My Husband Is My Secret Lover
Yoshi POV - Home

"We're going home today, is everything ready?" I asked Ana who was sitting on her bed. This is my first time getting into this little cabin.

A small room with two residents and filled with roses I gave a few days ago.

"Yes" said Ana, she looked very moody. I can understand this, but what's okay is that everything has happened and inevitably Ana must want to.

"Hey, don't be like that. Marrying me won't be as bad as you think An." I said while sitting on the floor squirming before him, really not like the usual Yoshi.

Ana was still speechless and tears began to drip down her cheeks. Honestly, my heart hurts to see this. That's as bad as I am for her. Or he really loved that guy. Getting married to me was a nightmare for her.

Should I cancel our marriage, then what about my struggles over the years. If Ana had a little taste for me, I promise I'd tell her who I really am.

I felt as if his heart was so far out of my reach. Sometimes I want to ask her if she ever loved Ikau or just liked him maybe.

Unfortunately my guts were so faint I was afraid to hear the answer that it was not my form as Ikau who had been in his heart but someone else.

"Don't be like that, get up. Do not beggar like a beggar of love. That's not your style." Ana said, she finally wants to talk too.

"Alright I'll check our documents for disembark." I said to her while coming out of Ana's room.

In the crew office space where crew management. I saw Reza sitting and preoccupied with various documents on his desk. It seems like a good time to declare his defeat.

"Morning Mr Reza, are the documents on behalf of Yoshi and Lanthana ready?" I asked and he looked at me.

"Good morning Mr Yoshi, so you and Ana are going home today? Why is it so sudden that I know?" Reza asked still with her ignorance about my relationship with Ana.

"So you don't know what it looks like?" I was getting ready to give him a bomb.

"No sir, Ana didn't tell me anything about this at all. Is there a problem?" ask him innocently. How pity.

"We're getting married. I don't know when I'll be back after the holidays. Maybe Ana won't come back to work after this." I said casually.

"Me-married? Ana and you are getting married?" He said with a stammer, I can catch the look of surprise on the face of the crossbreed.

"Yes, married. We've been in a relationship for ten years." I said, ascertaining his doubts.

"But why hasn't Ana told me anything about this at all?" ask again. Like I was holding back the pain.

"Yes, my future wife is indeed not a person who likes to spread personal problems to his friends." I said with pride.

Without waiting for his response from her, I immediately grabbed the document and left her still with a myriad of questions.

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In Ana's cabin, I saw she was getting ready for disembarking. Two of our suitcases were waiting at the door with David preparing to carry them.

Ana says goodbye to her friends, including her cabinmates. They hugged each other and wept over each other and it was so overwhelming in my opinion, like I would never see each other again.

Whereas if Ana wanted to, I could take her back to this yacht again and it's as a guest not as a crew as it is now. I was actually planning to resign from my post here, considering that my intention to work here was only for Ana's sake.

However, because Ana decided to leave, and did not resign. I finally did the same. After checking the luggage at the Marshalling Area. We got off the boat to the airport.

In step out of the ship. Ana just kept staring at that floating piece of iron. I can feel how he feels right now. It must have been hard for her to part from her friends who had accompanied her days all this time.

Arrive at Schipol Airport.

After boarding, we went straight to the gate as stated on our ticket.

He didn't even eat his lunch. I knew he was very hungry.

"An, eat your food." I said while giving her a lunch dish.

"I'm not hungry." He said while pulling the dish tray away.

"An, eat. or. "I said cut off.

"Or are you going to eat me? That right?" he said it pissed me off to laugh.

"Have you memorized?" I said while blinking my eyes.

I'm glad he finally ate that. It seemed that her already filled stomach made her become sleepy and eventually fall asleep. Unknowingly she fell asleep on my shoulder.

There was a feeling of joy in my heart, eager to capture this moment, remembering that Ana realized all this would just pass.

In between the hair covering Ana's ears I whispered to her.

"An, will you marry me? I love you so much. If you knew that I was ikau, would your attitude towards me remain this cold? six years passed my race to you never changed.

I'm sorry An, it's my vengeful fire that has caused our relationship to be this small. I'm sorry Lanthana. I'm sorry" I whispered to Ana's ear while holding her hand.

As if hearing my voice, Ana squirms. But not changing his position, he remained sound asleep on my shoulder. I really like this. At least he can be this calm when he is near me even though he is unconscious.

I'm sure that one day Ana will know everything and will forgive all my mistakes. For now let it be like this first.

For me Ana only needs adaptation, just needs time to get used to being with me. I don't want to think negatively right now.

I just want my wedding to go well tomorrow, no matter what, I don't care. I had to tie Ana up before her father took her from me.

I decided not to tell Mama about tomorrow's wedding. I don't want anything bad to happen, wouldn't it be better to anticipate before the plans we put together fail.

In silence, Ana mumbled softly.

"Mas Ikau's... " Say Ana. Did I not hear wrong? why did he say my name in his sleep.

"Mas... " Say Ana again. I immediately put my ear to his mouth. I'm sure that he just mentioned my name .

"Yes, Ana. I'm Mas Ikau, "my whisper in his ear. I was very curious about what he would say next. People say that people tell the truth when they are asleep.

"Mas Ikau's... " Said again. This time I'm sure Ana really mentioned my name in her dream.

"Yes, An. Tell me, do you love Mas Ikau?" Whisper me again in his ear.

"Yoshi.. I hate you." Ana said clearly. Jesus, he called Ikau now Yoshi. And what's more annoying is that Ana says she hates Yoshi. She hated me.

"Hey, speak the right way. You either hate Yoshi or love Ikau. Or vice versa?" ask again. Geez, why am I so silly talking to a sleeping person.

"Mr, get well soon. Ana doesn't want to marry Yoshi." His words made me even more anxious.

He mentioned the name Ikau, then Yoshi and now he said the name of his Father. Jeez, it's not clear, I finally decided to go to sleep.