MELODY OF LOVE: Arrived Marriage
Flashback Version of Mikan 17

Mikan was crying. Melody's room space was filled with the roaring cries of Mikan.

Melody and Tsuchiya cried. Doesn't make a sound like Mikan's cry. They just shed tears. However, even so, they knew how heart-wrenching Mikan was right now.

Those tears and the sound of crying sounded so heartbreaking.

Very sick, very slicing, very frustrating, very suffering, very hurt, very tight, very hard to breath, very soul-shaking.

Deep cries of regret and sorrow.

Melody and Tsuchiya approach Mikan. They sat to the right and left of Mikan. Then they hugged Mikan warmly so Mikan would feel better.

"It's not wrong, Mother." Melody.

"My message, it's not your fault. The death of a person is the destiny of God. For some reason, I can't believe that Orion-san actually killed Yoga-san. I remember very well how Orion-san was desperately trying to protect nak Yudha. There is love in his eyes. There's a desire to protect inside him." Tsuchiya.

"Although, I'm the one who told people as good as Orion to kill his own brother. I realized that love was blind and Orion was one of the real examples. I don't blame his feelings for me. I'm the one who made it that way. I was the one who made him into the monster that eventually killed Kak Yoga. All because of me." Mikan.

'All because of me.'

These are the words that Mikan has said many times. This was the first time he had said something like this in front of 'others'. He usually holds it himself. He usually enjoys the hurt of his own regrets.

Imprisoning yourself with regret for more than 15 years is a very hard thing to go through. He even wanted to end his life a few times. But he always said it because of Yudha.

Yudha was the strong reason he could hold on until this second. Yudha was the reason for staying alive.

Yudha was everything in his life. He was willing to do anything for Yudha. Even he was willing to wear a happy mask so as not to make Yudha sad. He would laugh like a madman so that Yudha would not worry about him. He seemed as happy as possible so that Yudha would not know what she was really feeling.

"Mother.be calm!" Melody.

Melody didn't tell her mother-in-law to cry. Sometimes, crying like this afterwards will feel better.

The reason Yudha told her not to discuss the past with her mother-in-law makes sense. As a child, Yudha would not have been able to see her mother suffering like this.

"I lost my father because he was sick, Yudha lost her father in an accident, because he was killed. The karmic circle in Yudha's past and that of his family was very dense. Unresolved, not paid. God, I won't blame this fate. But I plead that all be solved with a happy ending. 15 years is more than enough time to get punished in suffering, right? ... If indeed this Kazehaya family still has to serve the sentence, then my presence here will be my effort as happiness. Although it is like a very small light, but I will support that there is happiness in this family... Dear Yudha, I don't understand how happy you are, but trust me, I want to smile with you. I want to live my day and spend it holding your hand. If you're listening right now, please go home! I'm here waiting for you." Inner Melody.

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FLASHBACKS

Mikan went back to telling me about the past. In the morning, Yoga returned home lifeless. A white ambulance and 4 people from the hospital delivered his body home.

His body was helplessly squeezed as he opened the white cloth covering Yoga's face.

The face of yoga has paled. Fresh wounds and blood were still visible. His body was as cold as melting ice.

The powerless Mikan finally fainted.

True crying, crying as much as possible, until hoarse, until coughing, until unable to make a sound. Then fainted back. Conscious of fainting again, unconscious of fainting again.

Wish it was all a fantasy.

I wish all that was a dream.

However, all his hopes were in vain. In fact, he and his extended family are now standing in the cemetery to watch the funeral Yoga.

He intensified his cries as the ground slowly covered Yoga's face. Cover it all buried.

He fell down, slumped, unable to withstand the weight of his body. Everyone attending the Yoga funeral was crying. He is just one of those grieving.

He hugged the Yoga grave. Gripping the still wet grave soil. He was still crying with his eyes. Not caring about his ugly look at the moment that was without being covered in black glasses. He just wants to share his time with Yoga for as long as he can, as long as he can.

Beautiful flowers and colorful, studded adorn the tomb of Yoga. When a gravestone was planted there, there was the end of his hope. Kazehaya Yoga is dead and rested in a place of peace, in the lap of the Supreme Lord.

Darkening view. Everything becomes invisible. The blood within his body seemed to disappear, his body cooling, weakening, and powerless to withstand the weight of his body. He could faintly hear people shouting his name. But it disappears slowly.

Mikan returned unconscious for the umpteenth time.

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When Mikan opened her eyes, she realized that she was in the room. The room he knew as his room with Yoga.

"Mother..." The voice of a child was heard in his ears.

"Youddha..." Mummy Mikan was weak.

Yudha immediately rushed into his embrace. No problem his body hurt because suddenly Yudha hit his upper body. He realized that he had forgotten about Yudha all day. Because he fainted too often, he did not know who Yudha was taken care of by. Did Yudha cry all day like her? Did Yudha also faint?

The basic question she had to ask as a mother, had Yudha eaten? Has Yudha taken a shower?

"Mother, don't be sad! I will always be with my mother and will never leave my mother like I did. For that, I beg you, don't be like this! Don't cry and be unconscious again! ... When mom's eyes were closed for a long time, I was afraid she would leave me just like you." Yudha.

Mikan could not help but hold back her cries. This is not just because of Yoga. But also the sweet speech that comes out of the thin lips of the redness of his son. Yudha's thinking was not in accordance with his age. Yudha can be very mature and understanding.

It seems that Mikan has to admit that Yudha is much stronger than him when facing this temptation from God.

His son is amazing.

Over time, the loss of a loved one will pass. Everything will be difficult at first, but when the seconds change, the minutes change, or the days change, everything will improve.

Time can slowly heal wounds.

Mikan thought about ending her painful grief. He does not want to drag on in a row. He knew life would continue. He can't be caught in the past that snared his feet. He had Yudha to take care of. He had Yudha whom he had to give affection to.

Yudha is his goal now. Yudha is his future.

Yudha is the only 'relicant' of Yoga which is most precious among all the relics of it.

"I will fight for Yudha. My life right now is only for Yudha's happiness... Yoga-san, is what Kurenai said true? You're cheating on me to be with him? I don't want to believe it, but the woman's words affect the way I look at you. I no longer look at you the same way I used to. Know it? I feel like I love you and hate you at the same time... Kurenai and Alvin don't die with you, so your life there won't be quiet in an indefinite amount of time. Continue to bow down to God for forgiveness from Him! While let us here cut the bad karma that is happening in this family... Eventhough I said like that, but actually I do miss you, Kak Yoga. I miss you so much..."

FLASHBACK OFF

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These three women shed tears. All the stories of the times of practice that happened a lot drained the cry. Although tucked sweet story in between, but the long pain that must be borne until this moment is very heavy. It hurts a little when you think about the story of the past.

Like there is a thorn in the flesh. Piercing at will and hurting without being asked.

"Somewhat I was thinking. However, I don't know why, I want to trust my father-in-law. I want to believe that what he said to my mother is the truth. I want to believe that my father-in-law didn't lie and cheat on my mother. I want to believe that Alvin's mother told a lie." Melody.

"Melody is right, it's not just a matter of how we think after hearing the explanation of the story you just told, Mikan-san. But this is our view of how we follow our hearts. The late Yoga-san in my eyes was an incredible figure. He is just an ordinary man who tries to solve problems with the abilities he can. With the ability he is capable of. He thought of many things, thinking of the best way not to hurt you, Yudha, Alvin, even Kurenai-san. That is enough to prove how good a Kazehaya Yoga is. It is not easy to get caught up in the story of two women and two children at a time. It must have been very hard, especially to be fair." Tsuchiya.

"I instill deep thought as you say. I want to do the same. But I am disgusting, even at a time like this I still think about the contents of the will from Kak Yoga. I shouldn't be like this. However, because of Kurenai's words, there was another side of me that was frightened if the will was not for Yudha, but for Alvin and Kurenai because he might have been cheating on me... Do you understand what I'm afraid of?" Mikan.

Melody and Tsuchiya nodded simultaneously. In their hearts they will also have the same thought. When given a sweet promise, but at the end get a word indication of betrayal, although the heart is as hard as possible to believe, but certainly, surely the trust will be eroded. It will slowly collapse.

"I don't know if Alvin's mother was like a snake. So it's true what Yura-san said. I have to be careful with this woman. I don't have a direct grudge against him, but as a result of his words my mother-in-law had to suffer for over 15 years. The mother-in-law loved the late father-in-law very much, but had to be admired because of her mother's words, brother Alvin, and because of that too, Yudha's personality and Yudha's life were affected. I have to save this family as much as I can!" Inner Melody.

All the past stories from Mikan's version have been shaken. The length of the novel feels one title is finished until the end. Exhausting, boring, and making a headache. But what power is, this is what happened in the past. Mikan tried to tell as much as she could remember.

The story of Mikan's past is what ultimately makes Mikan into the figure of Mikan that exists today. A person who can change his face as he pleases. That doesn't mean he's a hypocrite. He was wearing a mask to survive. Especially against Yudha.

Although his heart that was wounded from being torn will hurt the wounds of the past, but in front of Yudha, as much as possible he will try to keep a happy smile.

Love for your child makes it like this.

- Mikan knew about the people who were after Kurenai and Alvin. At least Kurenai knew more clearly.

yoga did leave a lot of things for Mikan, including possessions in accordance with the existing agreement. However, because the words of Kurenai who said about Yoga that cheated him, then there is a fear of his own if he will be betrayed. This made him doubt the contents of the will of Yoga which will be read on Yudha's birthday in July.

- Mikan considers kematin Yoga is his fault. He also said that he was the cause of Orion being so far away with his own family as a result of the incident of Yoga death.

orion suffers from self-blame due to the death of his older brother, Yoga.

A lot of things still stuck in his mind. The truth is whether Yoga betrayed him or not. Yoga is cheating or not. The words from Kurenai had not been answered at all until this second and it all made him very curious.

There was one thing that could put an end to this curiosity. There was one thing that could answer his curiosity.

Yep..

It was the contents of a letter from the late Yoga.

The contents of the letter that will only be read when Yudha's 23rd birthday is the key to the answer of all her curiosity.

It's late April, in three months everything should be answered soon.

Kazehaya Yoga, did he betray Mikan or not?