New Hope Together Dusk That Is No Longer the Same
Not the end of everything

My weapons are no longer the same

No longer as beautiful as when your figure is real

And now when dusk greets, only regret is able to tell stories

About you, shadows without any real form

I'm not complaining, though,

Just why is my heart now broken?

When you completely disappeared from my world

I'm sorry I never realized your love

Sorry for always dropping your tears 

~Muhammad Azka El - Fatih~

“Try to open his eyes slowly,” said the doctor after opening the bandage in Aisha's eyes.

Slowly Aisha opened her eyes, a light came back to greet her net.

“Mu I can see again ma'am,” said Aisha directly hugged Maya.

“Alhamdulillah son, you are normal back.”

“Congratulations Sha finally you can see again, indeed the cornea transplant has a high success rate,” said Faris was happy about Aisha's condition.

“This is all thanks to the kindness of Diana, lucky Azka once had a woman as good as her,” Aisha said teary-eyed.

“Then how is the condition of her son Diana?” aisha asked who remembered the little baby Diana had desperately fought for.

“Alhamdulillah baby healthy despite being born prematurely, then Azka has been allowed to bring her baby home,” replied Faris responding to Aisha's question.

“Let's both go to Azka's house to join tahlil for Diana yah?” take Faris to Maya who is directly taken by both of them.

***

Faris, Aisha and Maya both go on an adventure for the late Diana at the Azka residence.

Seen the sad face of Azka who was reading al-qur’an when they arrived, while her little baby was sound in the sling of the nurse.

Occasionally tears fell from the corner of Azka's eyes that looked fragile, without Azka realizing there was a new eye figure staring at her from a distance, with an indistinguishable gaze.

“The cup is as deep as that of Diana enthroned in your heart Mas. It's worth it that you've completely forgotten our story.”

“You are sincere yes nak Azka, this is all a plan that is Powerful,” Maya said strengthening Azka.

“Maybe this is karma for Azka because of Azka's past actions, it turns out mengikhlaskan loss is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand,” Azka answered rau.

“Yang has passed do not be pushed back Mas, we live for the future, do not let the past shackle,” Aisha denied Azka's statement.

“I haven't been able to seikhlas you Sha, sorry I have hurt women as well as you.”

“Already Mas, I've mengikhlaskan everything.”

“Now your job is to take care of the mandate of Diana Ka, take care of your children well,” now Faris who strengthens Azka.

“Thanks to you guys for coming to pray for Diana.”

“Diana is a good woman Mas, you're lucky to have had one. Then we say yes, Assalamualaikum.”

“Waalaikumsalam.”

After Azka's house, Aisha returned to the room to open a letter from Diana that she had not read.

Neutraannya nanar, his heartbeat beat much stronger than usual.

Assalamualaikum

To Aisha, a beautiful woman with a noble heart

May you always be in the mercy of Allah

When this letter moves into your hands, of course, my body is no longer in your world

I wrote this letter as a woman who once seized your happiness

You may have heard my story from Mas Azka, but now let me tell it from my side as a Diana.

News of the accident that Mas Azka reported was not entirely a lie Sha, the three of us did have an accident after returning from London. Qodarullah my father was first called by God, before his death, my father intended that Mas Azka take care of me and marry me. Stupidly I do not know if there you are waiting for his return.

Mas Azka was just trying to fulfill his promise to my father, but I don't know if Mas Azka even reneged on his promise to you.

Until one day Mas Azka was very sick, all night only your name he chanted. From then on I realized that it was my presence that made you disappear from the life of the coveted Mas Azka.

I'm getting tired of living a life that I shouldn't be.

I was about to give up because I could not stand it, but again the qodarullah beyond belief Mas Azka's seed in my womb was planted.

For my son's sake, this household I maintain

Sorry I was selfish for imposing impossibility

Sorry for my presence that made your world destroyed

I knew all this time you couldn't be okay

I know the pain and pain of your sacrifice when I have to take the Azka mas with me

I know how cruel I am to live on the tears you shed

But I also know that you are a woman with a heart that is as sincere as the ocean

Thousands of apologies may never be able to bring it all back

But at least accept what I have given you

Let my eyes be one of the witnesses of your happiness in the next life

Who are guilty of sins

Diana Syafira

“You never snatched anything from me Diana. You never have anything wrong with me."

Aisha was already rested on the edge of the bed, her grip on the sheets dangling tighter as her stuffing grew stronger. He sobbed with a variety of stifling regrets.

"I'm sorry if all this time let you in prejudice like this, I never really hated you,” Aisha whispered in her stuff.

***

“Sorry, I was not accidentally,” Aisha said while helping a woman clean up documents scattered about her actions.

“You're Aisha right?” ask the woman who turned out to be Karina.

“What are you Karina?” aisha asked again.

“Now you can see?” karina's question sounded like a mockery in Aisha's ear.

“Alhamdulillah, once again I am sorry,” replied Aisha who then was about to pass.

“Wait a minute!” karina stopped Aisha's steps.

“What can I help you with?” ask Aisha to be friendly.

“Cause, don't be formal like that. If you can tell you who Faris is?”

Aisha had already guessed the question that the woman was going to ask.

“I'm with Faris sahabatan.”

“Surely only validate?”

“Is there any other answer you expect? Sorry I'm in a hurry, excuse me.”

Aisha soon passes leaving Karina who is still grieved with annoyance at feeling neglected.

***

“Sha what are your plans after completion of internship?” faris asked as they were enjoying the twilight at North Quay.

Again it is indeed that place that can always spoil the heart and mind of Aisha.

“But I do not know Ris, it feels like this year a lot of unexpected events that I have experienced. I think I need to calm my heart first before stepping again,” replied Aisha still did not turn her face from the beauty of twilight.

“You mean calm? Off first of all routines?” ask Faris who doesn't understand Aisha's plan.

“Not yet,” replied Aisha shook her head.

“Yang sure ...” Aisha hung up her sentence, looking at Faris with a gaze that Faris herself could not decipher.

“I thank you very much, from all the events that I have experienced, you are always there for me under any circumstances. Maybe I myself also do not know how to bales all the goodness that you have given me.”

“You do not need to bales anything Sha, with your good look it is more than enough for me,” replied Faris sincerely.

Unknowingly a clear circle fell from the corner of Aisha's eyes, she tried to find a lie in Faris's gaze, but nil, she did not find it.

It was not that Aisha was unaware of Faris' feelings that she expressed in each of her treatment so far to Aisha, it was just that she was too afraid if she had to come back disappointed.

The wound that Azka had cut was still gaping, how could he reopen it to a name?.

Maybe other people will never realize if all this time Aisha can not be okay, because indeed she is smart enough to just hide feelings.

Aisha did not lie if all she said was okay, she was just strengthening herself to be really okay.

It was not that he wasted what Faris had been fighting for all this time, but indeed the matters of the heart could never be forced.

***

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