Love Coiled Stains
Advice

I sat quietly at the door of my boarding house. I haven't been to work in a week. The shame of the incident still enveloped this heart. Even though no one knows about the embarrassing event. But the brokenness in my heart along with the destruction of his honor that I have been guarding all this time made me despair.

Sometimes I think about killing myself. There is no use for her sense of living with enduring shame that leaves her very self.

I stared blankly ahead. Silent with the mouth locked, the mind floated remembering an extremely hurtful incident. Without realizing it in silence a few grains of clear water now wet the cheeks. I cried, yes cried in silence remembering the fate that now befalls me.

Mom came to me. Well mom knows all that stuff. Santi immediately contacted both of my parents and told me everything.

"Rea" I didn't look at all. My eyes are still empty ahead. Mom sat next to me.

"Darling" Mother caressed my head affectionately.

"I'm sorry I did. I've embarrassed you all" I finally said something.

"Darling, everything happens not our will. It's all our life's destiny, son. You don't blame yourself, son" I shed tears.

"I'm ashamed buk. It feels like I want to die buk" answered me to cover both my faces with palms and cry as if.

"What good is that I live buk. I've been ruined. My future is all ruined"

"Darling, face it all with sincerity son. Don't regret what happened. You have to be strong, baby.there's a father who is always with you. Must be all beautiful at his time son. God planned more beautiful things when you could face this with sincerity" My mother's advice made me feel a little calm. Mom hugged me tighter. Strengthen yourself to face everything in this world. Although the world is cruel.

"Patience is dear"

"Oh, is it true that Arga will be responsible? Am I ready to marry her. I never loved her buk. Nor would I be able to marry another man. I'm already dirty buk, I'm ashamed buk. Am I happy with Arga buk?" I looked into my mother's eyes to hear the answer that made this heart strong.

"Darling, now you and he don't love each other. But gradually you will love him and so will he. You must sincerely live your household someday son. And the problem of happiness, God willing you will be part of the child if faced with it sincerely. If you listen to each other, strengthen each other, hold each other all will be fine"

"I'm not sure buk. He doesn't recognize me, neither do I"

"It takes time, son. Only time can answer everything. Marriage is a very sacred thing. Let it happen once in a lifetime, son" Mother's advice.

"Pray me to open, may I face all this" I said again immersing myself in my mother's chest.