Love Coiled Stains
Refusing

I rushed to the VIP room that the waiter had said. I was still confused by the person in the room. I don't know what's wrong with the spaghetti he ordered.

I knocked on the door of the VIP room earlier.

"Get in" There was a sound coming from inside the room.

Degs...

This heart suddenly beat so quickly it heard a voice that was not unfamiliar to me.

"Like sound... " My mind guessed.

"Is this maybe him? But how can it be? No, no way. I just misheard. Maybe it's all because I think too much of him" I said in my heart as I shook my head.

I slowly opened the door to the room.

Degs...

Surprised, I was shocked to see who was in the room. The man I love. The man who made this heart always felt comfortable. Although sometimes he is hard. The man who gave me the title of a wife. He is my husband Arga.

"You.... " I'm still in shock.

I lowered my gaze. I'm not ready to meet her again. The pain of the word Khilafan that he said the other day still lingers in my heart and mind.

Arga came near me.

"What are you doing here?" Ask me still bowing my head.

Arga smiled happily to see me.

"I just realized you're beautiful" she praised.

I don't know, somehow I feel at this moment. Should it be happy, or sad. I am also confused about my feelings at this time.

"Ehm.... What happened to the food you ordered? What is lacking in food? A waiter reported that you were not satisfied with our cooking. What's wrong?" Ask me.

"That's wrong because it's not from your cooking" explained Arga.

"Rea, I miss you so much. I went crazy when I found out you just left. You promised me that you would not leave me. But why did you leave me in this kind of solitude?" Arga said with a sad looking face.

I took a deep breath and exhaled vigorously to release the burden of thought that made this heart feel awkward. I took a few steps forward from before Arga at this moment.

"It's only the best thing for our lives. It's the right path for everything" I said again. Honestly this heart still loves my husband very much and I can not lie bring me also miss him very much. But what is this power of heart hurt because of his words that make my feelings scratched.

"I should have done this a long time ago" I said. I turned back to look at Arga who was still standing still in his place earlier.

"Hmm, so what exactly makes you feel less satisfied with our spaghetti?" Ask me again.

"There is something lacking" said Arga coming near me.

"What's that?"

"You're my wife" he said again.

"Okay, if there's nothing to talk about, I'm going to resign. There's still a lot of work to be done" I turned around to want to get out of the room. However, Arga pulled my hand to make me and her embrace.

He hugged me tightly as if he would not let me go. I was shocked so shocked when Arga hugged me like that. Wanting her taste I returned the hug from my husband to let go of the longing in this heart. However, my hands felt stiff to return the hug.

"Rea, don't you want to ask me how I'm doing" she let go of our embrace.

"You look healthy" I replied.

"Sandra?" Ask her.

Degs....

I stared hard at Arga. I really don't want to hear that name mentioned. If her intention was just to talk about Sandra, it would be better for me and her to not meet at all.

"Ga, I can't pretend like I don't have any feelings. I honestly don't want to know about you and Sandra. What happened to your relationship with Sandra has nothing to do with me. That's your and Sandra's right" I said in a trembling tone. My heart ached when my honey name was mentioned.

"Rea, we're home" take her gently.

"It's all over Ga. Our relationship is a mistake. So why do we repeat the error?"

"I didn't really mean anything like that. It's not like that at all" he said again.

"I never considered that what happened between us was an error. Rea, I love you so much" Arga said with a sincere look. I can't see the lie from his eyes. However, I don't want it to be too easy to fall back on him.

"Rea I need you in my life. I love you so much" he said again.

I passed from before Arga. I sat in the chair in the room.

"It's not like this, don't be like this. I've forgotten all that. There's nothing more we need to talk about" I said trying to toughen up.

Arga carved a smile next to his lips.

"If you've forgotten all this? Why are you still staring at our wedding card? Until the card falls again"

I just kept quiet not knowing I had to answer Arga. Where does Arga know about me here. My inner.

"You lied Rea. You never forget me"

"I've forgotten all about it. There's nothing we should talk about anymore" I said again.

"No way, you can't just forget me. I can't part with you. Now I just realized that I can't live like you"

"Ga, we didn't know each other before. This marriage is just a dream. Our relationship was never good. You only think of me as a friend but Sandra is so different. And you say I'm just a friend when you feel lonely and nothing more than that" I said with a look of sadness.

"Ga, it's impossible if you can't live without me. Because I'm nobody to you" added me again.

"You're wrong. I don't know when this whole thing started. But I only know one thing. That you've been half a part of my life. You are my life Rea. I can't look up to you" Arga pleaded.

I smiled in disbelief. All this time I've been played with her feelings by my husband. And this time I don't want to be played again for the last few times.

"Ga, please... Don't talk like that. It's not good to play with my feelings like this" Pinta.

"I'm serious Rea" he said again to convince me.

"OK, okay... Don't talk about this anymore. I don't want to talk about it back"

"Why with you Rea? What was? You're not like you used to be" Arga said.

"Until when should I cry to see your happiness? I know it's your right. But I have to get to when I'm like this. Right now I want to find my own happiness" Pinta.

"Are you happy like this?"

I was silent to Arga's question. I took a deep breath and I exhaled strongly.

"Are you happy?" Repeat it again.

"At least I didn't feel as much pain as I did when I saw you and Sandra" I said steadily.

"Rea, please don't be like this. We go home.... I need me" Arga begged again.

"Now this is my new life. Here is my place. I feel calm here" I still reject Arga's invitation in a subtle way.

"No" answered me. Go straight away leaving Arga who is still dumbfounded there. If I can be honest this heart really misses my husband.

But, I was afraid that later I would be played back by Arga. This heart is still doubtful and doubtful that the painful event will repeat itself.

I don't want that to happen to me. If Arga really wants me back, I want to see what his seriousness is to me.

***

Santi returned from his duties in Jakarta. He was very excited because he had arrived in the city of Pekanbaru where there was a lover in the city.

After arriving in Pekanbaru, Santi rushed to Riko's house with the intention to surprise the lover.

He did not tell Riko that today he will go home. He thought, Riko would be very surprised to find Santi coming home. And he shadowed that Riko would welcome him warmly.

"Assalamualaikum" said Santi saluted.

"Vaalaikumsalam. Uh the future mother-in-law is coming. Already home from his service?" Maya asks warmly welcomes Santi's presence in her home.

"Buk already. This I bring souvenirs for mother" said Santi gave gifts to his future mother-in-law.

"Jeez Santi, just bother. You don't have to bring your mother. You come home safely has made mother happy" said Maya welcomes the gift from her future daughter-in-law.

"It's okay to buk. I am happy to be able to bring souvenirs for future mothers-in-law" said Santi smiling happily.

"Oh yes buk, Riko is there?" Santi asks for Riko's whereabouts in the house.

"Oh Riko, he's in the back garden" Maya replied.

"Just go there. Ever since you left, I've seen her daydreaming in the garden behind the house. Maybe he misses you. And after you come like this, I'm sure he will be happy and not sad anymore" said Maya full of confidence.

Santi smiled happily at Maya's words. He also hopes that Riko will miss him and will later greet him warmly. Like a couple of lovers who have not met for a long time.

"Yes aunty, then, I'll go back first. I want to meet Riko. He must be surprised to see me here. I purposely came back here not to tell him. I want a surprise for him" said Santi excitedly.

Maya nodded with a smile. Santi passed from Maya's presence.

***

Riko sat daydreaming in a chair in the garden behind her house. He stared at his cell phone screen. Where on the screen of the phone is still saved my photo. I also don't know how I got my picture on his phone. As far as I know, he never took a picture of me.

It is possible that the photo was taken secretly. I don't know for sure either. The only one who knows is actually him.

Santi approached Riko who was indeed turning her back. Slowly he stepped closer. Wanting to surprise Riko. But accidentally he also saw the screen of Riko's phone there is a photo of me.

Suddenly his heart was hot. His intent of wanting to surprise has now been lost because of seeing the photo. The face that had been smiling happily had now turned moody.

Santi folded his hands on his chest. His breathing is irregular. Her heart was currently really hurting seeing what her fiance was doing.

Who is not hurt when his fiancee is still expecting another girl and can't move on yet. Surely everyone will feel the same way as what Santi just felt.

"You can forget about Rea" said Santi filled with emotions.

Riko was shocked, well of course shocked because suddenly Santi was behind her. He did not expect the girl to appear suddenly.

"Santi" he said hurriedly turned off his cellphone screen.

"You're home yet? Why didn't you tell me?" Tanya Riko tried to divert the conversation.

"It doesn't matter, the important thing now is that you can't forget Rea" he said.

Riko was silent, he was also at a loss to explain all this as to what.

"I'm, I'm sorry" said the bespectacled man.

Santi smiled mockingly. He was really disappointed in Riko.

"Santi, please please understand my feelings" he said.

"You're asking me to understand how you feel. Who wants to understand my feelings? What you? Can you understand my feelings?" Santi said with full of disappointment in his heart.

"I'm sorry Santi. I'm really sorry. Please understand my situation" said Riko pleaded.

Santi shook his head. Feeling very disappointed. Tampa said as badly as he said, he left Riko. Not his pursuit, Riko instead dumbstruck and confused what to do. He chose to sit back in that chair.

***

Lina came down from the top floor of her house. He went to his husband who was sitting while reading the newspaper on the sofa in the living room of his house.

"Pa, is Arga calling you?" Tanya Rina was worried because there was no news from her favorite child.

Rudi shook his head.

"Oh, what is this Arga. Absolutely not telling us" said Rina again.

"Here you are, let Arga calm himself in Bayu's place. Papa deliberately does not want to disturb him. Let him really be able to forget his problems here" said Rudi was still busy turning the newspaper in his hands.

"Important, when he comes home he can work as usual. Papa became dizzy seeing his work performance so far. Many are not suitable. Therefore papa has not been able to release our company back to Arga. If later he can work as usual, then papa no longer need to continue in the office" explained Rudi.

"During this time Arga has never been remiss in his work. This must be because of Sandra" said Rina sitting next to her husband with an angry face.

"Already, already ma, papa won't hear anymore about him. What is important when Arga comes home later, he can start a good job and start a new life" said Rudi again.

"But pa, what mom said is true lo. Try to remember again. When Arga married Rea, she was never like this. And after he married Sandra, try papa see, various problems that occur in his life" said Rina again.

***

After two days Arga was in the town of Terubuk, he came home feeling disappointed that he could not take me home with him.

"Arga" Tegur Rina saw his son want to climb the stairs to his room.

Can Lina see that the state of her son is very tangled like a person who just lost from gambling.

"Arga, what's wrong with you? You all right?" Her question was full of attention.

"I'm fine ma. I go to the room first yes want to take a shower and rest" he said again with a limp tone.

Arga left leaving Rina who was still looking at him sadly.

"You should go on vacation to calm your heart, son. Not her coming home with a good condition, instead coming home with a worse situation like this" said Rina sadly to see her only son puppet like this.

***

I was lying in the bathroom where my boarding house was. It's hard for me to close my eyes. Remembering all my memories the other day with Arga. I don't know, right now I'm not ready to go back with her. But this heart is sad to see Arga's situation like that.

I woke up from my bed. Sitting on my bed daydreaming about all the problems that had befallen me. Tampa felt, some clear water falling on my cheek.

It's hard for me to understand all these feelings. I was also confused by my own feelings at this moment. This heart feels in the lema. Confused what to do.

On one side of this heart was sad because it had rejected Arga. In my heart I still love him very much. But on the other hand saying I had to do that, because all this time Arga was just playing with my feelings. He was not serious about his words.

And I don't want that to happen again. Of course I don't want to repeat the same pain. I am so frustrated thinking about all this.