New Hope Together Dusk That Is No Longer the Same
Gus Hasan's secret was revealed

Gus Hasan was still looking down on sipping his drink with a flat look. He probably did not realize that his brother had returned and was stepping towards him. Until a small paper suddenly thrown in front of him made Gus Hasan look up and find the brother who had sat back in front of him.

“Jelasin same Mba what all this means,” said Ning Sabina after showing a photo she found in her sister's room drawer at the time.

Judging from his appearance, Gus Hasan seems surprised to not expect if finally the brother knows the big secret that he has been keeping for himself.

“M-mba dapet from where is this photo?” gus Hasan asked with a hand that seemed to tremble slightly reaching for the photo. The photo shows a portrait of a girl staring at the twilight behind her. Still he remembered correctly how the figure was able to make himself always routinely visit the gazebo at the end of the pesantren garden every twilight greet.

“Guse what are you doing here?” The girl looked stunned when she turned around and found that Gusus was also standing staring at the same twilight.

“Oh I was walking, happened to accidentally see the twilight that seems like today is beautiful.” Apparently the question from the girl before him was able to make Gus Hasan a little confused looking for an excuse.

“Oh ..” The girl swept a glance around. “Isn't this santriwati area?”

“Ah yes-it was I was looking for Fakih, but it was not in the area here.”

“So right walk or look for Gus Fakih?”

“Ah that means the streets all looking Fakih.”

The girl just nodded gently and then immediately said goodbye to return.

Ning Sabina immediately took back a piece of the photo her sister was holding. “Since when did you like your own cousin's sister's wife?”

Gus Hasan did not answer, the tip of his lips even slightly raised hearing that sentence. Why it hurts so much to hear the girl he loves with the name ‘wife sister cousin’. Couldn't her brother name the girl correctly? Just his name alone, there was no need to mention his status.

“Before Hasan knew that the girl Mas Faris used to tell me was the same girl Hasan wanted.”

Ning Sabina exhaled heavily, she even leaned back into her chair so limp she heard the confession from her sister.

“Faris know if you like his wife?”

Gus Hasan shook his head weakly, “Aisha must have kept everything well.”

“Stupid! Your mas even knows everything.” Ning Sabina even cursed in her heart.

“So you've already revealed everything the same Aisha?” Again Ning Sabina asked as if she was interrogating inmates in custody. Gus Hasan replied with his body language.

Ning Sabina looked at her only sister who was now looking down before her, “San-“

“What is this feeling Mba wrong? Isn't love a fitrah for every human being?” asked Gus Hasan.

The sound of Ning Sabina beristighfar.

“Your feelings aren't wrong, but your desires are wrong. They want what belongs to someone else. Even the other person is your own Mas.”

“Hasan also does not want rich gini, Mba. It is not Hasan who rules on whom this love should be anchored.” The net condenses, feeling the end that instantly heats up.

“At least you should be able to refrain from controlling it, so that the love does not hurt others. Have you ever imagined if Mas-mu know if his own sister actually likes his wife? If you are in the position of your Mas, try to imagine how sick?”

Ning Sabina's goal all the way to this city was indeed to give her sister some understanding, at least before it was too late.

“San, Dengerin Mba! It is not good to expect someone who already belongs to someone else. Our religion does not teach that. Mba know it might not be easy for you to forget everything, but at least you have to try.”

“Hasan has tried Mba. Even by going all the way here. Butwhat? In fact the taste is still nesting.”

Ning Sabina again was made stunned by that confession. Apparently true if it turns out that one of the reasons his sister visited this country was for an escape. Honestly as a brother he was also sick to know this truth. Apparently all this time his sister held lara by keeping everything alone.

Ning Sabina took her brother's burly hand and grasped it tightly, trying to give him strength so that he wouldn't feel alone.

“Kalo try harder. If forgetting is not possible, at least control that feeling so as not to let him control you. You just need to open yourself up, give a chance on a new one to come.”

“San.” Ning Sabina wiped her net ends.

“Love is not just about being with the person we love. Love is also a package with willing.” Gus Hasan looked at the brother with sadness, “Rela that in fact not Hasan the goal, Mba?”

Ning Sabina nodded weakly. “Nthere is no compulsion in loving and being loved, San. The best willing is to let her love the person she loves.”

“What about Hasan, Mba? What about the pain that feels more and more piercing here?” gus Hasan asked closed his eyes while holding his chest, where a sense of tightness always reached him when the contents of the head unconsciously always remembered the name Aisha.

“Allohu. Abi, Umi .. apparently your concerns are right, Abi and Umi's sons are not okay here.”

“San, indeed what goes is love. But don't forget, what's coming is happiness. If the love that you currently feel only offers wounds, then God willing happy that will come offer love.”

“What Hasan capable of, Mba?”

“Definitely. Mba is sure you can. You remember Abi's advice about the parking attendant?”

Gus Hasan just looked back down, powerless to look at his brother's face that seemed unable to hide his worries.

“Is there a parking attendant who is angry and disappointed when the vehicle he has taken care of well but suddenly taken someone who is none other than the owner? Because he knew from the beginning that the vehicle was not his.”

“Learn sincerely from the parking lot, because what is our destiny will not be allowed by God to belong to others, and vice versa. Isn't that Sayyidina Ali that Hasan always said to the santri?”

Now Gus Hasan is embarrassed, how can he easily advise others when he himself is so difficult to practice.

His chest was increasingly rumbling incoherently, sounding softly several times his tongue was chanting Istighfar. In fact sincere is not as easy as the word, that is what is felt now.

Before the two went back apart, Ning Sabina directly hit her sister's body. Clutching it tightly with the netra that re-heated. “Mba sure you can. Let go of those who hurt, you deserve to be happy with the right person.”

Ning Sabina hoped that hopefully with this her sister could quickly make Aisha happy with her choice. But if with this advice still can not enter the heart, it seems he himself must take decisive steps to break the feeling.

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