My Husband Is My Secret Lover
Yoshi POV - Destroyed without you

The next day I managed to follow Ana who was preparing to go to the personnel office of the Airline Company.

Like an angel dressed in formal clothes, I was quite amazed to see him for a while. I really don't want another man to enjoy the beautiful scenery he has.

At first I asked David to force her into the car, but my personal assistant failed to make Ana escape from it.

I had to get out of the car and catch Ana. So strong was the pull of my hand that it made him bounce off falling in my arms.

I really did not mean to embrace her but the warmth of Ana's body was like magic that made me want to linger in her arms .

The smell of White Rose perfume mixed with Strawberry greatly refreshed my sense of smell. The hair that splashed about my face left a sweet vanilla scent, either what shampoo he was wearing but it was so intoxicating to me.

He managed to let go of my embrace but not with his hand. I still clasped the white wrist tightly.

Until I got him in the car. Of course Ana tried to rebel before, but it was nothing compared to my strength.

In the car he kept nagging, scolding me. But I remained unmoved, I avoided eye contact with her, I was afraid to see that innocent face. I fear my faith will falter and my revenge will fail.

She just kept nagging, in my heart a little laugh the nagging sound of her thin lips was so sexy. I want to keep hearing it, I keep teasing her as usual by forcing her to marry me .

But suddenly he said something that made my heart ache. As bad as I was in Ana's eyes, I began to act rudely. I squeezed her body to the end of the door to make her close both her pretty eyes.

Once again he made my anger ignite, Ana said He does not love me, I can accept it but what I cannot accept is He says he loves others.

Even that guy is much better than me, of course I'm getting curious about him. Since when did Ana love that man, hasn't she been close to any boy since High School.

I feel cheated, just look I'll break the man's bones if I find him. My mind started to mess with the past. So at that time Ana did not come to see me because there was someone else in her heart.

It really hurt me, I stopped squeezing her slender body. And back to the starting position.

I knew Ana was starting to sob even tears started to flow on her smooth cheeks even though my eyes did not see her but I could feel the pain in her heart.

I whipped a tissue and gave it to him. But he threw the tissue back in my face before finally getting out of the car.

I'm shuffling my hair rough. Why should I make her cry today. I hate it but I don't like making it that sad either. " I'm sorry Ana" I said in my heart.

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Some time passed after that incident. I tried to track her whereabouts but kept failing.

David said the last time he saw Ana was at his house. I really wanted to go there but it was impossible because the steward was still in the house. Shit, what am I supposed to do now.

****

A month passed and there was no news of Ana. It frustrates me. Like losing my life. For me Ana is like air. Where would make me breathless if I didn't meet him.

I went through my days in chaos. Nothing can distract my mind. I started seeing photos on my phone a lot. There was a longing in my heart but somehow my selfish side was higher.

****

Four months passed but still no news and information I got. I'm getting less and less, no food can really get into my stomach, I keep focusing on the job of adding rupiah coffers in my account.

It's a very rare opportunity. I quickly accepted the offer. A Dutch company with fifteen luxury yachts can imagine how much income I would get if each ship used my product.

At least this could distract me from Ana for a while.

All of a sudden the videocall call came from Mom.

"Hi Yoshi, how are you, darling?" greet the middle-aged woman across there. It's like getting a piece of hope. My mom looks so happy different than usual.

"Hello Ma, tumben called. Yoshi thought Mama had forgotten Mama's only child." I answered while teasing him.

"Yosh you look very unkempt. Your face is full of fur and your body is thinner, what happened?" mama looked at me through her phone screen.

"What's wrong, Ma, just too busy working." My answer covers up my real problems.

"really? Not because you haven't had time to take care of yourself? hurry up and get married son, Mama wants you to have a companion to live to take care of you." Mama answered, while still watching me.

"Ma, don't think too much about Yoshi, just think about Mama and Opa's health." My answer is, to be honest, Mama's words remind me a lot of Ana.

"Son, did you know there's a new resident in this apartment. They have a very adorable toddler. Mama wants a granddaughter like that Yosh." Mama replied, now I know why since last Mama's face was radiant there was a small creature that filled her days.

"Yes Mama. Patience, getting married is not that easy Ma, please. " I said to Mama.

"If not, Mama will find you a future wife here. " Said Mama, since when could Mama threaten like this.

"No need Ma, please give Yoshi the time "My answer is getting confused, while my future wife is disappearing somewhere.

"Have you found him? Mama, did you mean to see the Princess in your teenage years?" Mama asked with a clear look of hope in her eyes.

"Sure Ma, just need to convince him. Mama was calm, yes, "I told her it was clear I had given my mother false hope.

"Goodbye, son, go after Him. Mama supports. " Answer Mama.

I'm really stuck on my own right now. I don't want to disappoint my mom.

If only later I managed to marry Ana, whether my mother would agree to know the truth.

On the other hand, I would love to know the truth. While the only person who knew about the evidence was Opa.

"Opa please come to your senses, so much Ricko wants to ask Opa." I said in my heart hoping that these words would be heard by Opa.

Time keeps rolling while Ana's whereabouts haven't been found yet. Even the phone is not active. I honestly started to worry about him.

My feelings of hate and resentment were further eroded by time being replaced with deep worry.

Some e-mail calls from foreign companies kept bothering me, they asked me to immediately check the field. That is checking one by one cruise ship that will use my product.

I was so fucked up, my mind so divided. On the left side of my brain was thinking about Ana's whereabouts, while the other side of my brain was thinking about my work and my family's circumstances.