
...To hurt yourself is easy, ...
...You love and fight alone ...
...To the wrong people. ...
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Calista Pov's
Sometimes loving is like reading a book, we forget to enjoy each sheet just because we are too busy guessing the end of the story. Enjoying? Yes, even though it's painful.
I took a deep breath to ease the pain that was running through my heart. For a moment I remembered Aldira's words
"When he is the destiny that God wrote you, you will never be allowed to fight alone"
Oh my. I peed at my temple that was not dizzy, sipping my hot green tea that was not warm anymore. I can't be quiet like this, looks like I didn't avoid Agas at all? Oh my God why my love story is so complicated like calculus or something that takes effort to solve.
Then I closed the book and put it back on the shelf. I lyricize the watch for a moment, I have spent almost 3 hours in this place, contemplating all and trying to dampen emotions that are difficult to prevent.
I think I need a psychiatrist right now
I saw the twilight start to sink slowly, I felt the day was very slow and reluctant to pass. I want to feel like I'm pulling the sun out of its hiding place, expelling the thick that swallowed me and the silence that filled my atmosphere.
Araakk!!!
I accidentally bumped into someone because of my daydream. Agas should be responsible for everything. I fell down on my forehead kissing the table right in front of my place that I had been using for a few hours, moaning in pain while rubbing my forehead.
The Bad Day Ever..
"Sorry sorry Lis, what are you doing?" the baritone was a familiar voice in my ears and my reflex was to raise my head right in front of his face.
He's so cute. Thought.
The masculine scent pierced my olfactory senses, I felt my body trembling so deeply stared at by it like an arrow that was deliberately launched by a capid right at the first degub of my heart.
I think I've betrayed. Ah no-no I think fate has betrayed me that's how it should be. If only I hadn't been careless maybe I wouldn't have been a stupid girl who didn't blink being stared at so deeply by a guy other than Agas.
"Ah.. I.. Yes gapapa mas I should be the one apologizing" replied I who turned my gaze to him and tried to hide the hue on my cheek.
Are you kidding Lis? Come on your his mine. Gnats. Him not.
"Oh yes first yes already want maghrib, again sorry huh? " with an awkward smile and trying to hide the hue on my cheek by lowering my face I say goodbye to him.
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Mario Xavier Erlangga Pov
I glanced at my watch as I walked into the cafe where my High School reunion will be held. Accidentally there was someone who hit me lucky I did not fall but the girl in front of me who had fallen and a forehead that hit the end of the table. I immediately squatted down to see how he was.
For some reason I was so worried about him, he was like someone with a mind that was somehow floating around. But his figure is very familiar..
And yes, my guess is right. Her..
"Sorry sorry Lis, what are you doing?" I asked with a worried tone. Wait, why am I worried? Ah I don't care.
Unexpectedly he raised his head right in front of my face that was very worried about him. Oh, my God, the look teased him. There were a lot of guys at our school who approached her.
She must be mine..
Wait, did I just decide something? For someone who already has a boyfriend? You must be crazy Mario, that's impossible.
"Ah.. I.. Yes gapapa mas I should be the one apologizing" he replied, who then shifted his eyes.
I saw the hue on her cheek and I don't know when I liked it. Then I helped her to stand up and when I wanted to see her forehead she turned it away. Again.
"Oh yes first yes already want maghrib, again sorry huh? " said what I saw seemed hurriedly with a forced smile as she lowered her head trying to hide the hue on her face.
Afterwards I smiled because of his behavior then I walked to the seat that had been provided and joined my High School friends. I need refreshing to spend some time on vacation before I go back to sailing.
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Calista Pov's
In car..
Aaaaaaaaaa crazy crazy crazy
My mind cheered happily. The leafan was still felt even though it was no longer near him, oh My what is wrong with me? I complained, fretted, pounded and then sweated. Salting. That was how I felt right now but I hesitated and ignored this glimmer of false feelings.
Once again a long sigh due to the traffic jam that held me back to go home faster. Then I restarted my phone and there were a lot of missed calls and messages from Agas.
I'm sorry that gas you made me like this..
I complained to empty air. I also turned on the music player.
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After taking a shower, I threw myself in my bed. Weary. One word for today. My phone rings..
"Hallo. "I replied weakly.
"..."
"Hp I'm low Gas so I just activated half an hour ago. Sorry to worry you" I lied to her.
I don't want him scolding me or arguing right now I'm not really.
"..."
"Tomorrow I am one matkul who, hmmm yaudah yes tomorrow I skipped" answered me who wanted to immediately end my call.
Then Agas ended his call unilaterally. Finish your story Calista. Hopefully tomorrow Agas is not emotional, honestly I want our problems quickly resolved.
Then I checked the five-member college group. Who else if not Me, Dira, Ivana, Jihan and Fellicia. There is something we discussed that is certainly not good chatter but can make anyone who reads laugh out loud.
Ivana: "Eh send us pictures of us on the beach dong"
Jihan: "Oh yes, Dir, is it in your picture right?"
Aldira: "Yes but again edited Calista"
Fellicia: "Let's dong buruan sendin Lis, want me to upload it let's like a kid today wkwkwk"
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Calista: "Have you? No debt my photo wkwkwk"
Fellicia: "The same brother-in-law lo Han time forget hehehe ✌ "
Aldira: "Crop anyway"
Jihan : "Green-in-law. I don't want to huh"
Ivana: "Jihan Wkwkwk"
And so continued our obscure chat until I fell asleep with the phone I was still holding.
***
Mentari's glare pierced my eyes, I slowly opened my eyelids to adjust to her light. I felt the phone clasped tightly in my hand vibrate chanting Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand miles.
"..."
"Yes, I just woke up, you come in. I want to take a shower first" I closed the phone unilaterally and rushed to the kitchen to ask for help to ask Agas to come in and wait for me.
After feeling surti mbok understood I also climbed the stairs while running small into the bathroom to get ready.
After thirty minutes passed I was ready and met Agas downstairs.
Doomsday is near if Agas is angry today
My complaint is in my heart. Oh God listen to my servant's request. I saw Agas sitting while playing his phone then turned to look at me. Today Agas looks relaxed with plain black shirts and long trending pants.
He's Kinda Hot yeah!!!
I gulped down my saliva as I stepped towards her and she showed a murderous look as if my life could float at any moment.
When I was almost at his place Agas immediately stood up from the sofa and folded his hands in front of his chest.
"You owe me an explanation, dear Calista" he said with a smile.
Ck. This I feel the test of guts, it turns out that the girlfriend is more fun than a ghost
My Decak in my heart. As if knowing what I was thinking Agas chuckled softly. At least I can breathe a sigh of relief.
"Yaudah yes Mr. Cokrodinoto. Where are we going" Shoot me who makes Agas laugh amusedly makes me pursed my lips, annoyed.
"My house, I want to give you Lis punishment" he said with a tone that returned seriously and a cold aura emanated from his gaze.
"Why do you want to go to your house? Is your house no one else? " i replied while frowning my eyebrows in wonder.
Because Agas rarely invite me to play at home unless there is an important thing that requires me to go there.
"Didn't slow down" said Agas who began to come out of his annoying nature. With his casual steps left me who was still sculpting.
If not a girlfriend I have drowned in the amazon river to eat piranha.
My movement was stifling as I stomped my feet and followed him. Then I got on the bike and we left my yard.
Arriving at Agas' house..
"Why don't you say it yourself at home? " i said after closing the door of Agas' house and staring at all corners of the house that did look lonely.
"Why really? You scared? " he said as he lowered his eyebrows teasing me. I know I'm sensitive to those who are intangible but I'm honestly afraid that sometimes they just show up.
"Yes I'm scared. Same with you" I said as I passed towards the kitchen of Agas' house. And Agas laughed as he followed me.
"I'm laper Lis. Masakin me huh? That's the punishment" he said, interrupting my steps.
I also turned around while I was holding her..
"What are you eating, huh?" I said I was still upset with him.
"Hmmm what's good? Saute kale, sweet sour squid, chicken rica-rica or nas-"
"Fried rice. You have the responsibility to kidnap the child of the person who has been made laper and upset early in the morning" I said interrupting.
"As you wish my Lady" she said, kissing my forehead. You perverted guy.
"Eits. Where are you going Agas? " i said, holding a knife right in front of him. I saw him swallow his saliva in surprise. I also chuckled at him. Then he moved quickly by twisting my body and thrusting a knife into my neck. Stupid boys.
"It's your first punishment baby, don't mess around" she whispered right around my neck that made me jelly-like.
Then Agas flipped my body and began to taste my lips and ********** gently, softer than before, I fell asleep and unconsciously held my hand around her neck and she wrapped her hand around my waist so possessively
As we were almost drifting in our game a voice interrupted our activities..
"I've laper nih that continued later aja deh" said Agas while holding his stomach.
Then I chuckled and started making breakfast for the two of us..
In the afternoon I was still at Agas' house but now we want to go out, we need to spend time because we are tired if we have to fight continuously.
"Lis, you take a bath here no buts" he told me.
My mouth was parroted without a sound. And hurry to take a shower. The truth is bathing in a guy's bathroom and its location is indeed in his room. Oh My's..
"Gas I don't have a change of clothes here" said I who finished the bath stupidly came out using only a towel wrapped around my body.
I saw the sparkle of his passionate eyes and I'm sure today I didn't survive it..
"Hmmm Lis can't do that. Make my junior wake up" he growled with glittering eyes. Directly approaching me and pushing me against the padlock he also made an indistinct voice bent by the neck until my ears made me limp and drift in the game Agas.
And that's when Agas drove me completely crazy and got me hooked on him. God damn me, this fool.
"I'm sorry Gas I often say no news" I said, leaning on the chest of the field Agas without a piece of cloth.
"Actually I'm still sprained by you but I can't be angry Lis, it's useless if every time we fight with emotions, the problem will not be quickly resolved. When we are emotional or saturated we need escape" said Agas who cupped both hands on my cheeks.
"I.. I'm sorry I can't be what you expect Gas to be" I replied accompanied by teary eyes filled with regret. The first mistake I fell in love with Agas, the second mistake I was a stupid girl who gave up everything for a person who is not necessarily the end of my life later. And it's a fatal mistake why I was born only to be hurt like this.
After the drama at Agas house passed we decided to watch a movie and eat together outside. We were already in a shopping center or a mall but before that I accompanied Agas to buy a jacket.
After we finished watching the movie and having dinner together at the mall to save time because it happened to be already night.
I don't know Gas why until now I'm hard to get away from you, I who used to run after you who were in front of me to turn around to walk in the opposite direction. My logic says stop but my heart says walk beside it. Namely You..
Happy Reading's..