Rainy Heart's
Chapter 14's

"I really want to live longer...."

~Rainy Heart~

The next morning, the sky looked so bright. The clean blue color calms anyone who sees it. This morning, he was going to start helping Shin's mother in the orphanage. Juhyun surrounded the parlour with a medium-sized paper bag. As soon as Kyuhyun came, he would hand him over immediately. Hearing Ahra's words last night made her feel very happy.

His heart became bright, as bright as the sky this morning. At least, although Kyuhyun did not reveal it, he knew how Kyuhyun felt about him. I can't wait to meet Kyuhyun.

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Like a mother, Kyujong seemed busy in the kitchen on this sunny morning. He was preparing a special breakfast for his sister. And also Jungsoo who came to pick her up. Jungsoo silently looked at Kyujong at his pantry table

"Yes...! It will be very lucky for the woman who is your wife...!" Kyujong glanced at Jungsoo and smiled knotfully, his hands still busy cooking

"If I were a woman, I would have married you"

"You eat breakfast here more often than at home! Nuna must be disappointed.." Jungsoo

"She's the woman who understands the most, she knows you're my priority..." Jungsoo said lightly and then laughed

"The new bride is like that..!"

They turned their heads towards Kyuhyun simultaneously as he entered the kitchen to fetch some drinking water. He was already very neat, a gray-colored coat was already attached to his body. That's a sign he's in a hurry

"Good morning Kyu..." Sapa Kyujong was accompanied by a smile

"Hmm. good morning hyung! I'll go first!" Kyuhyun replied after sipping a glass of water, then moved on

"Hey!!! I made breakfast for you!" Kyuhyun stopped his steps and turned his head

"I'm sorry... But I'm in a hurry!" Kyuhyun nodded then ran back, Kyujong could only sigh, his sister was really in a hurry

"He still ignores you"

"No... Our relationship is much better! But where is he going so early in the morning?" Kyujong picked up his phone and immediately contacted Kyuhyun

"Eoh... Have you left yet? Waita...!" He hurriedly prepared the supplies for Kyuhyun. Jungsoo smiled, finally seeing Kyujong enjoying his role as an older brother. After these last few years he sees Kyujong always moody when he is at home.

As soon as it was ready, Kyujong ran out still wearing an apron. Doesn't she look like a good wife? His house was indeed majestic, because it was to get to the front door, he had to run so as not to make Kyuhyun wait for long. He arrived and immediately approached Kyuhyun who had not yet entered his car

"Why?" Kyuhyun asked, Kyujong grabbed Kyuhyun's hand and placed the box there with a smile

"Don't start the day on an empty stomach!" Kyuhyun looked down at the box and smiled knotfully, he felt moved, all this time he always ignored the brother, even though every day he had prepared breakfast for him

"Thank you...!" He said then entering the car, a driver was ready in the steering chair, this was his first day using the services of a driver

"Yes... Be careful on the road..!" Kyujong waved his hand, and it made Kyuhyun chuckle.

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"Yukiyun.sshi! Help me bring this....!" Juhyun turned his head and immediately approached Ahra in front of a room, he brought some thick blankets, immediately Juhyun put down the paper bag he was carrying then helped Ahra. While Hyukjae seemed busy checking the broken windows, it was fortunate that he was an expert at something like this

"It looks like I'm bad to wake up." Juhyun said on the way to bring the blanket to wash, Ahra smiled

"It's okay... You must be tired after a long trip anyway.." Juhyun smiled, he felt bad

Everyone seemed busy as the kids started playing. Shin's mother also looked busy. It was not only him and Hyukjae who volunteered at the orphanage, there were many caring people in this big city. Juhyun smiled and felt touched

"Eoh... Kyujong said you were a teacher in Jeungdo" Ahra asked as she placed the blanket in a large bucket, Yuhyun nodded with a smile

"Kyuhyun also said that you are different from other teachers..." Ahra lights the faucet to start washing

"No... I'm the same as everyone else.." Juhyun smiled shyly

"Please get me that detergent..!"

"Eoh. this.." quickly Juhyun picked it up and gave it away

"Do you know if Kyuhyun wrote about you...?" Juhyun nodded back, he knew Kyuhyun was writing about himself for the thesis

"Come in!" Ahra then cried

"What?" Juhyun frowned cluelessly, Ahra chuckled

"You're gonna wash these blankets by hand?" Juhyun chuckled, noticing his insensitivity. Then entered the big bucket and trampled on the blanket that was inside with Ahra. Ahra also laughed, knowing all about Juhyun, according to Kyuhyun's point of view. He told her everything, and in fact he also deeply regretted Kyuhyun's attitude that preferred to stay away from Juhyun

"Like this? Ah.... Sorry, it's the first time I've done something like this" Juhyun said

"No problem... The teacher was busier than expected... All right, hold my hand!" Ahra stretched out both hands, in order for Juhyun not to fall, he was the type of person who always positioned himself as a big brother. And clumsily Juhyun accepted the helping hand

"So you're Kyuhyun's brother"

"We don't have a blood relationship, but we grew up together, and I loved her like my own sister..." Juhyun rounded his mouth and nodded, Ahra smiled seeing that reaction

"You can ask me anything about him..."

"Yes?" Ahra just smiled meaningfully

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Kyuhyun stepped foot into a prominent publishing house in Seoul. He had an appointment with the CEO. He became the center of attention, almost everyone in the building noticed him. Perhaps because of his performance today on par with Kyujong the famous actor. A black glasses perched sweetly on his nose, Kyuhyun smiled so confidently.

And he stopped his steps as soon as he got to the door of the CEO's room, knocking on him for a while before he walked in

"Ah.... You come, sit down!" Welcoming the CEO in a friendly manner, Kyuhyun smiled and sat down on the available sofa. The CEO - say Oh sajangnim - was also sitting in front of him

"I don't think your book sale was very good on the day of release..."

"They'll be more curious once I make a writing like I'm not, hyung..." Oh sajangnim nodded steadily and laughed happily

"The comments are also very positive..! You are a talented writer...!" Kyuhyun chuckled as he took off his glasses

"Don't praise me as high as the sky! There are still many shortcomings!"

"This is how you are! You are always humble" Oh sajangnim smiled widely, but then he looked gloomy, and that change in expression also made Kyuhyun remove his smile as well

"Why should this be the last?" Oh sajangnim asked in a soft voice, Kyuhyun lowered his head

"I'm sorry..."

"Your fans will definitely be disappointed" Kyuhyun did not reply and could only sigh

"Why? Something happened to you?" Kyuhyun raised his head and looked at Oh sajangnim quite fixedly. A meaningful gaze, and Oh sajangnim who had been accompanying for six years did not understand what that gaze meant

"Thank you hyung .." softly Kyuhyun while smiling knot

"Kyuhyun? You're scaring me.." This time Oh sajangnim who was looking at him fixedly, Kyuhyun chuckled

"Don't worry! Today I will reveal all my heart, I don't want to disappear without saying goodbye to you..."

"Aish! Don't say it like that! You're scaring me even more"

"Hyung, I'm so grateful to you! You've given me a chance to rise from the brink, without meeting you six years ago, I wouldn't be able to do this. Thank you for supporting me! Ah... Ige..." Kyuhyun took the flash in his pocket and put it on the table

"You're really going to disappear?"

"Byeing gift! You have to open it as soon as I finish doing the autograph show" Oh sajangnim sighed, this is really surprising, he hasn't even prepared himself to accept all these facts

"alright... I have to go somewhere!" Kyuhyun stood up followed by Oh sajangnim, six years of being a supporter of Kyuhyun made him feel hard to part with Kyuhyun

"I didn't know what I was wrong with you until you decided not to write anymore! But... You have to take care of yourself wherever you are!" Oh sajangnim hugged her and hit Kyuhyun on the shoulder several times after taking off the hug. Kyuhyun just looked down.

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They exchanged stories while Juhyun was just a listener for today. The gift for Kyuhyun was already beside him back. But until this moment he saw no sign of his existence. Same with Kyujong. But it's no wonder Kyujong isn't around, but he's a very busy actor, but Kyuhyun? Ahra said Kyuhyun had never been absent to come to the home.

Juhyun ate his noodles half-heartedly, his two eyes seemed busy moving to every corner. He was waiting, and sighed when what he was waiting for did not come. Then he looked back and saw the prize

'Didn't he come because there was me? Why should he stay away from me?'

"Eat this!" Juhyun was a little surprised when Hyukjae thrust the radish pickle at him, he was ready to feed Juhyun

"Let's..." Hyukjae said, reluctantly Juhyun accepted the bribe, Hyukjae laughed

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Kyuhyun looked up at the graves of his parents. It was just 15 minutes ago. Nothing he's done in these 15 minutes. He was just pensive with a reddened face holding back tears.

Misses......

He really misses them. Kyuhyun took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. Along with that, his tears flowed

"Mothers... Dad..." Mumbled

This is the first time he has made a pilgrimage to the tomb of his parents since six years ago. Since then, he ended up fainting to see his parents buried, Kyuhyun never able to make a pilgrimage. But it seems that at this time someone is disturbing his mind so he can come without fainting

"What should I do?" He muttered again, trying not to cry. It seemed like the ordeal he was experiencing was able to forge him into a stronger one

"I really want to live longer...." As much as she could, she tried not to shed her tears

'Run Kyuhyun's operation! It doesn't guarantee you'll be as healthy as before, but at least you'll be pain-free....'

"He's a doctor, but he's not sure what he's going to do. He didn't even guarantee I'd be healthy after the surgery.... I'm really scared.. mom....dad...!"

But the defense collapsed. This was a good time for her to cry, no one would let her collapse. He doesn't need to hide his pain with laughter, please cry Kyuhyun! Slowly Kyuhyun sat on the ground and cried loudly. The fear he never showed anyone he threw in front of his father and mother.

Undeniably, the pain had gotten worse and it scared him to death. He was afraid to leave the people who loved him, he was afraid to make them feel sad because of him. When night fell, he did not even dare to close his eyes, even if he fell asleep, his sleep would never calm down. He was afraid the next day could no longer look and chat with them all.

"Afruggg....." Kyuhyun yelled to let go of all his sadness

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Juhyun sat down on the chair he sat in with Kyuhyun yesterday, when all the volunteers had gone home and rested. He was alone there, still waiting for Kyuhyun with a feeling of worry. Several times he saw the clock on his phone screen, the time was getting narrower. He will return to Jeungdo in the afternoon. At least he wanted to see Kyuhyun before leaving. Juhyun sighed back, he looked very agitated. Then glanced at the gift he had prepared for Kyuhyun. He wanted to give the gift directly.

He did not dare to contact her, he was afraid that her call would be ignored again. Therefore he could only wait even though this felt excruciating for him. But the next second, Juhyun turned his head quickly when he heard footsteps

"Kyuhyun's...."

He was stunned when he saw Kyujong instead of Kyuhyun. Kyujong smiled wryly then sat down beside him. Juhyun sighed and lowered his head

"Sorry..."

"You're waiting for him?" Asked Kyujong gently, Juhyun looked at him for a moment then nodded

"I'm waiting for him too..." Kyujong smiled again

"You waiting for him?" Juhyun asked back

"Hm... He didn't answer my phone" Juhyun lowered his head back. While Kyujong looked at him fixedly. As if he did not want to take that look away from Juhyun, he did not say anything more, he chose to look at Juhyun as much as he pleased. Juhyun also seemed reluctant to say anything.

Through that look he recalled the first time he met Juhyun. Remembering every moment they've been through together. A bitter smile fell on her thin lips. It seems Kyujong is feeling sorry for himself. Despite being silent, his heart was struggling at this moment. To decide something about his happiness. Juhyun sighed and looked at him again.

But Kyujong's gaze did not change at all. For a moment they looked at each other, Juhyun was astonished by Kyujong's current attitude. Lamaa stared at each other.......

"It's time..." Said Kyujong then, Juhyun frowned uncomprehendingly

"Give me an answer...." Kyujong added, he was sure Juhyun would understand, and sure enough Juhyun reacted immediately. He bowed his head.

Surprised, of course he was surprised. It's so sudden, he's not ready. Juhyun sighed, but if he did not speak now, when else would he be honest with his feelings. Juhyun closed his eyes trying to calm down, then looked at Kyujong again, yet he still looked doubtful. But Kyujong gives her a smile, hinting that he doesn't mind anything Juhyun will tell her

"Kyujongg.usshi....." Juhyun stopped, he did not know where to start

"Say..." Kyujong cried still gently

"I'm sorry...." Juhyun lowered his head and along with that his tears trickled down.

Kyujong is a good man, he also has a sincere love for her. It seems he was unable to dump her

"I never told you to be by my side... I just offered you, and I'm sorry for all my attitude these few months... I've taken a step to protect you... I just put my heart's will first without thinking about your feelings" Juhyun lifted his head and looked at Kyujong again. And the smile he got

"alright... That one word answered him..." Said Kyujong again

"I'm sorry...." Juhyun returned

"No.no... Don't apologize! It is I who burden you, and... Thank you for holding out these few months, for Kyuhyun.... I'll drop him on you! She loves you so much..." Kyujong stood up slowly, Juhyun could only look at him sadly. Then get a smile back from Kyujong and after nodding off. Leaving him alone again.

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The hour hand has shown at three in the afternoon. Juhyun moved from there. He had waited a long time, and perhaps today Kyuhyun would not come. For the prize he will be released to leave it to Ahra. Maybe he should be patient until next week to meet Kyuhuun. Then turn around to pack. He had to pack up before he missed the ship. But his steps came to a halt when he saw the person he was waiting for sitting alone in the other chair.

He didn't know since when Kyuhyun was there, Juhyun smiled seeing that. Then approach with a slow step. Looking at him from behind so closely, he looked very serious, or perhaps he was daydreaming. Until he did not realize his arrival. Juhyun's smile grew wider, he felt his wait since this morning was answered, he felt very relieved.

Juhyun sat down beside him slowly. And turned to look at Kyuhyun's face. At such a serious moment, Kyuhyun looked charming in his eyes, his lips still smiling

"I'm waiting for you." said Juhyun slowly, Kyuhyun turned his head for a moment and smiled knots at him. Then he looked back ahead. To his astonishment Juhyun followed Kyuhyun's direction

"What are you looking at?" Juhyun asked in surprise

"Did I tell you that Kyujong is uri hyung?"

"Yet... But I already know, are you sick? You look tired...!" Kyuhyun looked at her and smiled

"I'm fine..." In sum

"Ajumma... In that yard, Kyujong and I used to play together. We were running around for candy from mom..." Juhyun remained silent and followed Kyuhyun's gaze back, as if something was troubling Kyuhyun's mind, until the usually very chatty Kyuhyun was so serious now

"Never have we thought it would be our destiny.... She was a perfect sister, she had been a mother and father ever since they died. In the morning, she would wake up just to prepare breakfast for me, even though there was already an aunt who would help us. These six years I ignored him, I accused him of being the cause of our parents' deaths. But... He kept patiently facing me... Isn't his heart so good?" Juhyun kept silent again he did not know what to comment

'Did they fight? Is it because of me?'

Kyuhyun sighed then lowered his head, he could not imagine if Kyujong knew that he might leave him soon

"I love him so much, I respect him so much... Please take care of him if I can't be by his side..." Kyuhyun said with a trembling voice. It was very obvious that this man was holding back crying. He also looks forward

'What is this?'

Juhyun turned his head and looked at Kyuhyun from the side. He was increasingly clueless about the situation. What exactly happened between the two of them, why did Kyuhyun say such a thing? Wanna go to him? Juhyun frowned even more as one tear drop escaped from Kyuhyun's eye patch. Kyuhyun breathed back. This was a sight that Juhyun could not see. What is the burden on the mind of this man she loves so much? Juhyun turned his gaze and looked straight back. He also tries to control his feelings. Did Kyuhyun stay away from her because of Kyujong? So is he really in between the love story of these sisters?

"Kyuhyun... If you ask me to stay by Kyujong's side, I don't think I can... I'm..."

Juhyun's words came to a halt as his shoulders felt heavy. Juhyun looked over quickly. Kyuhyun's head had leaned perfectly on his shoulder. Juhyun glanced at him anxiously, the two men's eyes closed

"Kyuhyun....?" he tried to call, but Kyuhyun still seemed calm with his position. Juhyun felt anxious, he fell asleep or fainted?

"K.kyuhyun.....?" Juhyun was stunned and slowly his free hand stroked that head. I don't know why the tears suddenly flowed.