Love Coiled Stains
Doubt in the heart

Riko's heart still feels sore and sore when she sees me and Arga looking happy when we tampa accidentally met in the village at that time.

Although on the lips said he wanted to open his heart to Santi, yet he could not lie to his feelings where his heart still expected me as his life companion.

Moreover, he remembered the time Arga was looking for me. He felt that something was wrong with me right now. Until his heart was agitated.

"Hallo" said Riko raised his phone when Santi contacted him.

"Hallo baby, busy?" Ask Santi basa stale.

"Not really"

"What the hell is it?"

"Just sit back in the garden behind the house" replied Riko soberly.

"Have you arrived in Jakarta?" Ask Riko. Santi is currently going to Jakarta to do some work that he has to handle with his clients there.

"Already" replied Santi.

"Thank God"

Hearing that answer, Santi was astonished. I don't know why he felt something was wrong with his fiancee.

"Ko, what's wrong with you?"

"I why do you mean?"

"Such like there's something weird about you. What do you think, baby?"

Riko fell silent trying to think about finding out what reason he should pass on to Riko. There's no way he's honest that his heart is agitated at the thought of me. Obviously Santi will go on a rampage and get angry at him.

Although he does not love Santi, he must also be able to keep Santi's feelings to him. Where Santi is his fiancee at the moment. And her mother Riko very much expects that Santi will be her life companion.

"Me, I just feel like we're in the chest because our wedding day is getting closer" Riko replied.

Santi smiled happily at Riko's excuses.

"Why is it like that?"

"Yes because I'm afraid I'll be wrong in saying our kabul. My grogi relapsed in front of the crowd. That's why I'm training and I'm practicing right now. Now that I'm training to be smooth later on the marriage contract" Riko lied.

Santi smiled more and more at hearing that.

"That means Riko has forgotten Rea. And she has kept her promise to open her heart to me" Her inner being.

"It was proven when Riko continued to practice for the marriage contract later. Wasn't he excited about the wedding?" His mind again.

"The spirit is dear, I hope that at our wedding will be smooth there will be no obstacles whatsoever" Prayer Santi with a flowery heart.

"She, thank you for your prayers and your spirit"

Santi smiled happily at Riko's words. While Riko still exuded her flat facial expression.

"Riko, I have something to tell you"

"What?"

"Your engagement says that she misses you so much. Do you miss him too?" Santi said with hope.

Riko was silent for a while. He cannot lie to his heart. He did not miss his fiancee at all playing it he missed other women who have now become the wife of people.

"Hello, Riko..." Call Santi when there is no answer from across.

"Eh yes" Riko was aware of her reverie.

"Why are you Ko?" Santi's question began to get annoyed with Riko's insensitive attitude.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry that there were insects blocking my view" Riko told a lie.

"What did you say?" Ask her again.

Santi took a deep breath and then exhaled strongly. He felt a little disappointed in Riko. But he had to ignore the taste for the sake of getting the man he had hoped for all along.

"Your engagement says she misses you so much. Don't you miss her?" Santi tried to speak calmly.

"Oh, I miss my fiance too. Please give my miss greetings to her" said Riko trying to wrestle Santi so as not to be suspicious of her.

Santi carved a smile on his lips. His heart now flowered to hear the male's chatter. He felt more and more convinced that Riko had indeed loved him. The annoyance that had appeared, now disappeared immediately hearing the words from Riko.

"Yes, I'll tell you later. Yes already, I want to clean up my stuff first huh. I just arrived at the hotel and haven't had time to clean up my things. When I arrived I immediately contacted you so you wouldn't worry about me" Santi said.

"Oh, yes, I have. You be careful there, yes" said Riko.

"Yes, Love you my fiancee and my future husband" said Santi filled with love.

Degs...

Riki fell silent, he was confused as to what to say. Her heart was so heavy saying love you too. But if she doesn't do that, Santi will be suspicious of her and her mother will be disappointed.

Riko took a deep breath and exhaled strongly.

"Love you too" he said with forced. Riko hung up her phone.

"Why you?" Beware Someone surprised Riko's daydream.

"Eh, uncle... " Riko saw her uncle coming. He he is the brother of his mother. He has been coming to Riko's house since Riko's father left them. He is the one who always gives motivation to Maya so that the spirit to live life for Riko.

"Lately uncle noticed you often daydream. What's the matter exactly?" Ask her again.

"If there's a problem, tell uncle. Who knows if my uncle can help"

"There is nothing uncle, it's just that this heart is a little doubtful" said Riko.

"Well, that's the name there's a problem. So what makes you doubt like this?"

"Uncle, I don't think I'm ready to get married yet"

"Why? What makes you like this?"

"I'm also confused uncle, I don't understand my feelings. This heart feels divided"

"The problem is this feeling, not only you who face it. All prospective brides will definitely feel the same" said the uncle.

"It is not easy to face the responsibility of a husband. The amount of trials that will be faced later on. But uncle is sure you can deal with him. Your intention is to establish a mosque that has a great reward but has severe trials and obstacles. You must be sure you can face the ordeal so that you can get the reward of the creator. So too with marriage. The closer the day is, the more trials it faces. Like the word, the sweet blood of the bride and groom" said Uncle Riko gave advice.

"I think I need time for all this uncle" said Riko with his tired face.

"Riko, you don't get too carried away with your feelings. Your marriage is just counting a few more weeks. You must be proud of your marriage"

"How do I want my uncle's istiqomah, while this decision I made made made this heart feel doubtful. I'm not sure about this decision, uncle"

"Look, everyone's trials are not the same. Everyone has different trials. Like your old uncle when he was getting married to your aunt, uncle got fired from uncle's job. You imagine how dizzy his uncle's head was when he thought about the future of your uncle and aunt later. Want uncle to feed what people's children. But, uncle believes in God the all-fair god. With patience, uncles and aunts can deal with all this and see the results. We are living happily now" Riko's uncle explained. Giving an example of himself so that his ponakan it can be sure with this decision.

"You don't think too much about this, son. You have to be sure all of this is going to be okay. Surely you can face all this yes" said Uncle Riko patted his shoulders to encourage.

Riko seemed to think about what her uncle said.

***

In my spare time, I spend all my time walking in the sand. Well in Bengkalis there is a sand field. Sometimes I used to sit on the edge of the pile of rocks that were there. Where the pile of stone is made as a barrier between the sand field and sea water so that the sand contained there is not carried away by the sea waves.

Well I work in a cafe that was there. I told you from the beginning. So that I can spend time daydreaming there when my spare time is there. Do not daydream by looking at the sea makes this heart feel calm. A little bit of it can take away the allure in my heart.

"Again think about what?" Ask someone to surprise me.

"Eh sir"

"Call Bayu only"

"Eh yes sir, uh Bayu means it" I said still awkward.

"May I sit here?" His words are stale bases.

"Oh well, how good would it be if there was a chatter friend. At least think of me a little more calmly" I said in a friendly manner.

"It turns out your choice of place to daydream is also good" said Bayu.

"I agree, this is indeed a good place to reflect on fate" I said with a slight smile.

"What do you really think? Such a problem you are facing is very heavy" asked Bayu after a long while we were silent.

"Huh? There's no problem" I lied.

"Does my face look like there's a problem?" I asked back.

Jayu smiled at my question.

"Everyone in this world has problems"

I smiled wryly at the words of my boss. To be honest I felt uncomfortable as he asked about me. For me, this is my problem as well as my husband's. My family problems. I don't want anyone else to interfere in this. Not a snob or what it is. It would be inappropriate for me to tell my family's troubles and disgrace to someone I just met. To my mother and father, I did not say that. What else with someone else.

I just want to keep my marwah as an Arga's wife. I'm afraid if I get too close and tell people what my problems are, what else are men. Gradually this will make the heart change. And his comfort later began to appear where when the sense of it appears will lead to infidelity.

A lot of things like that. Family problems are told with others so that a sense of comfort arises and ultimately betrayal occurs in their households. And I don't want that to happen. As long as Arga is still my husband and I am his wife, I will try to keep my marwah as a wife for my husband.

I don't want to betray my husband even if I'm hanging like this. I still love and love my husband.

"I'm sorry, we can't talk about other issues" I said uncomfortable.

"How do we talk about my problems" Bayu said.

"What problem?" Ask me.

"I've been trying to find you for a few days. But because there's some work I can't leave so I haven't seen you"

"Finding me? Why ya?" Ask me a little wonder.

"The pasha thing, he's been angry with me for a few days because I interrupted you yesterday. And his word I've made you sad again" obviously again.

I smiled amusedly at the babble of the boy to his papa.

"He's poison, he's the antidote, he's everything to me" she added.

"Mama pasha?" Ask me. Bayu looked at me with a look I could not understand.

"I'm sorry before that. I didn't mean to be presumptuous. It's just that every time I ask about her mom she doesn't answer" I said feeling bad.

Bayu just kept quiet not answering my question. I feel bad about his attitude. Well I'm afraid my boss is offended by my question. Maybe he won't tell me about his family like I did.

"I'm sorry if my question offended you" I said.

Bayu took a deep breath and exhaled strongly.

"My wife has been dead for two years. He died in an accident. Since then, the pasha has become moody, quiet, and does not talk much. It's just that after meeting you, he came back cheerful. He became the pasha that I longed for" Bayu recounted her bitter experience when she lost her beloved wife.

"I'm sorry about that. And I'm sorry if my question made you feel sad again. I understand what it's like to lose someone we love" I said. I have lost someone I love. Where I lost my husband. It's just different that he's still alive. Even so, I don't know how things are going now.

Is it healthy or not? Whether he's happy with Sandra or not. I have clearly lost my husband. The one I love. The first man to touch me.