Rainy Heart's
Chapter 12's

"Love is a struggle..."

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"I know I'm struggling now! I'm fighting for my love...."

~Rainy Heart~

Kyuhyun averted his gaze and took a deep breath. Is Juhyun expressing love to her right now? Kyuhyun closed his eyes to calm down. Whether he knew it or not he was nervous now. He was also surprised, taking several breaths to calm down. Juhyun was still looking at him. I hope this is the true declaration of love

"C.e...." He blurted out his words as the car drove suddenly. Juhyun could only peck at Kyuhyun's reaction. The car drove pretty fast. He did not dare to say anymore. Kyuhyun must have been surprised.

He shifted his gaze from Kyuhyun who seemed to have been able to behave normally again, and the speed of the car also returned to normal. Juhyun sighed then lowered his head

'Am I being too rash?' worry in the heart. Along the way they were silent, Kyuhyun also seemed reluctant to talk or discuss further, and like a boomerang, Juhyun now felt misbehaved

"You're training to show love to Kyujong?" That question Kyuhyun casually asked, and it made Juhyun's heart inflamed. He felt futile.

'Why does he want me to be with Kyujong?'

Unconsciously, Juhyun looked at Kyuhyun with an annoyed expression. Feeling noticed, Kyuhyun turned his gaze for a moment to see Juhyun's reaction

"Was... My reaction wasn't exactly what you had in mind?" Kyuhyun asked carefully

"Yes?" Juhyun sighed, he felt like a fool now

"Ajumma... That was already pretty good, Kyujong would definitely not stop smiling if he heard it..." Kyuhyun smiled widely, while Juhyun grew silent, Kyuhyun had made him even more misbehaved

"Whooaahs... I can't believe you're aggressive enough!"

"What??????" This time Juhyun screeched, he somewhat did not accept with that aggressive word, Kyuhyun chuckled softly in response to Juhyun's exaggerated reaction

"Yes!!!! You bad guy!!!" Kyuhyun grew louder as Juhyun cursed at him

"By the way don't miss me! You won't be able to resist longing for a charismatic man like me...." Kyuhyun said casually back and it made Juhyun even more emotionally ignited. Doesn't Kyuhyun realize how he feels? Several times Juhyun sighed, he did not want to get angry, so he tried to calm down, Kyuhun turned his head back still with a relaxed smile

"You're really going to come with me to Seoul?"

"No way!! Put me down here!" Kyuhyun was a little surprised when Juhyun suddenly snapped at him and reflexively stopped the car. Juhyun immediately got out of the car and closed the door in annoyance

Kyuhyun's facial wrinkle became cloudy when Juhyun had come out. He breathed a long breath and leaned back for a moment

"I hope we will never see each other again!!!!" Juhyun vented his frustration and shouted like a fool. Kyuhyun only noticed that from the rearview mirror, and his gaze looked wistful

"I'm sorry.... You should be with Kyujong hyung" he muttered before he drove back.

Juhyun lowered his head and cried, his tears just coming out without orders. He didn't want to cry, but he really couldn't resist. He slowly crouched down and cried alone in the middle of the road. His feelings are mixed, between shame, annoyance, anger and also sad. Did Kyuhyun really not feel the love he was trying to channel? Juhyun was really very upset right now.

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Juhyun arrived at his house with his head bowed. After getting tired of crying earlier, Juhyun decided to go home on foot. His steps gontai enter the house, he is not out of thought with the name of love, love really cannot be explained by logic. After the anger overflowed with the flow of tears earlier, he was not even able to blame Kyuhyun's attitude, instead he blamed himself.

He's too rash! That's what's on his mind. Juhyun realized that if this action was too rash, therefore, Kyuhyun must have been so shocked that he reacted like that. He was sure this was not a rejection from Kyuhyun. He will keep trying until he finds clarity from Kyuhyun on his feelings.

Juhyun sat on his middle room sofa with a sigh, still with his head lowered. Whether sad or what, no one can read his mind

"I was so stupid..." Kyujong comes with a glass of water, Juhyun raises his head and sees Kyujong's soothing smile

"You didn't give me the right schedule! Why didn't you tell me that starting this week the kids are off school?"

"Ah... I'm sorry...." Juhyun smiled

"You're afraid to miss me if I don't come?" Juhyun raised one eyebrow then smiled

"You're teasing me again...?"

"No... I'm being honest! Eohs... You're taking Kyuhyun to the harbor?" Juhyun still looked at Kyujong before replying, hearing the name made him recall what he had done earlier

"Yes." and finally Juhyun could only lie.

"You guys looked serious... May I know what you're talking about?" In fact Kyujong could not help his curiosity

"Hmmm? No. gabe... There's nothing we're talking about seriously..." Kyujong looked back at him, trying to guess whether Juhyun was honest with his words, or if he was hiding something

"Mom and dad... Where's where?" Juhyun asked to switch the conversation

"They're out! Emm.. want me to do something...?" Juhyun nodded, Kyujong smiled and stood up

"Eoh... About that proposal...." Juhyun said quickly, making Kyujong stop his steps

"I...."

"No need to answer now! I'll be waiting for you... I've overcome the rumors anyway....." After interrupting Juhyun's words, Kyujong left him. He will also be returning to Seoul.

Juhyun could only look at the back of Kyujong who left him. Didn't Kyujong want to listen to him, until he was stalling? He wants to get all this done, and not give Kyujong false hope. The longer he hangs his feelings, the more hurt Kyujong will be.

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'When I start falling in love, will you be heartbroken? The heart of a star is divided into two parts... Don't be afraid of losing me because I'm in love, because you've already occupied another room in my heart.... Support us.....'

Kyujong read it over and over again, and thought over again. His mistake two years ago was his insolence, his mistake two years ago was his dishonesty. This time he will be honest, and hope his fans understand. No need to show who Juhyun is, he will hide and protect him.

Kyujong exhaled and pressed the 'share' sign on his phone screen. The writing was uploaded in seconds along with a photo with a love sign in hand. It did not take long, in a moment many have seen or commented in this post, Kyujong smiled reading their comments

"Thank you...."

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The term love is sacrifice, it sounds funny. Is love not a struggle? If you love, will you only sacrifice without fighting for it? Because true love will not make people feel sick, it will only make someone fight and continue to fight for a word "happiness"

Shouldn't we surrender before war? Fight for what will make happy, if it is love, then it should be fought for. But love is not about the relationship between man and woman. There are many kinds of love in this world, because it makes love as a way to happiness.

He arrived about two hours ago, but he was still in his car. Not intending to rush away, he could not forget the shocking incident that had happened earlier. Did he feel he was degraded? When a woman clearly expresses her feelings? When a no-nonsense woman says she's afraid to miss him? While himself? Hiding like a coward. It really made him feel...... Helpless.....

'tok...'

He looked towards the voice, the longing sweet smile of a woman welcoming him

"Why not enter Kyuhyun? The kids must be glad you came..." The woman said after Kyuhyun opened the car door

"Miss..." Now Kyuhyun had gone down his car and greeted Ahra with a warm smile

"Aigoo... Missed you...." Ahra ruffled her hair

"Treat me like a grown man!" Kyuhyun lowered his hand and protested

"Aigoo... Looks like something big happened in Jeungdo, are you in love?" Kyuhyun hissed and laughed, what kind of question is that

"Come on! You have to go in first, outside cold" Ahra grabbed Kyuhyun's hand, intending to pull him in. But with a subtle gesture, Kyuhyun distanced Ahra's hand

"Why?"

"I'll go to the hospital first..." Kyuhyun smiled, trying not to offend Ahra

"What's wrong? You feel sick?" Ahra approached and noticed Kyuhyun's anxious face

"Really... You look sick!"

"No... I'm fine, I'm just missing doctor Eun...." Kyuhyun smiled even wider making Ahra sigh in annoyance

"Looks, my medicine was left behind... And I'll...."

"Aish! How can you be this frivolous???" Kyuhyun was stunned as his sentence was cut off gracefully like that

"I'll come along! You just sit in the passenger seat, I'll drive!" Kyuhyun increasingly distrusted Ahra's excessive attitude, he even pushed her to get away from the car door.

Kyuhyun still looked at Ahra who was now sitting in his steering chair. Hard to believe, his car feels looted by two women now. Kyuhyun clucked and shook his head

"Yes!!! What the hell are you doing? Quick in!!!" Kyuhyun sighed and entered his car without speaking.

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"You must be tired after driving for hours..."

"Hmmm...." Kyuhyun muttered

"Why not call me? I can come to be your driver..." Kyuhyun smiled even though he was still in the same position

"I wouldn't do that to my nuna..."

"Aish! Don't be so strong! You're not a superhero!" Ahra's protest was puffed up, he was annoyed that Kyuhyun never complained

"It looks like nuna's getting a little sentimental..." Kyuhyun muttered, Ahra silently did not respond. And concentrate on driving

"Sometimes you have to complain about the burden of your mind on others. Your heart is soft, you won't be able to hold it all by yourself.... Whenever you feel it's heavy, say it! Don't keep it!"

"Kyujong hyung said something?" Kyuhyun still remains in his position, Kyuhyun is sure that Kyujong must have complained to Ahra about what happened to him yesterday. Ahra glanced at him and sighed

"Does everything hurt?"

"Yes... If I see Kyujong hyung fail again..."

"What do you mean Kyuhyun?"

"For these six years, I've been so selfish, I hurt her, I burdened her mind. And now I just want to make him feel happy.... Ah... Nuna, is it still a long time?" Kyuhyun still said it with a mutter

"Cenaps? Are you feeling uncomfortable? You feel pain"

"No... I'm sleepy...!" Kyuhyun replied quickly, Ahra sighed

"Maybe it'll be a little late, the streets are a little jammed...." There was no reply back, only a snoring sound could be heard. Ahra smiled faintly seeing Kyuhyun being able to fall asleep quickly

"With you being his sister back, that's enough to make Kyujong feel happy...."

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One week after Kyujong's online statement, Kyujong is no longer in Jeungdo. He had explained everything to Juhyun, he did not want Juhyun to feel misunderstood by his actions. It is not Kyujong's intention to leave Juhyun after involving him in a love affair that is no longer privacy, he just does not want to come to Jeungdo often, Juhyun's identity will be revealed, and the events of two years ago happened again. Although maybe his fans understand better now, but he feels a little traumatized.

He did not want to lie to his feelings, on the other hand, he wanted to protect Juhyun. That's why he made this decision. Today is the premiere filming for her latest drama, Kyujong chose to take a walk around the location after reading the script. He needs adjustments to the location of the shoot to explore his role, this does not seem necessary, but this has become his habit. While playing the role of an actor, Kyujong will adjust to everything that will be related.

His steps came to a halt as he saw a pair of level and slender legs before him. Slowly Kyujong raised his head and looked at the woman, then smiled

"You're here, Marin.sshi?" Marin smiled

"I'll wait for you until the filming is over..." After saying that Marin moved on, Kyujong looked at her for a moment before moving on.

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About three hours later, Kyujong completed filming for today. He kindly thanked me and a few words of encouragement for the crew involved. Before he finally left the set. His steps came to a halt as he recalled his meeting with Marin earlier. Reflek, Kyujong circulated his views looking for Marin's whereabouts.

And her vision stopped in one corner, Marin sitting there bowing her head. Kyujong sighed and approached him

"Marin.sshi"

Marin lifted her head and looked at Kyujong. Instantly he stood up to almost fall because his legs were a little shaky

"Eoh... Be careful!" Kyujong held him in

"Thank you..." Marin

"Is there anything you want to say?" Marin looked at him again and nodded.

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Housed in one of the restaurants not far from the set, they sat together. Kyujong said he would practice lunch. They sat facing each other and looked at each other, Marin still did not convey her intentions

"I must have turned you very far..." Marin just smiled knots

"Thinking about it, I can't stop thinking about it. These two years, I've been living with guilt..." Marin was silent

"Marin's... You shouldn't have experienced something like this, I'm sorry...."

"There must be a hero behind one's success, and not all heroes live happily....." Said Marin casually, Kyujong lowered his head, that sentence was a satire for him

"Actually.... Two years ago, I didn't come to you out of money or threats... I came willingly" the statement made Kyujong raise his head and look at Marin fixedly

"Like... A soul call" Marin smiled widely

"You did it voluntarily...?" Marin nodded

"Although... Not entirely like that, I also received the money given by your company. That's a lot... I'm doing this for my mother's sake too" Marin looked down on her mother, while Kyujong still looked at her silently

"I'm sorry I used you for my mom's surgery"

"Mari...."

"I don't think long, it's too expensive. So I accepted the offer..." Sela Marin fast

"In addition, you're not just my idol.... Ilove you...."

"Mari?" Kyujong looked at her and exclaimed softly

"To this moment..." Marin's tears trickled though she tried to hold him back

"It seems you've found your love! But I won't give up! All my sacrifices for you, should yield good results right? I have sacrificed... Now it's time to fight for your love....!" Marin looked at Kyujong who was stunned after wiping away his tears

"My mother died, but she had surgery and it should have extended her life, but she could not bear the weight of the sadness of seeing her daughter into months, and having to face threats every day. Therefore, he decided to kill himself...." Kyujong was even more surprised to hear that fact, how strong was the impact of his actions two years ago? It really ruined someone's life

"Now you know how obsessed I am with you..." Marin smiled widely

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Juhyun felt that he was in a difficult position at the moment, all of them were exposed, even though his identity was not yet known. Kyujong's decision was no joke. He understood how Kyujong felt about him. Then now how can he be honest with Kyujong, that what he likes is Kyuhyun.

"Is this why you asked me not to answer immediately?"

His phone shook, Juhyun picked it up lazily and saw who was calling. But both eyes sparkled as Kyuhyun's name was on the screen

"Ajumma..."

"How are you doing Kyuhyun.ah?" Sela Juhyun was overjoyed

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Kyuhyun frowned and looked at his phone once again. Juhyun sounded very happy

"Ajumma... You miss me so much, don't you?"

"Really! Miss you... Don't be so quick to make a call, I still want to talk to you!" Once again Kyuhyun frowned, this time Juhyun was being very outspoken

"Aigoo... How could I have a long chat with someone else's lover! Ajumma. I called you just wanted to say this... You've done well! Don't hurt the feelings of Kyujong who loves you so much!" Kyuhyun did not know, Juhyun became gloomy at his words

"And... Maybe I won't be able to call you again, say hello to Hyukjae...."

"Why? Why can't it?"

"There's something I need to take care of! I'm so busy.... Alright... I hung up on him..."

Kyuhyun hurriedly broke off the connection and sighed. His head lowered, he was reworking his writing about Juhyun, to the point of making him rethink Juhyun. He feels longing, but he doesn't want to hurt Kyujong's feelings. Therefore, severing ties with Juhyun was probably the best solution

"Why don't you just be honest with Kyuhyun....?" Kyuhyun turned to Ahra who had been around since when he liked to accompany her to write. Ahra was sitting on her bed and peeling an apple

"I'm being honest...."

"Kyujong will understand. Hmm..?" Kyuhyun nodded

"She has understood me so much nuna, now is the time for me to understand her, after all I will only make Juhyun hurt if I am with me..." Kyuhyun turned back and started writing

"Love is a struggle..."

"I know I'm struggling now! I'm fighting for my love...." Kyuhyun stopped his agile fingers and replied calmly

"For... My hyung...." Mumbled