Rainy Heart's
Chapter 20's

Thank you for being an oasis in the desert of my longing....

~Rainy Heart~

The night sky seemed to shine full of stars. The moon also glows with a full circle. It's a pity if this beautiful view is missed. Especially when you are in an area that can make you clearly able to enjoy the beautiful night sky.

Laughter is heard in the front yard of a house. The weather was suddenly very cold at night, did not dampen their intention to prepare a special dinner with their big fish caught in the lake earlier.

Eating grilled fish in this cold weather is sure to be fun. Especially with loved ones. Thick jackets each wrap around their bodies to make them feel warm. Both of their hands are also wrapped in a pair of super warm gloves.

"Add soy sauce....!" Excited Kyuhyun who was in charge of burning those poor fish, Juhyun who was busy arranging the table turned his head

"I've put all the spices near you! My hands are only two and I have to finish this before the fish matures! You can take it yourself, right? Uhuh?"

"All right, big lady..." Kyuhyun grumbled while looking for soy sauce that he said Juhyun had prepared at a table near Kyuhyun. But Kyuhyun did not see the soy sauce or he did not know because there is no writing that shows there is soy sauce in the bottles available?

"Ajumma... There's no soy sauce here!"

"No way, I've prepared everything, aish... Don't you know what soy sauce looks like? How can you not know what's in the kitchen at all..." Suhuhyun grumbled while keeping busy with the preparation of his desk. But it did not make Kyuhyun upset, it made him laugh amusedly.

His imagination was wild. The shadow of their lives after marriage began to come in turns. The chatty Juhyun had to keep nagging because her husband was always messing with the kitchen while trying to be a good husband by making breakfast in the morning. Then, Juhyun finally cleared up the mess, and gave a kiss to her husband as punishment.

Kyuhyun chuckled even more at the thought of that. Finally Juhyun came and hit his hand with a brace. Kyuhyun woke up from his daydream

"Currently.... How could anyone not understand this kind of work at all?" Suh Juhyun complained as he looked at Kyuhyun with anxiety

"Yes?" Juhyun sighed as Kyuhyun did not realize his mistake. Then it flipped the nearly "burned" fish

"We want to eat grilled fish instead of charred fish...!"

"Ah... Sorry..." Kyuhyun smiled clumsily showing a row of his teeth

"And this is the soy sauce, spoiled child..." Juhyun picked up the ketchup bottle on the table and said in a voice as gentle as the mother's voice teaching her child in the kitchen

"Ah... That's... Ah... I didn't see him just now..." Kyuhyun smiled wider and more reasoned. Juhyun clucked in concern as he shook his head. What a spoiled city boy. At least that was what Juhyun had in mind

"It's okay... You've done well.." Juhyun smiled and stroked Kyuhyun's hair slowly, Kyuhyun smiled shyly. Making Juhyun powerless to hold that smile.

••••

Kyujong opens the car door for Marin when they arrive in front of Marin's house. With care, Kyujong placed his palm over Marin's head, keeping Marin's head safe. Getting such treatment, Marin smiled widely and thanked

"Rest!" Kyujong

"Eoh... Thanks for today..." Kyujong nodded with a smile

"Okay, comein!"

"E.em.you go in first!" Said Marin while shaking

"I'll see you go in first and then go"

"Kyujongg.usshi..."

"Come in!!" Kyujong exclaimed gently, Marin sighed and gave up. Then stepped into his house after waving his hand.

Marin has decided to no longer work at the cafe. While waiting for her wedding day, she will focus on doing her job as a model. And once they are officially married, Marin will also give up the job. She is determined to be Kyujong's wife, and will not waste much time on outside activities.

She will fulfill all her duties as a wife. Hearing Kyujong's confession earlier made him feel very happy. How not? Kyujong honestly admits that for now he can't love her yet, but he promises to learn to love her from time to time. Which woman would not melt hearing such a statement? Even if no woman melted, eating only Marin would feel happy with such a statement.

'I'm in my room, you still ahead? Go home! You have to rest, didn't you say tomorrow is very busy?'

Marin sent the message to Kyujong, then smiled in front of his second-floor bedroom window. He could still see Kyujong standing in front of his house

"I know you're a good man, you won't betray your promise.... Good night..." Marin murmured with a smile

••••

The grilled fish that had an evocative aroma had been presented on that table. Some candles lit on the table, to add a romantic impression full of warmth. They still let the fish for a while and looked at each other, their hands clinging to each other despite still being wrapped in gloves. Simultaneously they smiled and sighed, raising steam out of their mouths. It shows how cold it was that night. But it seemed like a happy feeling enveloped them so that it felt warm.

"Kyuhyun... until when will we be like this?" Juhyun asked still looking at Kyuhyun who was still smiling and clasping his hands

"I've missed the best time like this..." Kyuhyun's words made Juhyun look down embarrassed

"I'm sorry... Because it's too late to come to you..."

"No need to think about what happened..." Juhyun smiled calming Kyuhyun who looked guilty. He had no problem with what had happened, with Kyuhyun coming at him like this, it was already enough to make him happy

"Ajumma... Ah... Yuhyun's......" Juhyun increasingly blushed in embarrassment as Kyuhyun called out his name gently. In hindsight this was the first time Kyuhyun had called his name correctly

"Thank you for being an oasis in the desert of my longing...." Juhyun raised his head and smiled happily, it seems like there is no one who is as happy as he is right now

"If it's like this, I believe that you're really a great writer!" Juhyun took off the hand and flapped his hands together with a satisfied expression

"Aaaahh.... I'm so happy...." Juhyun said so expressively, inviting Kyuhyun's laughter

"But..." Juhyun said suddenly, making Kyuhyun look at him in surprise

"How about we finish this sweet talk first, I'm hungry...." This time Juhyun exclaimed spoiledly, making Kyuhyun have to laugh again, completely laughing. And stroked Juhyun's head a few times while nodding.

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The night is getting late. Juhyun was still lying looking at the ceiling of his room. He could not sleep, not because he was sad or worried, but because he was happy. He felt like a prize winner. Kyuhyun's sudden arrival made him unable to stop smiling. His love is reciprocated, even more. Ah.... If a few months ago he felt falling in love was painful, this time Juhyun actually felt the opposite.

But a second later, Juhyun sighed. There was a hint of sadness among the happiness that emanated. He realized his time with Kyuhyun would not be long. Juhyun got up to a sitting position and sighed a few times. Should he be by Kyuhyun's side every time? Should he take time off for some time?

.

Not much different from Juhyun, Kyuhyun tonight also can not sleep. He just didn't expect to make such a cool confession like that. Kyuhyun raised both his hands and made them into pillows. A big smile looked at the ceiling of his room, as if there was a Juhyun there.

'I will use this little bit of time to continue to make her happy, and remove her worries if I will disappear soon. I want to get him used to being happy no matter what, and to take me away later with a smile.....'

Kyuhyun sighed and got up to a sitting position. A smile was still on his face. He should write this happy moment, and read it when he forgets later. Kyuhyun got off his bed to pick up the notebook that was in his bag

"Akhs...."

Yet...........

The pain comes at an inopportune time. Kyuhyun held on to the table, while one hand massaged his head that felt like it was going to break, hoping that the massage would relieve his pain.

"Akhs..."

'braak..'

Kyuhyun sat on the floor with a breath of pain. His massage did not manage to get rid of the pain. Kyuhyun closed his eyes firmly, while beating his head which really felt like it was going to break. Then try to open the drawer with the rest of his energy. With an unstable movement, he took the medicine there, taking out the contents of a small tube filled with pills with trembling hands, until the pills fell scattered on the floor. Kyuhyun still stung to endure the pain and took the medicine on that floor then swallowed it without water

'I'm begging.... Give me a little more time...'

Kyuhyun lay on the wooden floor and closed his eyes. Crying with silence. Regretting that he became very weak when happiness came to him

'Mother 's...Fathering... Wait a minute, I'm not happy....'

••••

Sunday has come, it's time for Juhyun to relax. After yesterday applying for a leave of absence for some time which he himself did not know when it would end up to the principal. He would relinquish the job he loved so much for the sake of Kyuhyun, for the sake of being around the man, looking after him, taking care of him, and keeping a close eye on him.

In addition, Juhyun was also very confident, if Kyuhyun wanted to continue to be beside him at this time. It would be very hearty if he did not comply with Kyuhyun's wishes.

This morning, at about 06:00 am, Juhyun seemed busy in Kyuhyun's kitchen, making some food. Today, he and Kyuhyun will have a small picnic after cycling together. Meanwhile, Kyuhyun himself was preparing a bicycle for the two of them. Check if it is safe or not. Because security is the most important thing.

A moment later, Juhyun came out with a picnic basket filled with food and drinks

"You done yet?" Kyuhyun asked after his examination, Juhyun nodded with a smile

"We must hurry..." He said, handing the picnic basket to Kyuhyun, he had cooked and now it was Kyuhyun's turn to bring it.

Leisurely cycling in tandem makes them look like a newly married couple. Small talk came out of their mouths. Causing a joyful laugh. Plus the morning sunlight that makes the body warm in the midst of this erratic weather. Some time ago, the atmosphere felt warm as if the season would change, but at this time, the atmosphere suddenly became cold after the season did not want to change. I don't know, maybe because the earth is aging.

Arrived in a meadow under a shady tree. They roll out a patterned mat of boxes and arrange food and drinks on it. They look so compact working together. Finished, they sat together enjoying the atmosphere of a village morning so clean. Juhyun took out his favorite book and instead was engrossed in reading, ignoring Kyuhyun who was beside him. Kyuhyun frowned seeing that

"Yes...! Aren't we dating now?" Kyuhyun Protest

"Yes..." Juhyun replied without taking his eyes off the book

"Can this be called a date?" Kyuhyun is still protesting, what dates go through with each other's busyness?

Juhyun took down the book he was holding and smiled at Kyuhyun. Then he put his foot down and patted his thigh. Coded Kyuhyun to lie there. Kyuhyun smiled and did so with pleasure. Kyuhyun squinted his two eyes as the sunlight blocked his view. Juhyun swiftly pointed at the book he held on Kyuhyun's forehead.

"Are we running away from home?" Ask Kyuhyun gently

"Why?"

"You brought this much food for two..."

"Ooh... So sweet! Your motherly instincts came out quickly....!" Canda Kyuhyun gave his thumbs up. And trying to get up to the position of sitting back. But Juhyun held him back

"Why? Your hands will ache if it continues..."

"It's okay.... Lie down comfortably and listen to my story..!"

"But I can't see your face!" Whiney Kyuhyun like a child

"Suppose you're listening to the radio..." Kyuhyun sighed

"Every night... I had a weird dream..." Juhyun

"Dreams?"

"Two twins, a boy and a woman, they ran up to me 'Mother...' 'Mother.' They called me that. Looking at them, I flapped both my hands preparing to hug her. In the dream I smiled so happily, I hugged them so tightly. As if to protect them more.." Kyuhyun listened to him silently

"Because they'll just feel my embrace... 'ibi, where's dad ?' one of them asked me, I took off the hug and smiled before replying... Is making a beautiful home for us in heaven'. 'is he coming back?' the other boy asked me, and at that moment I answered him with a sad smile 'he will always come in your dreams.' after that I choked...."

Juhyun's tears flowed slowly. The dream felt so real, and he woke up with both wet eyes. Then Juhyun wiped away the tears slowly. At the very least, Kyuhyun could not see his tears in such a position. And without him knowing, Kyuhyun also cried silently. How could Juhyun dream so pitifully? For a moment the atmosphere became silent.

Kyuhyun is feeling his way. He doesn't want to talk about something like this any deeper. It would only ruin his happiness. And apparently, Juhyun also did not want to continue the dream story, it seems he felt guilty for having told it.

"Kyujong hyung's... We're going to have a wedding in three days..." Kyuhyun said later, switching the conversation

"really? Three more days? But why don't I get an invitation?"

Kyuhyun took out an invitation from his jacket pocket and got up to a sitting position. Then give it to Juhyun

"Actually, I came to deliver this as well..." Juhyun picked up the invitation with a bit of roughness, his face pouting

"Why did you just tell him now? This is so sudden! I haven't even prepared a gift for her yet...! Aish..."  Juhyun told Kyuhyun

"There's still three days..."

"That alone will not be enough to prepare a gift..." This time Juhyun whined and looked annoyed, Kyuhyun sighed softly and looked at him in astonishment

"What gift are you going to give me?" And in the end he asked in annoyance as well

"Of course a special gift... And I still have to find him! Three days is not enough!" Juhyun still exclaimed in annoyance, Kyuhyun sighed again, if he got upset, they would definitely fight just because of this matter

"Yes. yeah... I'm sorry?" Juhyun folded his hands on his chest and pouted. He's really upset right now. It's been almost a week for Kyuhyun in Jeungdo but even he's just given his invitation now

"Ajumma... I'm sorry, eoh?" Juhyun looked over with an increasingly irritated face

"You call me ajumma again?" Ask is getting upset

"Yes, why is it?"

"Why? Of course this is a problem! Do I look so old in your eyes?" Kyuhyun took a deep breath and hissed. Why is it so wrong? What happened to Juhyun today? Is she having PMS??

"Didn't that call have been common, and you didn't mind it all this time either, did you?" Kyuhyun whined like a child back

"Who said that? I really object!" This time Kyuhyun sighed loudly, his patience was suddenly tested at this moment

"Then why didn't you say it in the first place?" Kyuhyun asked patiently. But his face looked frustrated, Juhyun did not answer and averted his eyes

"Why?" Asked Kyuhyun looking helpless, Juhyun still turned his back on him

"Allah ... Alright... I'm sorry, huh? Um? Yea?"

Women are hard to understand. They are the most confusing creatures in the world. Once upon a time they seemed strong and tough because of the big thing! But they become weak because of small things. Even when Juhyun found out about his illness, he seemed to be fine. But why is it just because of the 'invitation' and the call he made like this?

Slowly, Kyuhyun held onto both of Juhyun's shoulders and softly apologized. Maybe at this time Juhyun is wanting to be treated sweetly, he will succumb

"I'm sorry, eoh? I won't repeat it again... I-i promise. Eoh. I'm sorry..." Kyuhyun still persuaded him

"Juhyun.sshi School... I'm sorry, I beg you..."

Juhyun turned around and looked at Kyuhyun. Then smile knot

"Buap me!"

"What?" Juhyun nodded back

"Ah... Alright... All right..!" Kyuhyun immediately picked up one of the available foods to feed Juhyun.

•••• 3 Days Later 3 Days & 3 Days Later ••••

A festive party was held in one of the largest hotels in the city center. The guests have gathered to enjoy this wedding. Not only among celebrities who came, important people colleagues of the father also came to congratulate the eldest son. Kyujong and Marin looked charming welcoming the guests. No one doesn't recognize Marin as a model, and no one doesn't praise this very compatible couple. Marin has become the queen for today, everyone is haunting her beauty. As well as Kyujong, he has also become a king today, and everyone is also bemoaning his good looks.

The sacred promise they made. Now they have become a couple who will love and understand each other. No matter the various kinds of people's assumptions because they seem to suddenly do the wedding. But not a few also feel happy with the news of this sudden marriage

'It turns out Jang Marin is the woman who made Kyujong ask our permission to love him...'

'They really are a compatible couple... One is handsome and the other is beautiful... Uhmmmm. I can't imagine how their son will be...'

'Mr. Marin is a very lucky woman. I envy her, but congratulations to you both..'

'Is he Jang Marin Kyujong's former lover two years ago?'

'He's a different person! Don't talk about what happened! They are happy...'

More or less like that Kyujong fans' response to this wedding. Kyujong and Marin smiled at the same time as they saw Kyuhyun enter the showroom while holding Juhyun's hand

"Sorry I'm late...." Kyuhyun said, Kyujong still gave him a smile

"Young... Congratulations on your marriage!" Kyuhyun hugged his brother happily

"Yes... Thanks Kyuhyun... " Kyujong took off his embrace and patted Kyuhyun on the shoulder several times

"You.. Seo Juhyun's?" Marin asked gracefully, Juhyun greeted kindly

"It's nice to meet you... You look prettier when you see it in person.." Marin smiled widely

"I'm not as pretty as you, it's worth Kyujong falling in love with you..." Marin smiled after saying that, whether she was intentionally or speechless. He was not aware of the changing atmosphere between them

"Eoh? Did I say it wrong?" Marin asked confused after realizing the atmosphere had become awkward

"No..." Kyujong replied while holding Marin's hand

"Julia.sshi... It's okay, I'm not in love with you anymore!" Juhyun laughed awkwardly at the remark, as did Kyuhyun who then held Juhyun's hand

"We'll enjoy the party...!" Kyuhyun said as he moved in with Juhyun.

After their death, Marin looked at Kyujong in surprise. It seemed like he was completely unaware of having said that. During this time, he was very curious about the woman Kyujong loved

"Did I say the wrong thing?"

"No, you didn't say anything wrong at all, you just talked a little about how I felt about Juhyun...." Marin rounded her eyes in surprise

"really? I'm sorry...." Marin looked down guiltily, Kyujong turned to face him and grasped Marin's hands gently

"It's okay... Don't worry about it....!"

.

Kyuhyun and Juhyun sat together in one corner of the room. They were deliberately looking for a place that was a little quiet, they did not want to be the center of attention. Juhyun's smile did not disappear at all and his gaze was not at all diverted from the pair of perfectly matched husband and wife. Feeling completely relieved, Kyujong was able to forget about her, and chose to marry a woman who was 100 times better than him. 

So swept away with happiness, he did not realize Kyuhyun continued to look at him wistfully, always feeling sad when he looked at Juhyun who looked happy. Not that he was not happy, he was only afraid to eliminate the happiness of the woman he loved so much

"I'll do the operation." said Kyuhyun did not take his eyes off me.

"Yes" Juhyun answered just like that and still did not take his eyes off, it seemed like he did not digest Kyuhyun's words well, Kyuhyun smiled faintly and understood, it seemed like Juhyun was still amazed by Kyujong and Marin's new partner

"Eoh? What did you say?" Said Juhyun suddenly and looked at him, Kyuhyun revealed a wide smile

"I said, I'm scared! What if the operation fails..."

"Wait on! The operation? You're gonna do it? Did ya? You're not delirious, are you?" Sela Juhyun while looking at him with sparkling eyes. There must be hope that he is with Kyuhyun, he feels happy that Kyuhyun wants to do it. Kyuhyun simply nodded in response to that back-to-back question

"Ah... Thank goodness!!!" Juhyun pulled Kyuhyun in his arms and exclaimed happily, Juhyun is so happy that he is unaware of Kyuhyun's current fears.  Juhyun quickly took off the hug before Kyuhyun returned it

"Don't be afraid! I will accompany you with my prayers...! Fight on!" Kyuhyun sighed as Juhyun looked at him confidently

"Hows it? I can't...."

"Kyuhyun! Never be afraid! Worry not! If you're paralyzed after surgery I'll take care of you all my life! If you lose your memory I will be by your side to tell you your beautiful memories! And....." Juhyun stopped his words when a feeling of tightness suddenly infiltrated his heart

"And... If. if... If you die on the operating table, I promise, it won't drag on in grief! I'll take you with pride..." Juhyun's tears dripped even though he was still foaming to smile. Kyuhyun sighed and lowered his head, along with which his tears flowed profusely. This speech of Juhyun really touched his heart. Juhyun came over and hugged her back. Strengthening Kyuhyun as well as himself

'I promise you..! So don't worry!'