MELODY OF LOVE: Arrived Marriage
Flashback Version of Mikan 12

FLASHBACKS

Previous:

"Because if you hate me, then you'll quickly forget me. You won't feel the wound in a long time." Kak Yoga's.

Oh..

Okay, I seem to understand the direction of the conversation.

"You're really going to leave me apparently?" My guess.

"Yes." Yeah." Answer's short.

My gaze cooled for a moment to him. Turns out like this is the end of my story with Yoga sister huh?

.

.

.

"Sir Yoga, is it time for me and you to part?" Ask Mikan.

"Mich?" For Yoga, Mikan, who was acting normal when she heard the idea of parting from him, was unusual.

"What's wrong?"

"..."

"What's wrong?" Mikan repeated her words.

"Why do you get used to it when I'm talking about your breakup?" Ask Yoga.

"What should I do?" Ask Mikan back.

"Yes at least resist or show a certain reaction." Answer Yoga.

"My reaction was like this. Do you think I would reject the idea of parting with you?"

Yoga nodded. "Yes." Yeah."

Mikan laughs. "I don't know where you get your confidence from. Yoga, that's so high!"

Yoga stared at me. "So I'm the only one who loves you, right?"

Mikan was laughing again. He held his head. It also hurts a long time if laughing continues.

"So this yoga is funny? A person full of extradition like yourself is actually his brain put where? Is it still in the head or not? Hey, listen! If Kak Yoga is by my side, what will Kak Yoga do? Kak Yoga said he loved me a lot, but Kak Yoga offered me the idea of parting ways. If it happens to you, then what will Yoga do?"

"Say don't go!" Answer Yoga.

Mikan wants to pull her own hair. Rude he wants to tell you actually Yoga is sane no heck? Is his brain intact or not?

"Where is! Of course I would be a real stupid woman if I asked you not to go! Stop loving you is the best choice, Yoga Sister." Mikan.

"Don't stop loving me, Mikan!".

"Huh?"

"Ask me to keep going!"

"Huh?"

"Let me stay here with you!"

"..."

"Ask me not to love you!"

"..."

"I really want you to say something like that at the end of our story. I'd really like to hear words like that come out of your lips."

"Why should I do it? You hurt me, it's selfish of you to ask for such obscure things!"

"I know I was selfish. I'm the one who's always making trouble in our romance. Even we have been together for a long time, until the end, I keep hurting you. I'm cold to you, I ignore you, I express my feelings for you, I love you so much, I ask you to marry me, I've now made the decision to part with you, then shamelessly, without shame, I'm asking you to keep me from leaving. Mikan. I am aware of my mountainous sin. To you and to Yudha too. I have a reason to do this and this reason is very hard to resist. Forgive me, Mikan!" Obvious Yoga.

"I'm not as good as you think I am, Yoga. I can be reckless and I can be heartless."

"Sodesu ka?"

"Hi, sodesu."

"You really don't want to say that?"

"I won't say it."

Mikan woke up from her bed and Yoga. He then put on his clothes that had been removed while serving Yoga.

Yoga also does the same thing as what Mikan does.

As long as they were busy wearing clothes, only a silent atmosphere was created between the two of them. They didn't say a word.

"I didn't know Yoga could say something like this to me. I'm sure I didn't misjudge him. But why is it like this? I know the look in his shady eyes didn't say a lie at all. He still loves me very much. If you are accused of being the liar, then I am the liar. I obviously love him a lot, but I say no so I can strengthen myself to survive the injury when he says he wants to love me. Because I don't want to, I don't want to cry in front of him. He can be very sad. I don't want to see him sad.... I glanced at him. He seems to be buttoning up his shirt. He sat on the bed and turned his back on me.... Ah, his back is tidying. His waiting was no longer a solid place to rest. If he is no longer as strong as he used to be, why would he want to leave me? Can't he rely on me a little? Can't he ask me to help him? If she had always given me a shoulder to lean on, then right now I would have sincerely extended my hand to her... Really, I really don't understand... Lord, is there a better way than to part with him? It feels very heavy. Makes me powerless. How'this? What should I do? Can I get through it?" Inner Mikan.

Mikan extended her hand. He wanted to touch the back of Yoga. Not until, he also undoes it. He was holding his chest which was painful.

He wants to cry.

Not only did she want to, but her tears had fallen.

Mikan was crying too.

Hearing the soft sobbing of Mikan's cry, Yoga who had finished dressing turned to check the state of the beautiful woman who was still legitimate as his wife.

Yoga saw Mikan wipe her tears a few times. He also saw Mikan covering her crying face with both her hands covered.

Yoga who scared Mikan why-why, he then approached Mikan. He did not walk around the bed, he walked on both knees.

Yoga hugged Mikan very tightly. He hopes that if Mikan's sadness can be healed. He can treat it with his ability.

"Miss, please don't cry! You why? Is something going on and is it hurting you? What are you crying for?" Ask Toga.

Mikan gripped tightly the shirt that Yoga wore.

"Don't go, brother! Don't leave me! Don't leave me and Yudha!" Mikan.

Together with her cries, Mikan's voice sounded very bitter.

Yoga widened both eyes. After Mikan was cold towards him, now Mikan looks like the Mikan he used to know. The old Mikan is back. She smiled happily and hugged Mikan.

Ahh. It feels reluctant to let go.

It felt like he wanted to forever hug Mikan like this.

"I'm..." Yoga comes when you want to make your voice.

Tonight he wants to tell me a lot of things. But all those words were very difficult to get out of his throat.

Like being stuck and refusing to come out.

Yet...

Even though it was very difficult, he had to keep all those words out. He doesn't want to hurt Mikan, but in fact, whatever he does just always hurts Mikan.

"Sir Yoga, can't you open up to me about the problem you're facing? If you love me so much, why do you want to leave me and Yudha? You want to be with that woman. Do you think that makes sense? It hurts so much, Yoga! It hurts so much when I hear such words coming out of your mouth that you are obviously also the one I love so much. The nande? Wh why? Why is it like this, Yoga? You're a very good man in the business world. It should be that even in this kind of thing you should be great. You should be able to explain it to me! Please, don't spin around indistinctly like this. This is much more hurtful to me." Mikan.

Yoga hears every word that comes out of Mikan's mouth. He put it into his heart and mind in order to become his strength. After that many sins he committed, God still seems to love him by giving him the gift that Mikan, the person he loved so much still cares for him. Mikan was still paying attention to him. As an ordinary human being, he felt very grateful for this. It was so beautiful and made her feel lucky to have lived up to this moment.

"I must leave you and Yudha for your own good." The word Yoga finally.

Mikan keeps away from Yoga. They took off each other's hugs. They justify the way they sit and sit comfortably on the right side of their bed.

"There's only you're going to make me and Yudha instead suffer because of your decision to leave us, brother. I love you so much, I need you to breathe happily in this world which is increasingly making my soul feel claustrophobic. As for Yudha, our son is too small to face the reality of a world so wild and not easy to fight in its midst. He still needs a complete father and mother figure to accompany him." Mikan.

"What you said is very true. I feel the same as you feel. I need you both very much too. However, the soul and body of a Kazehaya Yoga is divided into two parts. Half yours and Yudha, half Kurenai and Alvin's. The recent spate of problems forced me to make a decision that the choice I had to make would hurt one of the parties. And here, I decided you were the one who would get hurt from the impact of the decision I made. I'm sorry, Mikan. Gomen! Please forgive me even if it's so hard." Obvious Yoga.

"Did you know what happened? Did Kak Yoga investigate it for itself about the people around Kurenai?" Guess Mikan.

Yoga nodded. "I thought I was mad at you at the time without confirming the truth first it was a fatal mistake. I should have trusted you. I have known you for a long time, but I doubt you and let you leave this house with Yudha... I decided to find out the truth of your accusation against Kurenai and I found the facts shocking." Kata Yoga's.

"All right, that woman isn't simple?" Mikan.

"Yes. Kurenai is indeed not a simple woman like I thought all along. I thought she was a night-working woman who finally converted after meeting and having children with me. But apparently not, he was involved with a large organization that was still ashes for me to recognize. I don't want any secrets between him and me. I forced him to tell me." Yoga will discuss all of these things with Mikan.

Ask Kurenai directly?

At that instant Mikan realized how straight her husband was to be a person. The goodness and honesty of Yoga can sometimes even boomerang. Did Yoga never think that Kurenai could lie to him?

Not to be prejudiced. Unbeknownst to Yoga, he met Kurenai several times. He realized the change in the figure of a Kurenai where Kurenai who he used to know as a person who accepts the situation, can now turn into a figure who wants to change the situation. An ambitious person who wants to master many things. His eyes implied a gaze in that direction and all the words from him supported to achieve it.

According to Mikan, there is something bigger than Kurenai's wish. Something greater is beyond the desire to have full Yoga.

The one Mikan captured was like wanting to become a queen.

Somehow he chose to conclude with the right words. Clearly, the word queen was a word that came out of her brain.

The queen is identical to the kingdom, right?

Then, the kingdom is synonymous with power, right?

The queen who has the power will be able to do many things as desired?

Mikan shut her mouth. Are the conclusions he made at this time not excessive? Does Kurenai really want to be queen in order to have power so that buses do many things and no one else can oppress her?

Mikan is far away. He should have heard his story first from the investigation that Yoga has done.

She should first see how Kurenai's story is from the point of view of Yoga, her husband.

"Mich?" Call Yoga because you feel that Mikan is busy with her own thoughts.

"I'm sorry, I'm daydreaming. So please tell me what you got after forcing that woman to tell you a story!" Mikan.

"He completes a story of his past that was not told to me. Everything that he kept secret, he revealed to me. Especially about the reason why she could be a prostitute."

"What is the past like that that can drag him into a very dark world? Was he sold by his parents?" Ask Mikan who is trying to guess at once.

"It's not like that, Mikan. His mother was a prostitute as well where she didn't even know who his biological father was. But he swore to me that he didn't want to end up like his mother and die a horrible death. After his mother died when he was not even legal to stand alone. He fought very hard to survive in the midst of the harshness of the fierce concrete forest for the low-economy."

"Is it because it's so hard to survive that he chose to sell himself?"

Yoga shook his head. "He was framed and ended up being a depraved gratifier and locked up for almost a year."

Yoga actually could not bear to tell this to Mikan. But Mikan must know the truth. He must tell the story sequence that underlies his decision to leave Mikan.

Yoga could see Mikan's surprised expression. This is a terrible story.

"Love with you only hurts so much, and then he becomes a sex slave? For ayear? The concept of a sex slave must include unnatural sex, right?" Mikan asked between curious and scared as well.

"How does it hurt? You fucked me stiff. You worry too much about things and don't focus on making love to me. It hurt when I got in!" Kata Yoga's.

"You're too vulgar, Sister Yoga!" Mikan.

"I only tell the truth when we are intimate. If you're like that, what the hell am I doing to you like I forced you to fuck with me. I'm like raping you every time I ask for my rights as a husband." Kata Yoga's.

Mikan admits it's true. He is stiff and thinks of other things when making love with Yoga. Of course he still thinks if Yoga ever make love with Kurenai. There is another side of his heart that has not been able to accept Yoga as a whole.

"Sister, it's not the time to talk about this insignificant matter! Just continue the story of Kurenai as you know it!"

"But it's important to me, Mikan!" Kata Yoga's.

His voice is very serious. Makes Mikan want to hear a little explanation.

"When I entered you, you cried out in pain. I know you want to ask me to stop doing it despite desperately trying to hold it down because you remember your duties as a wife. You're the one who suffered because my touch made me suffer, too. I feel like you haven't been able to accept me completely. I'm sad if you're like this. The sex that I did to you as one of my forms of love for you, actually hurt you. It often doctrines me that I am not worthy of you. Yes, I don't deserve you either..." Yoga is long.

Eight years of marriage can reveal it.

"I'm sorry, Yoga! Sorry to make you feel this way. I just can't accept the harsh reality of our love story." Mikan.

Yoga puking kepa Mikan. "I can understand, Mikan. You still want to enjoy with me I'm so grateful. Thank you for holding on for me."

Mikan removed the Yoga hand from her head. He hugged the hand of Yoga which he moved to his chest.

"My heart rate is still not as bad as it used to be when you were close to me. Can still be misbehaving because of you." Mikan said

Yoga pulled Mikan's arms and back of the head and kissed Mikan's lips.

They both kissed for a long time.

"I love you, Mikan." Yoga said shortly after releasing his kiss with Mikan.

He and Mikan deflated because of the depleted oxygen supply.

"I love you too, Yoga Sister." Mikan said with a smile on her face.

And they hugged back.

.

.

.

"Aahh, I want to hold you like this to death." Kata Yoga's.

Mikan tries to break away from the tight embrace of Yoga. Failed because Yoga just hugged her more tightly. His chest was squeezed with the chest of the field belonging to Yoga.

"Sister, hugged it! We need to talk about your mistress's story!" Pinta Mikan's.

"Awhile more! Just one second!"

"Did she miss me because I left her this week?" Inner Mikan. "Well, it's gonna be a minute." Said. He returned a warm embrace of Yoga.

.

.

.

They let go of each other's hugs. Yoga kisses Mikan's lips again. Damn, it feels hot and wants to continue to a more intimate stage because of swiping her body with Mikan. But he held on because there were important things to discuss.

"You want that, sister Yoga?" Ask Mikan.

"Don't talk there, Mikan! I'm so hard to control!" Kata Yoga's. He is desperate to control himself but Mikan wonders about it instead. It's making it hotter.

"It's okay if you want to." Mikan said in the ear of Yoga.

"Darling, there are things we should discuss first. It's very important. You got it, right?" Kata Yoga's.

Mikan nodded. "I just want to tease you. It turns out you still have lust for me."

"What are you talking about anyway? Of course I still have lust for you. I love you so much. I look at you with a wanted look. I'm normal, Mikan. I'm a normal guy. And this kind of thing is natural, we are also married." Kata Yoga's.

"Yes-yes, I trust you. Yes, continue the story of your affair!"

"He's not my affair, Mikan!" How is kemel? How could Mikan say such a thing while her feelings for Kurenai were not at the level of liking in Mikan's brain thinking.

"Continue! Continue on!" Cut Mikan.

Yoga takes a breath. He continues the story of Kurenai.

"After escaping from the sex slaves, Kurenai tries to survive. Many things did not match his expectations. He needed money to live, he sold himself. Then when he met me, he didn't do it anymore." Kata Yoga's.

Yoga tells all the stories he knows. He knew that Kurenai would not lie about this at all. He could see the honesty in Kurenai's eyes while telling it. This was also the reason for him being able to comfortably talk to Kurenai despite knowing how Kurenai's past was.

In fact, many people look one eye at the profession as a prostitute. Many felt angry and disgusted. Most will stay away too. But he is not that kind of person. His heart is quite human because it assumes that everything on this earth is equal in the eyes of God.

"The sad story. I sincerely sympathize with this even though you already know that I don't like it at all. Then what does that have to do with your decision to leave me?" Ask Mikan.

Yoga knows how Mikan feels about Kurenai. Surely things will not be easy for Mikan to go through. Much of Mikan's hatred for Kurenai is a result of her actions. For that, he could not do much so that Mikan reduced his hatred. This doesn't mean he's defending Kurenai, it's not like that. He simply did not want Mikan in his life to be filled with deep hatred. That would be terrible.

"The person who made him a sex slave is back. That person was so cruel that life was completely worthless to him. He threatened to kill Alvin if he dared to fight him." Answer Yoga.

Miakan. "Alvin it's still so small!"

How can anyone threaten the life of a child? Alvin is the same age as Yudha who is 7 years old. Only a madman and a coward would dare to make a child his target.

"You're right. But he's not looking at feathers. He could get rid of everything that was bothering him. Even now, he has an agenda to kill your life, Yudha's life as well. If it's like this, I can't stay silent. I have to do something." Kata Yoga's.

Immediately, Mikan's body became extremely limp.

.

.

.

Sorry to re-read it because there is an additional chapter. Last night was very sleepy so the post was not over all for this chapter. 😅