The charm of Ayra Khairunnisa
130 POV Nuaima and Munir' Advice Umi Laila
"Almost this month I feel my life has no passion. Even all I run just as a routine, including obligations as a wife is no longer a pleasure. Even the desire to live alone often seeped into my heart, Brother."
"Astaghfirullah's.... Istighfar Ai's."
Nuaima's shoulders shook, the sound of her crying broke. She who for one month always succumbed from her husband when almost every night there was something that made her husband jealous. From the talk on the grub of his marketing team, or from the message that Mr. Bagas sent to Nuaima, Munir often opened through Nuaima's phone. Allegations for the sake of accusations, doubts that continue to be leveled at him. The more the day undermines his love for Munir.
The day changed when Nuaima began to think about the ugliness of her husband. In his eyes Munir began to look so many shortcomings. Where Nuaima felt that the spearhead in the household was a wife as well as a mother. Even the desire to part with Munir lately. Even though Munir never did anything rude to him. But Munir's words were gentle but many times able to scratch the heart of Nuaima.
A belief that became one of the foundations of husband and wife in building a household is now starting to be absent in the midwife of the household. Nuaima who used to love Munir, who used to be very cheerful now began to look often moody and hate on her husband.
Until the hatred was even more explosive when Munir accused him of playing with Mr. Bagas. But it was Munir's jealousy that made a heart that once loved him dearly, which they enjoyed every night. Now gone is not.
"Think of Ayra Ai. Marriage is not a toy. Which we can decide when there is a problem or no more feeling of being obeyed. It is common at home. Then let's take care of the sense of heart."
The gentle caress on Nuaima's back gave her calm. He did not want to tell his brother that Munir's jealousy was guilty but he seemed to want to know that he was the guilty one. He still has an understanding that Divorce is something that God does not like even though it is permissible.
"Entah brother. Mas Munir is so good. He loves me so much. Maybe I don't understand how to love me. Or her love so great that this little me felt her love hurt me."
"Then why do you feel unhappy when your husband loves you so much?"
Umi Laila broke her embrace. He looked at the face of Nuaima who had been soaked by tears.
"Is it because he asked you to stop working?"
Nuaima shook her head.
"Entah brother. The lack of passion to run the household began to shackle my heart. But this little bit of faith of mine still reminds me to live my household as well as my duties as a wife and mother. I don't know where I used to feel. Even to Mother, I did not dare to tell my heart, sister. I beg your guidance, brother."
Nuaima had his head in the lap of Umi Laila. He pulled both of his legs up onto the rattan chair. He tilted his body like someone curled up. Umi Laila stroked Nuaima's head. He tried to understand the meaning of each of his words.
"What Because of Perfection in you that Munir hurt you Ai. Such a feeling arises is impossible to appear if not hurt, ignored. Did you cover up what happened but want to share the burden on your heart?"
"Maybe you and Munir need some time together. Or if people say now Quality Time."
"Maybe you are too busy with your activities and too busy with Ayra that you do not have time together. That love must be cared for Ai, so that there are no pests, so that there is no grass so as not to die when the harvest is near."
"I envy my sister."
"What are you glaring at me? You are more beautiful than your sister. You're successful, smart. Your household counts a household that is quite happy when you still have one child who is able to have a home. I can have a car. You're the perfect couple. You must be grateful for what you have in order to live a life of spirit."
"What does gratitude mean? I am not grateful for the beautiful face that God gave me. The intelligence that God gave me began to feel meaningless. Even when people praise me with all my advantages. At the same time all my excesses hurt me, brother."
"Don...."
Nuaima's voice was heard again. Now the skirt worn by Umi Laila that became wet because it accommodated Nuaima's tears. He has no power to endure pain. When many of his female friends are unemployed beauty, precisely because of her beauty he feels hurt.
Career success, when many people want to be in the position of Nuaima. But her position makes the source of small conflicts with her husband often occur until finally culminating with Nuaima succumbing. He chose to quit the company. She was not too sick when asked to stop working, but her husband's jealousy blindly made her feel hurt.
"Ai, gratitude is basically how we carry out what God has given us. When we are given children, how we educate our children as God intended. Not what we want. So Household. We live the Household not by what we want. But involve God in our household journey.
Make our home what God wants. Well most of us live this life with what we want instead of what God wants. It's actually the source of the problem we didn't realize."
Ayra perceives the words of Umi Laila who is always able to give answers to her even though she does not tell what happened.
"Lantas how do I start being grateful, brother? at a time when the heart is troubled and exhausted by hoping for something that suits our desires?"
"intent. Intentions Ai. Satan will easily enter our hearts when we go through something because there is no intention. Or the intention is wrong, or not right. Finally we will easily deviate or sin in our routine. Isn't one example that Rohim once gave that when we just wake up it can be the beginning so that we can be grateful because we intend well."
Nuaima confirmed his position. He straightened his body until now he looked at Umi Laila's face from under Umi Laila's chin. Nuaima scrunched his forehead.
"Where is my brother? Aima Forgot Brother."
"Both of Rohim's parents taught Rohim and me when we were newlyweds. And it seems like this was something that Mas Rohim told you and Dik Munir. Where the prayer after the wake-up prayer there is still a prayer 'Oh Allah, I intend one day until later at night before my sleep. I intend to do good to all Muslim women and to all beings'.
If it is intended well, then magnetically it will follow the attraction because we intend well. The return of other creatures will do good to us. And we will be grateful because the good intentions will lead us to good things, including your current mood Ai."