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back home

"mama....."

Shouted a 3-year-old girl with hair in her ponytail as she ran up to me and hugged me...

I hugged my daughter tightly my chest felt tight holding back the crying that was about to break

I kissed her cheeks and head because of my long-lost feeling like she had not seen him for a long time.The little girl showed her adorable smile, her crazy face looks so cute and adorable, my own face is not like a bule but my father is blaster

My grandfather bule from london was my original grandmother pure Javanese so that my father's face similar to the grandfather bule

But unfortunately my face looks like my mother who is a pure jogja.

" mama where aja cih.kok ndak go home naya kangen cama mama"

Her innocent slurred voice made me smile

"mama also kangen sama naya...naya here is fine ?"

I asked while scrambling his funny blonde hair

"iya mah, naya vinegar here, whatever there is"

I smiled at my daughter who complained innocently that she got whatever she wanted here, unlike in her papa's house

"mama, are you really well here at the home of grandpa cama granny naya?"

He asked her with innocent eyes because all this time he knew his grandfather and grandmother were parents of mas novan

"yes baby, this is Grandpa's house with grandma

Naya Seneng lives here?

Naya nodded while smiling with excitement at my answer

From inside the house out a couple who look young, the husband is very sturdy with a bule face and looks authoritative

While the wife looks very graceful with a typical Javanese face even though it has seen wrinkles on her face

I let out a long sigh, my chest getting claustrophobic looking at the two figures I once ignored for advice for the sake of the man I love who in fact now dumped me

Slowly pulling my hand towards the couple still standing at the door and looking at me

Her eyes were puffy, crying looking at me with a look full of longing

My father was just staring at me with a flat look that I couldn't understand

My head was staring down

Unable to see the faces of the 2 people I had disappointed, my tears finally fell as well, I sobbed before them without being able to say a word

" jelk..."

Screaming my mother while hugging me, our cries broke unstoppable

"sorry mom..."

in my tears I said

while my father still remained with a flat view and did not say a word

" naya.sini with grandpa"

dad held naya and rushed inside without a word being said to me leaving me and mom who were still hugging with tears

"finally you go home also yu..ibu is very confused with you"

I can only nod to answer the words of my mother

"mayu has been disobedient ma'am, sorry rahayu bu"

My sobs are stamped between my cries

"it's not time to cry, it's time to think ahead..."

From inside came the loud voice of my father who told me not to be weak

"let's go in yu, don't argue with your father..."

I followed my mother's steps into the house

The house I used to live in is still the same as it used to be, nothing has changed