My Husband Is My Secret Lover
Who exactly is that girl?

I sat down leaning against the back of the luxurious bed, still with the blanket covering my open body. While Yoshi who was still fully dressed gently raised my chin to stare at his face.

I was still down, not daring to see that handsome face. I was too busy with my feelings. Should I discuss all of this with him, honestly I am very embarrassed to do so but. If it continues like this, I won't stand it either.

Is not in a household should prioritize honesty, regardless of how our relationship so far. What I have in mind right now is Yoshi and I are already bound in one sacred promise of marriage.

"Yoshi, I'm sorry. Can I ask you a question?" I asked now that I started staring at that shady face. I know there's disappointment in there.

"Why do you keep apologizing, baby? why do you always ask" he said.

"I don't know what to say and I'm asking you. I just feel like this is all a dream. What do you really expect from this wedding?" I asked Yoshi.

He began to change his position by sitting next to me with his hands tucked past my innocent back. She held tightly to my arm and gently stroked it.

I could see his face from the side. As usual he was always handsome, and lately the greenish veins that I often saw first began to be invisible again. Could it be that he is starting to control his anger now, or maybe his life is starting to calm down.

"Darling, tell me what's on your mind right now?" tanyanya while grabbing my hand.

"What do you expect from our wedding Yosh?" I asked, repeating it again.

"Of course to live happily with you Ana. Do you still doubt me?" ask Yoshi.

"But what about the feelings between us?" I asked, to be honest, I was so embarrassed when I asked him this.

"Whatchu mean? Didn't we love each other all this time?" ask Yoshi with a smile.

"Yoshi, please take me seriously." I said while looking at his face.

"I'm serious An, I love you." Answer Yoshi, please,

it was like being electrocuted when I heard that phrase coming out of his mouth. I don't know why it happened when I was always upset with him. And all I know is that Yoshi never liked or even loved me.

"You lied." Briefly said. A look of wonder on his face.

"I didn't lie An, wasn't my struggle to get you undoubted all this time?" tanyakanya.

"Don't you come after me all this time because you want to get your money back soon?" ask me seriously.

"No, honey, you misunderstood. I really love you An" he said, kissing my hand which he had held since.

Geez it feels like the scene in my dream when Mas Ikau kisses my hand like this, the beatings are the same. The tickling feeling in my stomach was the same. How could this happen.

"Then what about that girl Yosh? You said you were going to marry her, but why did you marry me in the end?" my many. I began to issue little by little out of the thousands of questions in my mind.

"Oh my God, I still don't think so this is what makes you doubt?" He answered, who somehow laughed at my confession.

I want to cry because I'm ashamed. Now I feel like a beggar of love who is expecting love from my own husband.

"Of course Yoshi, are you really going to marry that girl someday?" I ask that I still ask him that. I was very curious about it, however it concerns my future.

"Darling, why are you so adorable? Makes me want to eat your body more." He said, of course with a perverted smile on his lips.

"Take me Yoshi or I'll go home to my parents right now." I answered, trying to threaten him.

"Don't baby, okay I'll say it. You are actually the girl An. You're the one An." He said steadily but unfortunately I don't trust him.

"You think I'm gonna believe you, huh? that's not possible. You said the girl was your old high school friend and we only met after I graduated school." I said with annoyance.

"Honey don't talk about it anymore, it looks like you're starting to love me so you're burning jealous flames like this." He answered, holding back his laughter.

"No, I don't love you." I said, turning my face away from her.

"really? Who would you love if not me? Is that the guy?" tanyakanya. Suddenly I was very surprised to hear the name Mas Ikau spoken by him.

"You used to call it in your sleep An. Tell me do you love her hmm?" ask Yoshi. If I tell him that I like Mas Ikau very much. Isn't that not true, given our current status.

"No Yoshi, I've forgotten Mas Ikau for a long time." I said clearly, even though my heart felt squeezed as it said that. I have decided to be a good wife for her since Ijab kabul was said.

While Yoshi did not answer my statement and his body seemed to tremble slightly. It seems he is holding back anger.

"Ja-so you never loved her? That bit?" yoshi asked, I feel like he got very seriously carried away with our conversation.

"No Yosh, can we not talk about the past?" my many.

"You started it first An." He said without looking at my face, I felt Yoshi was thinking about something I didn't know.

"I'm sorry Yoshi, can we start everything from scratch?" my many.

"Well, I'll start again." He said excitedly as he walked into the blanket I had been using to cover my body.

"Yosh, hey that's not what I mean !!" I said while trying to avoid his attack from inside the blanket.

"Then what do you mean by starting all over hmm?"he said, poking his head from inside the blanket.

"Our relationship is Yoshi... " I said softly, while his hands began to guerrilla again.

"Yosh." I said again, I tried to grab her body and stop her action.

"You're bothering me a lot Ana." His words seemed like he was beginning to be enveloped with the passion he had been holding back.

"please.. I'm still afraid of Yosh," I said quietly while my heart continued to beat.

"What are you really afraid of?" Asked Yoshi who was currently laying his head on my chest. On top of my two hills that are covered with nothing.

Her breathing, the touch of her skin on my sensitive area made me very nervous.

"I know you've been desperate to claim your rights over me." I said as I stroked her hair, I don't know, this hand is so reflexive to do that.

"Then hmm? let's do it if you already know it" he said while playing the hilltops again making me feel more amused and sighing small.

"What if I'm pregnant with Yosh?" my many. God, I'm so fucked up, I know it's a stupid question. For some reason since our marriage, it feels like I lost the strength to fight it.

"That's great! Then what's the problem?" Asked excitedly, I felt a warm sweep on my chest, so soft that the little suction made me start to lulled.

"Are you going to admit the boy and not leave us both?" I had to ask that.

"Geez, you tested me so hard An, how could I leave you?" he said without stopping his actions.

"Then what if that girl comes back to you someday?" I said softly, hearing my words made it even more uncontrollable.

"I'd really bite you if you just kept asking me about it An." He said still in a loud voice.

"Why are you still covering up Yosh? I was just scared when I started having feelings for you but you left me later." I said softly, I'm embarrassing myself even more now.

"Akkhhh. sick! " my cry endured the pain of the bite.

"Felt! Please stop these silly questions. I'm not leaving you for whatever reason. And that girl, that girl is already mine now." He said while looking me in the eye intensely.

Deggs..

It felt like thousands of Arjuna arrows were pouring down on my heart hearing his words just now.

"The girls are already in your life right now? " I said softly, I tried hard to hold back my tears. I don't know why there's pain I can't express right now. Yoshi is my husband even though there is no love between us. But that doesn't mean I'm willing to share it with other women.