
Arga looked at me with a look that was difficult for me to understand at that time.
"Because I want to have you. I don't want to lose you. I keep going back and forth in this house because I always miss you" Arga said.
Degs....
Of course, this heart felt unsettled at Arga's expression just now to me. My eyes were round, my mouth wide open as if I could not believe what Arga had just said to me.
"Is this an expression of his love for me?" My mind wonders.
"I also don't know since when this feeling. But the more days I miss you. Right now I've fallen in love with you" she added.
"Oh my God, what was my dream last night? Suddenly Arga revealed his feelings to me" My inner self again.
"Rea" Her rebuke dawned on me.
"Ha" answered me.
"Do you have the same feelings as me?" Ask Arga for reassurance.
"Is everything you say true and true?" Ask me. Well of course I'm scared in prank by Arga.
"Yes right. I could have sworn Rea. The feeling in this heart is real there" said his steady.
"Hows it? Do you have the same feeling?" Ask her again.
"Actually.... Actually was.... " I stammered.
"What actually?" Tanya Arga was impatient.
"I actually love you too. This feeling has been there since the beginning of our marriage" I said honestly.
Arga seemed to smile happily because her feelings of love had been reciprocated by me.
"But what's this feeling wrong?" Ask me again.
"Wrongly why?" Ask Arga in wonder.
"Wrong because I love you" I said.
"There's nothing wrong with your feelings of Rea, from which the law says wrong if a wife loves her husband. It's wrong to love someone else's husband" explained Arga again.
I took a few steps back to Arga who was still sitting on my bed.
"Wrong Arga, what about Sandra?" Ask me.
"Sandra's? It's Rea, don't you think about Sandra. Now think about our relationship. It's just between you and me" Arga said.
I turned to look. Arga is in his sitting position.
"I just feel.... "
"It's Rea" Cut Arga.
"Don't you think about me and Sandra, our business later, let me handle our problems. Now think about your problem and mine" he said again.
Arga held both my shoulders. He looked at me with a serious look.
"I really love you Yes. I always think of you. I don't know why I could be like this either. Maybe because you're always there for me, always with me, and always be patient with my attitude that I know sometimes it hurts you. That's what makes my heart melt with you. What is in you, I do not get from Sandra" said Arga steady.
His words touched my heart. I was impressed, I was fascinated by her beautiful word series at this time.
"Rea, can I touch you?" Ask her again.
I was shocked, really surprised by what he asked of me.
Will the story repeat itself? Honestly, this heart still feels traumatized by what happened at that time I was forced not willingly.
Said the experienced experts do it should be with a maximum lubrication, minimal to wet at that time. Well, how can I get wet, while I did not really enjoy the series after series of Arga games at that time because I was half conscious and suddenly had a penetrating ball into his goal.
I just kept quiet, the moment was back in my memory. I do love my husband, but this trauma scares me to do it again.
"Rea, what are you thinking? Don't you want me to touch you?" Ask Arga to me.
"No, not so" I tried to find the right reason to reveal my real reason for Arga's offence.
Though afraid of haunting my feelings, but I realized that this was my duty as a wife. Arga has rights over me. I can't refuse him. If you want to reject it, it must be for the right reasons that is what the ruler said when we did the marriage ceremony first.
"Well, how do you say that?" I said restlessly.
Arga keeps seeing me fidgeting like that. I paced back and forth in front of Arga for a while. Trying to calm the heart but not succeed.
"Rea, Rea" said Arga holding both my shoulders so I stopped pacing before her.
"Hey, what's wrong with you? Aren't you willing to touch me?" Said Arga softly.
"No, it's not. It's just, it's just"
"What is it?"
"I'm afraid not. It's a trauma" I said honestly.
Degs....
"I'm sorry Rea, I didn't do it with all my heart. I did it just to throw my anger and disappointment at that time. But I promise you. This time I will do it with all my heart. So you can enjoy it" he assured me.
I was silent thinking about all his words. Honestly, my heart still feels traumatized, but my duty must be fulfilled. Especially now that Arga has accepted me. And have confessed me. So there's no reason for me to refuse that invitation. Maybe I should try it one more time to relieve the trauma in my heart. Who knows if I did it willingly unlike yesterday, and Arga did it wholeheartedly, maybe it would be different. Thought me.
Well, if you think I'm a hypocritical woman, I'm a hypocrite. In my heart I still feel the trauma, but in my mind I want to feel that which is said to be heaven. I did it with the husband I love. It will not be his reward later. That's how I thought at the time.
"Rea, are you ready? I just want to do it if you're willing and sincere to touch" he said again.
I took a deep breath and then in his strong gusto tried to throw out the anxiety in my heart.
I stared steadily at Arga's eyes. Looking at those pitch-black eyeballs to make sure that he asked for it because it was true to love me. Not because of lust or pelletikan because it is always in stay away by Sandra.
However, at that time I could see that her eyes were sincere with love towards me. Well, I can see that Arga has indeed opened his heart to me.
"Arga, it's my duty as a wife to serve you. Be it in the kitchen, in the well, and in the mattress. So there's no reason for me to reject you" I began to vent to relieve this trauma in my heart.
"Do you really want to?" Ask again for certainty.
I'm nagging.
Arga smiling started to approach me.
Deg ...
This heart rattled so fast. There's a stream of electricity running from the end of my foot to the end of my head. Moreover Arga started to open my hijab. For the first time Arga saw my crown, which was my waist-length hair. Well this is the first time I've shown my hair even then everything that's on me to Arga other than that night. Because the incident on that night was just an accident and there is no element of likes and willing to be equally willing.
My breathing is starting to get irregular. It's hard to say what I feel right now. Strange feeling that haunts me. On one side of the trauma and on the other side curious.
Arga is getting closer to my face. The closer, the closer. He began to caress my long hair. It felt my head back in the center by the electricity coming out of Arga's hand that stroked this hair.
Arga's face drew closer, closer, and closer. I look forward to what will happen to me later. I honestly have no experience in this.
So I prefer to be quiet and choose to resign for what Arga will do. Because surely Arga has experience in this. Didn't she ever do it with Sandra. Obviously never, right? They are married and love each other. Of course the first night for the second was successfully carried out, right?
Arga stuck a warm kiss on my forehead. Well said people if there kiss us on the forehead, it means that the person really loves us with sincerity. And I still believe in that to this day.
My heart is beating faster. His heart is pumping too fast to want it to explode right then and there.
I don't know why I re-enter the centrum when Arga's lips cling to my forehead. Just on his forehead I think I want to faint what else in other places. My inner. This was the first time I touched and felt a warm kiss from a man. Regardless of the events of that night, mother.
The warm kiss slowly came down through my nose until it ended up on my lips. B*bir The warm, thick Arga sticks to my thin, damp b*beer.
The beginning just stick it up to a second long. Until the patch turned into a warm kiss that I just felt this time. Where Arga is v*b*b*bir my bottom with a feeling.
At first I felt shocked because Arga*sap b*bir me like that. Understandably, people have no experience. So it takes a process to learn.
However, a second later I spontaneously opened my b*beer. Gives room for Arga to easily play there. Not to be outdone, I also try to follow the style of Arga giving the kiss to me. Now I also*sap b*bir the top of Arga. Long time we fought each other c*uman like that. Mutually comment, mutually *******. Until finally I*dah Arga began to break into my oral cavity.
Back I felt shocked.
"Liet Rea, these are your exposition times. So that later it's easy I barged in. Just enjoy it, someday you will be lulled and accustomed" said again with full tenderness.
Arga pulled back my nape, doing a similar scene like that.
Now I hear the words of my husband. Must give up and enjoy every series of his game.
Every minute I start to understand the way the game is. I followed the game with a tongue-in-cheek with Arga.
Arga's heart began to smile happily because I had started to master his game.
I don't know from when my hand was holding Arga's neck. Close your eyes and enjoy the game.
Long time we were in that position, until at the end the naughty hands. Arga started creeping holding my twin mountain. I was shocked because Arga was holding it. But the sensation that Arga gave me made me re-engaged and resigned to what would happen.
He began to wander softly, and now the kiss was turning down and down every inch of my neck. Lick, kiss, there was even a sign of ownership he carved there.
I'm getting lulled up and getting lulled down with that touch after touch.
"Ah... " One******** managed to escape my mouth. I didn't realize that I was crunching like that. Maybe because of his lulling it made me unconscious to be able to issue ******* that.
For a moment Arga stopped his play. He looked me in the eyes with feeling.
"I love you Rea" he said again.
I smiled seeing her radiate an aura of love from her eyes to me.
"I love you too Arga" I said.
Arga carried me like his worthy sling on his public bride. Take me and lay me on my bed.
We stared at each other for a long time. I just kept quiet when Arga laid me down.
Back Arga stroked my hair gently.
Now, he also returned to action by exploring every inch for the sake of my neck. I looked up and gave Arga a room so he could move around.
Tonight, it's gonna be a special night for me and Arga. For the first time we will make out with a friendly like her husband and wife in general. This time, I also wanted to eliminate the trauma and fear in my heart. So that I can later enjoy the game and touch from my husband that I must fulfill.