Rainy Heart's
Chapter 18's
'Today, March 29, 2017. Remember that today Juhyun is preparing lunch for you! He looks happy, he looks relieved! And remember! After this you will make a confession for your first love......'
~Rainy Heart~
The next two weeks........
The season slowly changed, the air became fresh and not as cold as before. The sky was brighter than usual. Looks clean blue without a stain. People are still the same as their respective activities. Not so much has changed except for the atmosphere becoming more pleasant.
The worn-out gate opened slowly. Appears the figure of the owner of the house along with his flower-flowered bicycle. Juhyuns. The woman named Juhyun was about to go to teach, two weeks passed, he already felt better. Although he still did not have the courage to meet the idol of the heart. He was still not ready to hold back tears when faced with her later.
Juhyun casually paddled his bike to the school where he taught. He also greeted some neighbors who started their activities outside. His lips continued to smile as he received a greeting back from them.
Although his heart felt heavy to resist longing. Aye! He misses his heart, Kyuhyun. A month had passed without hearing his voice, hearing his news, seeing his face. He shut himself down for a while. Although he actually felt worried, because he had missed a lot of time. Sometimes he asked how Kyuhyun was doing to Ahra. And it ends with a bill sentence, when it will come. Because Kyuhyun needed it the most. Thinking about it made Juhyun sigh.
Damn right! He wasted time just preparing himself. He didn't think about how Kyuhyun was
"Basic fool!" He cursed for himself
'Krieing... Krieg...'
Hearing the bell's voice, Juhyun slightly pulled over. He was too in the middle and blocked the way for the others
'Krieing...Krieg...' Juhyun pulled over again without intending to look at the ready who was behind him
'Krieing...Krieg...'
This time in annoyance Juhyun turned his head, his two eyes widened to see that typical smile. Someone behind him flashed a smile as soon as he looked back. For a moment Juhyun forgot the speed of his bike, he was so surprised. Eventually the bike hit a fence
"Be careful...!!"
'braak'
And made him fall to the ground. Someone behind him immediately came down to help Juhyun who was complaining of pain. His right arm is bleeding. A person who was that man left his bike just like that then approached anxiously
"You okay?" He asked anxiously while examining the wound on Juhyun's arm. Juhyun did not say anything, he was still staring at this man before him intensely
'Does he remember me or not?'
"Miss.... You okay?" Asked the man back, Juhyun sighed and smiled bitterly
'She doesn't remember me.' Her mind is sad.
"Then why did you come here?" Juhyun asked angrily then stood up on his own and left the man along with his bike.
"Ajumma!!!" The call was able to stop Juhyun's steps instantly. Juhyun turned his head and looked at the man who was Kyuhyun sharply. Kyuhyun smiled and approached him
"You must have been very upset when I forgot you at the playground that day... " Juhyun smiled bitterly. Is Kyuhyun working on it?
"I hope I'll never forget you again..."
"Kim Kyuhyun's...."
"Yes, I was just acting. I was wondering how upset you were when I left you on the playground..."
"Hey!!!!!" Kyuhyun glued and stopped his speech getting the rebuke.
Juhyun breathed heavily a few times while looking at Kyuhyun with a hard look to interpret. Slowly the tears flowed
"Basic evil...! Why are you playing around with something like this? Do you know how scared I was when you called me Miss? Why are you so mean to me...." Juhyun sobbed while beating Kyuhyun's chest.
Kyuhyun lowered his head and looked at Juhyun concernedly. He let the hand beat him, until after a while he held it gently. Juhyun lowered his head and was still sobbing
"You know I'm a patient, but you beat me like this!" Canda Kyuhyun tried to change this sad atmosphere
'Grep'
Juhyun quickly took off Kyuhyun's handrails and wrapped them around Kyuhyun's waist. Hiding her face in her chest and easing her cries. Kyuhyun smiled and returned the embrace
"I'm sorry..." Kyuhyun said slowly
"You made me late for work..." Whiney Juhyun invited Kyuhyun's laughter.
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Today feels so fast. The last hour Juhyun had finished. And with light steps he took class. Different 180° than usual, now a smile accompanies Juhyun steps towards the teacher's room. That grim face was gone. Kyuhyun's presence felt like a surprise gift. It wasn't him who came, but Kyuhyun! What is this sign?
"How are you...." His words were so friendly, making some of his co-workers stunned by astonishment.
Because, as long as Juhyun worked as a teacher there, he never showed such a radiant face. He more often exclaimed in annoyance because there were some teachers who lacked discipline. Juhyun is a teacher who values time, is never late to class, and is only occasionally friendly. He'll only be that friendly when he's out of school. Juhyun took his bag with a big smile
"Today I'll go home first. See you again on Monday..." Juhyun said goodbye to the others and then moved out
"Eoh? What's with Teacher Seo today?"
"Yes... He looks different, but he hasn't spoken to us in weeks.."
"Did he have an accident?"
"Rather than looking like a lost person, he looks more like a person in love...."
Juhyun still heard the chat from outside the room. But he had no problem with it, his lips still smiling widely. He's in love now, in real love. He did not feel sad like that time, instead he felt happy. He felt the flowers blooming around him, because of his innumerable sense of happiness.
His sorrow, seemed forgotten for a moment. He had even forgotten the wound on his hand from falling earlier. Juhyun sighed and hugged the map he was carrying. His lips kept smiling, even though he was trying to hold it
"See you tomorrow teacher Seo...."
"Ah... Yes Byul...." Juhyun waved his hand at the disciple with a radiant face. As beautiful as sakura in bloom. Then speeding up his pace, he was already impatient to see Kyuhyun immediately.
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Kyuhyun himself is trying on some clothes at Hyukjae's sister's house which he rented a few months ago. This morning, as he drove Juhyun to school, they made an appointment to go for a walk enjoying the rustic atmosphere that Kyuhyun had not yet fully felt.
Kyuhyun brought some clothes indeed, he will stay there for some time. With Juhyun, spend the remaining time. Kyuhyun lowered his hand and put down the top he was holding then sat down on his bed.
These two weeks he thought a little hard of Ahra's words to him. And in the end he decided to make himself happy instead of thinking about the people around him. Ahra is right! He always knew what he wanted without saying anything. And once he decided to go back to Jeungdo, both Ahra and Kyujong, they agreed. Kyuhyun was very relieved of that.
Not that he didn't care about them anymore, he just wanted to stay with Juhyun for at least two weeks. In addition to making the decision to return to Juhyun, he also made another big decision because of Ahra's remarks two weeks ago.
With fear that could not possibly disappear from his mind. Kyuhyun decided to undergo surgery, but he asked for at least a month to prepare and strengthen his determination. Although the doctor objected to Kyuhyun's time.
Kyuhyun sighed then smiled knot
'Let me enjoy this happiness for a moment, so that I can accept all the possibilities that are happening to me.... I really want to live and be happy to have a child with Juhyun! This is going to be the hardest path I have to choose... So give me some time to enjoy this togetherness a little more....'
The door opened, Kyuhyun immediately tidied his clothes back up. He knows who's coming. Stare a few times and try to smile as naturally as possible before exiting the room. Juhyun's first smile he saw
"I brought you food! We had lunch together..." Said Juhyun with excitement while showing the food he brought
"Eoh..." Kyuhyun nodded
"I'll get ready first.... Waita minute!" After saying that Juhyun went to the kitchen to prepare the food he brought while Kyuhyun went into his room again. Juhyun silently watched him
"Did I interrupt her break?" Juhyun.
Kyuhyun immediately picked up a brown notebook and wrote something there.
'Today, March 29, 2017. Remember that today Juhyun is preparing lunch for you! He looks happy, he looks relieved! And remember! After this you will make a confession for your first love......'
"Kyuhyun's...."
Kyuhyun was shocked to hear the call and turned to the door of his room. Juhyun looked at him feeling guilty
"Did I surprise you? Sorry..."
"No..." Kyuhyun smiled and left his book on the table
"Kaja..!" Juhyun smiled and quietly glanced at the book. What Kyuhyun was writing was so shocked as he called out to him. Juhyun sighed softly then caught up with Kyuhyun who was already sitting facing the food he cooked
"Thank you for the food!" After saying that, Kyuhyun started eating. Juhyun looked at him for a moment, a smile still not missing from his lips. Then started eating after putting the meat in Kyuhyun's bowl
"You have to eat a lot..." Kyuhyun raised his head and looked at Juhyun, the girl took in a breath of rice pans and smiled
"Gomavo..." Say again
"Why thank you?"
"You're not angry even though I know your condition...." Kyuhyun
"I'm sorry..." Said Kyuhyun, making Juhyun frown in surprise
"Why apologize?" Ask slowly
"Because I didn't tell you in the first place..." Juhyun smiled and clasped Kyuhyun's hand for a moment
"You must have a reason, no problem..." His words are really calming. Kyuhyun nodded and started eating again.
"After this, I'll take you somewhere!" Said Juhyun back after several times feeding the food in his mouth
"Where...?"
"We're going fishing" Juhyun smiled wider and continued to eat silently.
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Juhyun was still busy washing dirty dishes and bowls while Kyuhyun was bathing. They'll go fishing after this. And Juhyun decided to wait for Kyuhyun there. The job was done, Juhyun went to the middle room to wait, but his mind was again disturbed by his curiosity about the book that Kyuhyun.
Irritatedly he sighed, he was annoyed at himself who could not help but be curious. He was angry at himself who was always curious. But no matter how strong Juhyun tried to hold back his curiosity, Juhyun still could not. His head moved to the right and left, making sure that Kyuhyun would not immediately come out of the bathroom.
All righty! He wanted to know, tho Kyuhyun was taking a bath. Slowly, Juhyun entered Kyuhyun's room, the book was still in its original place. Several times Juhyun took a deep breath. Worried whether or not to open it, his heart and mind continued to contradict
'How is this....? If I get caught, Kyuhyun must be angry! Ah... But I'm really curious..'
Juhyun was still worried. While he also still heard the sound of water rustling in the bathroom. Indicates that Kyuhyun bathing activity has not been completed. Juhyun
"Ah... whatever!" He muttered then took Kyuhyun's notebook. Open it from the beginning and read it slowly.
Not something that matters to anyone else. The book contains only a few things that Kyuhyun has done or has not done. That was what Juhyun understood when reading the first page of the book.
'Today, February 19, 2017. I've given Oh Jungmin hyung my farewell, I've given you the USB too'
'Next week, February 26, 2017. I'm gonna do a signature show and show up as Fourteen. Don't forget! This is a very important moment, remember! I was once a great writer!'
Juhyun continued to open the sheets per sheet of the book and read it with a broken heart. This may look like a regular note. But for Kyuhyun this was every moment he was afraid to forget. Juhyun did not wonder why Kyuhyun did this. He must have heard how bad he was from the doctor. Because of that Kyuhyun wrote what he did not want to forget, he was afraid that this disease in his brain messed up his memory.
Juhyun was still swept away to read every sheet per sheet of the notebook, he did not care anymore if it would be discovered.
'I know now you live to fight for my love. I know and never close my eyes and ears to all your struggles. I know this must be heavy for you. This also feels hard for me. I also want to fight as you struggle. I also do not want to hurt you with my sword of love. But what can I do under these circumstances? I will only stain your struggles, I will only hurt your feelings, I will only make you feel pain if I accept your feelings. If you fight to love me, I will fight to keep my love sword from hurting you..... Ii'm sorry.... Ii'm sorry.... Ii'm sorry.... Jeju.sshi.....'
'Every day I wish that horrible time would never happen. I don't want to die and leave everything behind. I want to stay with you and build happiness until we age. I ask God that He give me one more chance to enjoy happy days with you. Give me a little more time, a little more! Then I'll do it, and prepare for the worst.... Give me a chance to get rid of this fear... Just once.... Just once....'
Juhyun stopped to open the next sheet. Enough already! Reading up there was enough to make her feel claustrophobic. Why so pathetic? Juhyun quickly wiped away his tears, put the book down as it was then turned around. Then out.
The sound of water still came from the bathroom. It's been almost 20 minutes, but Kyuhyun isn't done. Fearing that something might happen, Juhyun moved to the front of the bathroom and knocked on the door
"Kyuhyun's... Are you done?" Juhyun asked after knocking on the door, there was no telling from within. Juhyun knocked once again
"Kyuhyun's.... You hear me?" Juhyun added to the volume of his voice. But there is still no answer.
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Kyuhyun leaned against the bathroom wall with a stupefied breath. He was done and changed his clothes. But when he came out, his head hurt. Not wanting to get out of the way, Kyuhyun turned the water back on and leaned against the wall hoping that the pain would subside.
But no, the warm water that flushed his body back, can not make the pain subside. Kyuhyun fell to his feet and endured the pain in silence. He could not scream or scream. Although he actually wanted to do it. But he would ruin Juhyun's happiness if he did....
His breathing grew stifling as the pain did not immediately give up on hurting him. Kyuhyun clenched his hands together and cried silently, his face was pale, maybe he would faint after this....
"Kyuhyun.it... Are you okay...?"
Kyuhyun stared at the door in front of him with nanar. He would make Juhyun even more worried if he just kept quiet
'Give me the strength to answer...'
"Kyuhyun....!!!!" Juhyun's voice was rising, there was no need for a smart brain to interpret the call. Juhyun was worried now. Until that beat turns into a blow. Kyuhyun smiled bitterly, tears flowing from both of his eyes. Then try to answer in the normal voice possible
"I'm.all right! Don't worry...! I'll get out after this...." Kyuhyun said with the remnants of his strength
"really?"
"Eoh....! Buy me some shampoo... I'm out...!"
"All right! I'll be right back...!"
Kyuhyun closed his eyes as soon as he heard Juhyun's footsteps stroking the house. And cry out loud. Sobbing and crying sounds so sad.
'Why now? Should it be today? I'm begging.... I've had so many tears for him, I beg you.... Let us be happy today.I beg you...'
Kyuhyun had no idea what happened to him after that. He just felt his body float so lightly. And everything looks dark.....
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Juhyun reopened the door of Kyuhyun's house after being out for five minutes. He did not bring the shampoo Kyuhyun asked for, instead he came with Hyukjae with tears. He knew Kyuhyun was hiding from him. He was holding his pain alone. That voice is not the voice of someone who is doing well.
"Quick Hyukjae.ah...!!" Juhyun cried as he walked quickly towards the bathroom. Hyukjae followed him in surprise, not knowing what was really going on
"Open the door!"
"What's? But Kyuhyun is bathing inside, why are we ha...."
"Hurry now!!!!!" Juhyun raised his voice, Hyukjae was surprised instead of a bitch. And immediately opened the door with the equipment he had brought
"Quick.. hurry...." Juhyun moved uneasily and bit the tip of his fingernails, feeling anxious
'clack'
As soon as he heard the voice, Juhyun immediately opened the door and felt his heart stop beating for a moment to see Kyuhyun lying under the water. His face is so pale
"Ah... Nah! Kyuhyun.ah...get up!!!!" Juhyun hugged her, while Hyukjae immediately woke up from his shock and turned off the water
"Kyuhyun.... wake up please!!!!"
"Ohuk..."
Juhyun took off the hug and looked at Kyuhyun who had opened his eyes slowly. Juhyun looked at him with tears. While Kyuhyun looked at her with a glare, he smiled at Juhyun
"Are you crazy? If it hurts, say it hurts! Why hide in the bathroom like this? What if I'm late to find you????" Juhyun said with annoyance
"Sorry..." No sound came out, only the movement of the lips was visible, Juhyun hugged him again
"Sorry....." With such a close distance Juhyun could hear Kyuhyun whisper. And made her heart feel so bitter.