My Husband Is My Secret Lover
Yoshi Disappears

That night Yoshi finally fell asleep on my lap, slowly I lay his head on the pillow, I was afraid to wake him up, then I went to the bathroom to clean myself.

I stared at my plain body on the mirror attached to the dressing table next to the shower. I gasped in shock at the dozens of purplish red marks all over my body. It's exactly like the kissmark he gave me when I was drunk.

At that time I was very angry with him, and thought no-no. There was only one kissmark on my back and that was because he wanted to teach me a lesson because I was too careless in choosing clothes.

At the moment maybe something has not happened to both of us but if other people saw this they would think how great our game was last night. Really stupid. I ruined everything.

What I can do, everything on my mind is bothering me at the moment, I have to convince my heart that everything will be fine. From now on I will try to trust Yoshi, tomorrow I will talk to him about this.

After I finished the shower, I went back to bed. I see Yoshi still sleeping there. I lay my body beside him. Unknowingly these eyes wanted to continue looking at his face. How soothing this face is when you are asleep.

I feel this is not me, since when there was this kind of comfort when I was around him. I have not always avoided it. Then why after a few days of being around him made me have a sense that I can't express, a kind of loss.

"Yosh, I don't know how you feel about me. Do you still love that girl?" I said softly while looking at his face that was still asleep.

Those eyebrows, those eyes and those lips why everything feels so familiar. Is it true we've met before. But where, did Yoshi all this time live his life in Jakarta.

I just kept imagining things that would happen after this. There is such a great fear. Why doesn't Yoshi want to introduce me to his parents if it's true that he's not hiding anything from me.

"Yoshi, what are you really hiding from me? Aren't we married? Do you really just think of me as a debt-redeeming wife so I don't deserve to be introduced to your family?" I said softly, this time my hands began to be uncontrollable.

I grabbed that face, my fingers began to walk down this perfect carving of God before me. I am still very curious about his eyebrows and eyes. Why these two combinations are so familiar to me. I'm starting to like this part of his face.

"An, I love you... " Yoshi said in his sleep, a clear statement made my heart flower. People say, someone will tell the truth in his sleep.

Okay, I'll try asking you some questions. I know it's stupid, but anyone knows I can get a clue to it.

"Yoshi, do you really have a taste for me? If that's true since when did that taste start to exist?" whispered in his ear.

"Since the first An. Believe me I love you to the moon and back." Yoshi said in a rather hoarse voice.

"Since when? Say it clearly?" Ask again.

"Since High School. Since the first time I saw you." Yoshi replied, this statement made me think, why is he so unclear. No, this can't be allowed, I'll uncover it. Maybe what he meant was the girl. As fast as lightning I asked.

"Where is the girl now? and how do you know about Mas Ikau?" I was whispering in his ear.

"The girl." he said hanging.

"Yes, Yoshi tell me where is he now?" ask again. I was getting excited to listen to her words.

"The girl is already together with Mas Ikaumu at this time..... " Say Yoshi with a smile. Gosh the words are getting more unclear, this makes me very dizzy. Why did he come to terms with linking the girl to Mas Ikau.

"Yosh, speak clearly!" My words slightly raised my intonation. I almost lost my temper because of Yoshi's swirling words.

"Ana, stop talking about this. Let's just start the process of making grandchildren for Mom and Mama.. " The answer is, I saw his body start to squirm. It seems like he's starting to get distracted with my actions. I finally decided to follow her to dreamland.

****

Sunlight began to enter this room, providing a natural warmth for my body that was still covered with blankets. A female voice greeted me.

"Good morning, Miss Ana." He said with a smile. I saw him standing and looking down. As I looked to the side, there was no Yoshi there. Or around this room.

"During the morning, Ni.. Ni Luh, is your name really Niluh?" let me take a look at the name of his chest.

"You're so young, like my sister's age. Just call me sister don't call me Madam" I said trying to get along with her.

"No, ma'am, I'm afraid of you." Answer Niluh awkwardly.

"Is your Master all that? Where is he anyway? isn't it too early to go to the office?" ask me while glancing at the wall clock that still shows at 05:30.

"Sir left at 04:00, Madam, and asked me to wait for Madam to wake up for breakfast." Reply Niluh with a large tray in his hand.

"But where did you go? Do you know?" my question is, I'm very curious. And why didn't Yoshi wake me up to say goodbye.

"Sorry, madam, I don't know. As I recall, sir was in a great hurry this morning. Without ordering anything except to keep the Madam from leaving the mansion." Niluh said, I could not say anything more and asked Niluh to continue his work.

****

I was still silent, thinking about where Yoshi had gone, whether he was angry with me, or maybe I was disappointed with my attitude. There is a bit of guilt lodged in my heart right now, I keep thinking positively maybe Yoshi is getting a sudden call because of business affairs.

Time continued to run until noon there was no news from him, at least to give a short message to me he did not do. I'm starting to get worried.

I decided to leave the room and see the conditions in this mansion, there are 3 floors and one main floor. Our room is on the second floor. Several times I passed by the waiter and they were very friendly, several times asking what they could do for me.

It seems like Yoshi is really training them. I kept walking down the corridor of this building. Until we get to the room where the door is open. I went inside too.

I saw a table and a chair made of fancy wood, complete with a laptop and some files on top of his desk. While in the corner of the room there is a large shelf with a row of books neatly arranged. I can confirm it looks like this is Yoshi's workspace.

My eyes continued to wander through every ornament in this room, until my hand came to a small table in the corner. I don't know why my hands are so itching to open the drawer.

I forced myself to open it slowly. As I guess nothing special, there is only one small cardboard box that says From Bali with Love. I grabbed the little cardboard box, I looked again, it looked like it was from Bali.

But why did Yoshi keep this empty box, but it contained nothing. Seeing from the situation that began to be torn apart it seems like this box is already an annual age.

At first glance I remembered the Balinese bracelet that Mas Ikau had given me, the difference was that my bracelet was wrapped in a red velvet box with a gold ribbon decoration, very beautiful. I still have it in my suitcase.

Maybe if I put that bracelet in this cardboard box, it would fit the size perfectly. Like a package of souvenirs from Bali. My daydream stopped when David, Yoshi's assistant, came to enter this room.

"Good day, ma'am" he said politely.

"Just like David, I haven't seen you since morning, where is he?" ask her.

"Mr suddenly went to England this morning Madam. The big madam called him to get there." David Said.

I was quite surprised to hear that, however, I am Yoshi's wife right now, and I deserve to know about her, about what's going on. As if covering it from me. Until Yoshi left in a hurry before I woke up from my sleep.

"Do you know what's going on?" I asked David.

"I'm sorry Madam I don't know, I beg you to resign to return to the office. Given the moment the Master is not in place so I must replace his position for a while." David said politely as he walked away with some documents on the table.

Though I was eager to ask about Yoshi's life to him, including about this little cardboard box, what can I do. David is very busy right now.

****

Three days passed, still no news from Yoshi. I worried about him more and more, I tried to contact him repeatedly but there was no reply.

My mind started to get messed up, I started to think no more. What if it's true that Yoshi will leave me after everything that happened. I was so panicked that I didn't know what to do anymore. My husband disappeared somewhere.