My husband is not my man of choice
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"I feel like I have a purpose in life again. I want to be a better person for my son. I want to change."

Dito pity seeing his best friend like this. Even back then when she found out her lover was betraying and running away with another man she wasn't sad like this. At that time he only looked angry and vengeful on Renan's face.

"But Mey didn't want the boy just because he was my flesh and blood. Am I that bad?"

"You are reaping what you planted Ren."

Renan.

"What can I do to help you?"

"Nothing."

"I'll see him after this. Doesn't matter, does it?"

Renan nodded. "Who knows he wants to talk to you."

"I'm not sure that. You know he's very closed."

"Has he always been like that? She doesn't have a friend or someone she used to talk to?"

Dito just shrugged his shoulders. "Nobody knows Mey's personal life. He rarely goes out, finishes work he goes straight home. He also rarely joins if there is an event in the office. He was indeed friendly, but he seemed to have a wall so that people would not approach him."

"The man must be so special that he can be her lover" Renan murmured.

*

Renan has returned to the hospital with Dito trailing behind him. They headed straight for Mey's room in the infirmary.

Bi Susi and Mey turned their heads together as Renan and Dito walked into the room.

"Hai Mey .. "greet Dito as he walks closer to where Mey is lying. Mey did not answer.

"Bi Susi can go home" Renan told Bi Susi.

"Excuse me, sir." Bi Susi walked out of the room.

"You wait here, I need a minute" Renan told Dito. Renan goes after Bi Susi.

"Wait Bi ... I want to talk to aunt." Renan invited Bi Susi to sit in a long chair in the hospital corridor.

"What's up, sir?"

"What do you know about Mey? His family or his childhood?"

Bi Susi looks wrong. " Tell the Madam, sir. It's the mistress who knows who Non Mey is.

"Tell me what aunt knows."

"Oh ... As far as auntie is concerned, Non Meylan had a mother but sorry .. It seems that Non Meylan's mother lived in a mental hospital until she died. If it's about her father, aunt doesn't know."

Renan is stunned to hear the story of Susi. He never knew about this. What she remembers, her mother often took a little girl home on school holidays. Renan never asked who the little girl was and immediately thought of her as a sister.

"Maybe it's because it's also Non Mey's very secretive person."

"That's so ... Does aunt know anything else?"

"No Sir. If you want to know more you should just ask the Madam directly."

"Later I will ask my mother, wait for the time is right. Did he want to eat?" Renan diverted the conversation.

"You, but only a few sirs."

"Will he talk too?"

Bi Susi nodded.

"Is he talking about me?"

"So Non Mey had said that she was disappointed because Mr. Renan wanted her son, but did not want Non Meylan."

"Is that? Yes, thank you." Renan was going back to Mey's room.

"Just one more Mr ... "

Renan stopped his steps. "What Bi?"

"So Non Mey asked for a consultation with a psychologist."

Renan nodded. "Thank you." He turned around and put a small smile on his face.

Mey seeing a psychologist means she realizes there is something wrong with her, meaning there is still a desire to heal.

Renan continued his steps.

Arriving at Renan's room sees Mey talking to Dito and sees Mey smiling once in a while.

I also want you Mey, not just your son! inner Renan.

After a two-day hospital stay, Mey was finally allowed to go home.

"You rest. Don't think about anything" Renan said. "If you want something to tell me, don't hesitate."

Mey nodded.

After consulting psychologist Mey felt better. He can regulate his emotions and reduce negative thoughts that can trigger anxiety.

While in the hospital Mey could see how sincere Renan was paying attention to her. He always accompanied him after work, even Mey had ignored him he still survived. And it started sympathy.

"What do you want to eat for dinner?" asked Renan gently.

Mey just shrugged her shoulders.

"All right."

Renan was happy that Mey was finally willing to reply to his words even though it was only through sign language like nodding or shaking. It was already better than him not responding at all.

*

In the morning, Mey was ready at the dinner table in neat clothes.

"You're going to work?" ask Renan.

Mey nodded.

"It's not that I forbid you Mey, but I don't want you to be exhausted."

"I'm fine."

Renan noticed Mey who did look fresh as usual. His face was not pale and he looked healthy.

"Yes, but don't be tired. If you feel dizzy, take a break." Renan is starting to get possessive.

In my heart Mey smiled. He was happy to see Renan's attention to him.

When I was going to eat the food, Mey saw Renan first. The man nodded "It's okay, won't vomit... Eat it."

Mey started eating. Now it's like a habit. Mey wouldn't dare eat if Renan hadn't said so.

Just a few mouthfuls of Mey's stopped eating.

"Why not spend?"

"It ... I'm full already." Mey then drank the pregnant milk that had been prepared bi Susi.

"Yes already ... " Renan is not pushy. "Don't forget to take your vitamins" Renan said. "Bi please get the vitamins."

"Good sir."

These little cares from Renan slowly touched Mey's heart. That's what Bi Susi said. Renan has changed. He talks more and is also warmer.

Before long Bi Susi came to bring the vitamins that Renan asked for. Mey immediately took her vitamins.

"We're leaving now" Mey said after finishing drinking.

"Every day we'll go and go home together."

Mey nodded.

"If you want something or want to go somewhere just say it."

"You've said that a hundred times" Mey replied flatly.

Renan smiles. This was the first time Mey had seen Renan smile and Mey looking at him without blinking.

"Is something wrong?" Renan was wrong. He realized for a long time that he did not smile in front of people.

Mey, who was also misbehaving, distracted her.

"Inter Not ... "

Bi Susi ran to the kitchen and then came back with the food box.

"This is what I've prepared for Non Meylan." Mey frowning. He doesn't usually go to work with a pack.

"So Mr. who asked," added bi Susi.

Mey looked towards Renan.

"You should eat a healthy and nutritious diet" he explained.