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I was so stupid before

after getting into the car I leaned against my body, my cries could not be contained anymore, I sobbed sobbing could not speak my body limp My mind was empty my arms hugged me tightly along crying, rubbing my hair and trying to calm me

"the way do"

Mita orders to the driver who is also my father's right hand, I can only surrender and continue to cry somewhere they will take me breath stinged with sobs, it feels right2 tightness in the chest.

I was willing to get out of the rahardjo family to be with mas novan because my mother's same father did not agree I married mas novan

Maybe their parents' instincts are not wrong, they can already guess what kind of man mas novan is

While I am blinded for love prefers to get out of the house and leave all the facilities that my father gave me

Because from my point of view mas novan a gentle, polite person can accept me as I am, he said, notabene I was just an intern at my father's place without anyone knowing that I was the daughter of the rahardjo family

So soft and sweet attitude mas novan used to make me drugged and not think with logic even put forward my feelings, really stupid me at that time, my curse in the heart

I kept sobbing it felt like I couldn't stop

I don't know if these tears don't end

Mita did not let go of her embrace, further tightening her embrace

sometimes he rubbed my tears, trying to calm me...

" it's yu, don't cry anymore.A man like that doesn't deserve you to cry"

His whisper still remained with his sob

"you've got everything, he's the one who's gonna regret dumping you"

I couldn't make a sound, it felt like my body had no energy, my whole bones felt weak, only tears were unceasingly flowing

Want me to say that I did not cry for novan mas, I cried for my stupidity that has lived 5 years like garbage as his wife

I weep for my daughter who will ask about her papa and I have to answer what

It feels like the oxygen in this world is going to run out my chest is getting crowded....

How not

I am willing to leave all the facilities of the family luxury for my love for mas novan

Even when I was his wife I got bad treatment from the mas novan family even I still survive for my love, I who never do homework after marriage was even worse than a maid

And that's all I do with advertising in the name of love

Even when my daughter who is also the flesh and blood of mas novan does not get the proper affection of her grandparents, I still give her understanding under the pretext and reasons that sometimes cannot be understood by a 3 year old

It is ironic that my 5-year life at the mas novan house I thought would be sweet fruit that I hoped would be beautiful because of my patience and my temperament

It turned out that I was thrown away after they found out that the manager's daughter at the mas novan company was working in love with him and wanted to be honey

Either I'm stupid or my fate isn't good until it ends like this

my vision faded and my consciousness diminished, my body became weaker

.........fainting.....