The charm of Ayra Khairunnisa
128 Nuaima and His Feelings (POV Nuaima & Munir)
Nuaima still gave ASI to Ayra who woke up on the sidelines of the debate Nuaima and Munir. Ayra is under one year old still drinking ASI. Although Nuaima worked, she did not give formula to her baby. Because there's no problem with the ASI. ASI which is quite swift and smooth makes the mother of one child has hopes that Ayra can get exclusive ASI.
Sometimes it works. He will send ASI through a regular base motorcycle taxi driver to take the ASI he pumps from his place of work for Ayra which he entrusted to a nanny at his home.
Nuaima during me/nyu/sui Ayra tries to calm her heart with dhikr and shalawat. She was worried that her husband's annoyance made Ayra feel the heat of the heart because it continues to be suspected by the husband.
He still mumbled in his heart.
"May you be a wife who can accept every shortcoming of your partner. May you be a wife who can be a place for your husband to give peace to the husband. I really need to be extra patient. Your father loved Mom very much. Until I get tired sometimes."
Nuaima spoke to Ayra by stroking the crowns of Ayra. He who would withdraw himself from Ayra who was seen starting to sleep. When he managed to get out of bed. He put up a mosquito net for his only child.
Nuaima used to pray or talk to Ayra. Like a few moments ago, though he spoke in his heart. But he realized that Every soul has a Spirit.
Nueva returned to the room. She felt she had to solve the problem that triggered her husband during this month often followed where she went.
"Want to have coffee?"
"Hem."
Munir simply replied with deheman without seeing his wife. He was still checking the duties of some of his students.
After a cup of coffee Nuaima treats Munir. He's going to check his work for tomorrow. But one sentence from her husband made her close the book again.
"What mas?"
"Tomorrow morning immediately submit a letter of resignation."
"Mas.mas has promised I can work after marriage to you."
"That was. But not for now! Quickly submit a resignation letter. I don't like you being close to any man including that Bagas sir!"
"Mas. It's not easy to get into position now. I'm from before I finished college. From just the warehouse administration staff."
"So you prefer your job to me your husband? Or because your salary is bigger than mine? or because of Mr Bagas?"
"Astaghfirullah's.... Your jealousy hurt me mas."
Nuaima's voice began to sob. He was still sitting behind a table right next to Munir who was still sitting on the sofa while staring at his computer screen.
".... "
Munir is not flinching.
"I know you've been following me for a month. You even abandoned your responsibilities as a lecturer just because of your jealousy."
"So your tone Ai!"
"Well, if I stop working, I can be calm and happy. I'll be resigning tomorrow!."
Nueva closed the book. He went to the room. He feels very sad. Where the promise of promise lives. Too much love from her husband makes her feel constrained. She is almost a month tired of her husband's accusations, too possessive. Even riding a motorcycle is not allowed.
He held his sobs. It resists the tightness of the chest. She gave up, not wanting her household to be constantly in the midst of conflict because of her husband's jealousy, a decision she made. It will stop working. He hopes Munir goes into the room and tries to persuade her as he used to do in the early days of marriage. But what was expected never showed up.
Until Nuaima fell asleep with her eyes. Nuaima woke up in the middle of the night, the sound of Ayra's crying signifies that the little princess of Nuaima wants ASI.
When he will turn. A hug from Munir made her take a deep breath.
"Ah you've changed now mas. If you used to be quick to calm me down when I sulked. Now you seem to only care about your feelings."
Nuaima still let her husband's hand circle and she still sui sui Ayra. As she kissed Ayra, she gently stroked her daughter's head.
"May you have a husband who doesn't just love you because of your looks. But because of your morals. May he not change his attitude towards you after the long years of your marriage. I pray that you don't feel what you're feeling right now."
Only the best prayers and the best compliments that Nuaima used to say and whisper to her daughter when she was with me nyu/sui or when she was with Ayra.
When the day started almost morning. Nuaima felt a soft caress on her body. The longer it gets more intense. So Nuaima just said quietly.
"I'm tired, mas...,"
While her husband continued to caress her body. Nuaima did not respond to her husband's hand. The taste has disappeared. Almost a month this sense was no longer felt by Nuaima. Nuaima's body seemed to no longer enjoy the tenderness of her husband's caress, because they often quarreled. Only because of her husband's excessive jealousy and accusations for the sake of the accusations that her husband was directed at her. It makes her numb to enjoy her nights with her husband and also the touch of her husband was no longer able to raise the has rat that can arise.
The peak last night, when he was asked to stop working. But Nuaima understood the science of a wife Sholehah, that the obligation of the wife to give the right of her husband. And realize that a wife belongs entirely to her husband. Nuaima let her husband have it that night. When his body was moved to the next room.
When her husband woke up to clean up. Nueva is still in bed. Tears drenched his cheeks under the covers.
"Yes Rabb, what's wrong with me? Where is my love for my husband? I want what used to be back Rabb. Where is my love. What I should do. Why do I want to live alone for a moment.Hiks.Hiks."
When finished bathing Munir who saw his wife was still in bed and approached and gently stroked his arm.
"I can feel a release that you don't enjoy Ai. Did you ever sleep with your boss until you didn't enjoy our nights for a month?!"
Nuaima from earlier tried to calm the heart. Trying to give in so as not to continue the conflict in his household. She finally felt very angry at the accusation without proof of her husband. Husband who accuses him of doing something commendable. What a pain in his heart. Even if they don't enjoy their nights. She still fulfilled her duty as a wife. Not a bit of his heart turned to any man.
Precisely empty of his soul and his numbness of a kenik/matan night with the husband. It all started with all the actions of her husband who continued to consider Nuaima guilty. Without her husband believing if his wife always keeps his eyes, his body from things that are closer to adultery. Even Nuaima was never alone with her boss. He will go all three with a vice marketing manager who is also a woman.
He's starting to get caught up. That night a Nuaima first raised her voice in front of her husband.
"As far as you! I'm getting sick of you! I'm sick of your childish actions! I never had any fun. If my heart is now numb to your every caress then the cause is no one but your jealousy that continues to hurt me!"
Nuaima exited the room wearing a thick blanket, leaving Munir alone. And Nuaima again hopes her husband chases her to the master room to calm her heart. But that did not happen, her husband preferred to wait for the time of the morning in the room of the musholla. Nuaima felt even more sad because her husband had changed. Just thinking about her feelings was not with the feelings of the woman she had been married to for almost two years.