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My head felt heavy and my body was very weak, I found myself lying in a very spacious room with a simple elegant decoration, it seemed familiar to me

I desperately tried to sit and lean on the bed observing the surroundings, silent

Krrrkk the sound of the door being opened from outside

I saw Mita coming in with a smile and carrying a tray in her hand filled with food and a glass of warm milk

"already calm yuk?.your body is weak, fainted from last night..eat"

Mita handed me a tray of food

"thank you..you brought me here?"

I asked mita because mita took me to my father's villa which was in the karanyar

I slowly eat the food given by mita, although it feels bland in my mouth I still eat it, I must not be weak, I must be strong

"iya Yu, I think here the air is good, the atmosphere is also calm, suitable to calm the mind"

"i can't take long with me, naya at home ....."

I didn't continue to say

"calm yu, your father has already picked up naya, naya is safe with her grandfather"

Mita smiled convincingly

"my dad...??"

Mita smiled and clasped my hand tightly, assuring me that naya benar2 was safe

I just lowered my head back to put food in my mouth that should taste good but on my tongue was bland

My mind doesn't know where I'm going

"don't worry yu, your father's been watching you, he knows what's happened to you.and he's taking your daughter to his house for fear that she's alone in your ex-in-law's house"

"again I had a video call the same om rahardjo, and naya familiar lo with her grandfather, her grandfather,

Naya did not cry at all there, even seneng, he said at his grandfather's house all there, toys, cake, candy, ice cream would eat anything.."

Mita answered enthusiastically but it was getting sicker in my chest, considering that all this time she never got enough food rations in her papa family home

even sometimes want to play was banned, told to be quiet and not to be noisy

I took a deep breath, remembering my stupidity which was bad not only for me but for my daughter

It feels like I want to turn the clock so that this mistake of mine that broke my heart never happens

I breathed deeply

Mita looked at me as if she understood what I was feeling

"you eat first when your condition has recovered we go back to Jogja, your father is waiting

Kasian is also naya, must miss his mother"

"yes, I miss him too..."

Because after getting out of my father's house only naya I have, and because of naya I was able to face all the selfishness of the mas novan family

*****

I stared at the magnificent 2-story house before me,.....

Still the same as before, nothing has changed, staying neat, clean and with classic Javanese decor adds to the elegant impression of the house...

Well.that's the residence of the rahardjo family.noble rich with import export business, hospitality, and active in the social field....

My father was a philanthropist who became a regular donor in many social activities in the city of Jogja because he was reluctant by his co-workers

I let out a long sigh it felt like my feet were heavy to step into that luxurious residence, there was fear, anxiety, doubt, confusion and shame....