The charm of Ayra Khairunnisa
142 Proofs of Love as a People

At night, Ayra cried in her room. He was alone, tired of crying, but his tears didn't seem to stop. His heart ache, disappointed in Umi and her Abi who Tek spoke of if there was a heartbreaking story about his parents.

Even his promise to Bram not to drag on in grief was very difficult he kept. Feet that have felt tingling due to sitting too long on the alphabet with an unchanged position. Until his fingers hurt when touched by the hand of Ayra who tried to massage the tips of her toes.

His head started to hurt. Ayra's nose is also difficult to breathe. Until he breathes through his mouth. When he wants to open the door again his legs are unable to move. He felt pain in his leg.

Until he was only able to ask Umi Laila to come in because he had knocked three times on the door of his room.

"Square."

"Bec.... You haven't drunk any milk. You ate very little too. Remember there's a fetus in your belly."

Umi Laila entered with a glass containing milk of pregnant women who variant Mocca. Ayra was unable to drink the Vanilla or chocolate variants. Only the Mocca variant is able to make the sense of smell does not feel strange and the stomach also receives a variant of pregnant women's milk.

Umi Laila gave Ayra a glass of milk. Ayra accepted it and drank the milk.

"Thank you Umi."

"How long have you been crying? Your eyes are already very narrow. Your voice is so raucous. Ayras... Don't hold a grudge, let alone get angry."

Ayra turned towards a woman whom she had been calling Umi.

"Umi, is currently the devil is playing in my heart when the usual hormones pregnant women feel hit. Why is there a dislike for you Umi. Why does this feeling arise. Disappointed and resentful of why Ayra wasn't told one such big thing."

"May..."

Umi Laila stroked Ayra's head.

"Permy.... "

Ayra inched towards Umi Laila who was sitting on the chair. The pain in his leg due to the tingling had gradually disappeared. Ayra placed her head on Umi Laila's lap. He tilted his head to face the slightly open door.

"Tell Umi. What story between Ayra's father and Mother and the man named Bagas is Umi."

Umi Laila tells everything she knows about Ayra's parents. Including he who had never heard the name Bagas spoken from the lips of Nuaima as long as he asked for his opinion. He even heard the name Bagas from Munir when he was going to pick up Ayra's mother.

Ayra listened carefully to every word of Umi Laila. He is back told how his childhood until the reason why Ayra's mother entrusted herself to Umi Laila not to her grandparents.

Because Nuaima really wanted Ayra to be able to study and mondok in the place of Umi Laila which was still a Salafist boarding school. Because Nuaima often tells her the difficulty when after adulthood just want to learn religion where the longer the more confusing because many new understandings. Nuaima often admired the method used by Kyai Rohim and Umi Laila in guiding children and some students who studied with them.

The application of the sciences learned in the books in everyday life. Nuaima had told Umi Laila several times that she had a child. Then he will place his son in the place of his sister-in-law.

Nuaima never went down. But his friendship with Umi Laila made him often meet in several organizations and science assemblies with Umi Laila. Kyai Rohim's wife who often accompanies her husband when giving tausyiah or material in the study.

Then Umi Laila also explained that the reason Kyai Rohim did not respond to the words of Pak Uban when he asked Kyai Rohim to report to the police about the death of Munir and Nuaima.

Ayra who was curious about one thing got up from her position and sat down. He stared for a moment at Kyai Rohim's wife's face and lowered his gaze.

"Permy.... Forgive Ayra."

"Sorry for what Nduk?"

"I'm sorry that there's a dislike for Umi and Abi why not try to find out the truth about the passing of father and mother."

"So you had another opinion back then Ra. There is curiosity but he realizes the more important task of taking care of you. If you want to report Mr. Bagas. Your Umi and Abi don't have enough evidence. Not to mention legal issues like before. There were more injuries when Abi reported to the authorities."

Suddenly from the half-open door appeared Kyai Rohim. While stepping the middle-aged man spoke to Ayra.

"Abri was just thinking. Your father and mother can't come back even if Abi reports to the authorities. Evidence Abi doesn't have. The witness could not believe Abi because at that time, Mr. Uban did not want to surrender. Because Abi suggested it."

Umi Laila and Ayra stood up. Kyai Rohim chose to sit at the end of Ayra's mattress which was only carpeted. There was no bed in the room during the Bramantyo wife's girl. Then Umi Laila and Ayra sat down near Kyai Rohim. Kyai Rohim looked at Ayra.

"Abi hurts more than what you feel now Nduk. Abi is angrier than your current anger. Abi even hit Pak Uban first..... "

Kyai Rohim's voice sounded a bit raucous.

"When Abi's only sister died, everything was planned. Wants to fight but what self-power is not capable. Abi finally gave to God all this pain and anger. Abi is sure all of this is Nduk's wisdom."

"His marriage, maybe Mr. Uban can repent at his present age. You can be what your mother expected Ra to be. Your mother always wished that she could have a son Sholehah. And now Umi dares to say if you realize your Mother's ideals."

Ayra is back with tears. He realized that anger sometimes comes unable to compromise. Even the good that for decades has been done by Umi Laila and Kyai Rohim as if Tek is impregnated just because Kyai Rohim did not respond to the words of Pak Uban and he was not told the true incident.

"I'm sorry Ayra Bi, Umi.... "

"You remember Nduk, the Messenger of Allah when the battle of Uhud was raging. The Companions asked His Majesty to pray for the enemies to be harmed. But the Prophet did not do it Nduk. Even in that war Uncle Rasulullah Hamzah bin Abdul Muttalib was killed by a slave who was brought in indeed to kill the Uncle Prophet.

But when the slave was controlled by the Prophet. Did the Prophet reply? No. gabe. Prophet Muhammad shalallahu alaihi wasallam did not discuss it. The Prophet forgave, whereas His Majesty shalallahu alaihi wasallam loved and respected his uncle. Shouldn't what we have to model is his Akhlak?"

Umi Laila embraces Ayra. One hand wiped away the tears on Ayra's cheek. And follow Kyai Rohim's explanation.

"The place where the proof of our love for Rasullullah. If we can't handle his Akhlak. Our love is only a thread of words and praise, if we do not live what he exemplifies. And the practice is not as easy as theory. Because we're not used to it."

Kyai Rohim returned to give the parable to his daughter.

"Would you be fair to your fellow human beings not your Dimata status. But fellow creatures of God. Bram who also sinned, he touched a woman who is not his mahram even though it was in the past though it did not reach a further level. With Pak Uban who also sin in massalu? You have to be fair. The reason you forgive Bram is because the husband repented and he got better with his mistake. It's not like Mr. Uban. Is Abi wrong?"

"Hiks.... Hix.... Forgive Ayra Abi.... Astaghfirullah. Ayra felt that Ayra had never sinned until it was easier to blame others. It is easy to demean others. Even the pride to forgive makes Ayra's heart forget again if God wills for every event."

Ayra sat down in front of Kyai Rohim. He was crying on Kyai Rohim's knee. Not only Ayra, Umi Laila and Kyai Rohim also cried.

Umi Laila pulled Ayra's shoulder and hugged her daughter. Umi Laila held both of Ayra's cheeks. Warm, very cheek Ayra. Umi Laila also held Ayra's forehead.

"Don't cry too much Ra. Remember your content."

"I'm sorry Ayra umi.... Abi... "

"Abi and Umi also apologize if as long as Umi and Abi raise you there are things that may still not be able to make yourself a good person.... "

"Permy... "

Ayra wiped the tears of Umi Laila with her fingertips. Umi Laila did the same. Kyai Rohim knows his daughter who cannot vent his anger or dislike with anything or people. But his silence indicates that his daughter is angry or does not like one thing.

Seen when he came home until dinner time Ayra just silent. He just looked down and replied if asked by Umi Laila and Kyai Rohim. Until the husband and wife took the initiative to meet his son after no longer heard the sound of crying from inside Ayra's room.

Until now Ayra managed to be made aware that every parent has their own thoughts when making decisions. It will not be the same from our point of view as a child. And not all problems can be solved if discussed when emotions still hit. Now Ayra felt better, her heart returned not too blame Abi and Uminya and the proclamation of his mistake Pak Uban gradually Ayra heart accepted it.