mama please.please forgive Mama, hiks...."

"For what?!" agatha asked as if she did not care, Agatha's cold attitude made people around her never dare to her.

"Pa, Mama is sorry..hiks...hiks. Devan is not wrong, he is so because of Mama," said Sarah again still with a cry.

"Why should I regret it!"

"Pa, hicks.....Papa can punish Mama. Papa can punish Mama like Papa wants, but please don't Devan Pa, he's not wrong."

"Then?"

"Pa, please don't hide Hanna again,. Mama's sure Papa's hiding Hanna, right?" guess Sarah, "Please Pa, Mama please," Sarah asked with a hiccup.

"I never hid Hanna, Devan alone was insincere looking for Hanna," Agatha replied casually.

Sarah was shocked by Agatha's reply, she who was still sitting on the floor but started to puff up, "I mean Papa?"

"The Devan never tried himself to find where Hanna and Derren were, he just relied on his men," replied Agatha again lightly, "Obviously not to meet, because Devan's man is not allowed to look for Hanna. So until then you won't be able to find Hanna!"