THE SOUND OF LOVE
You Should Be able to Forgive Him

...I once got up and recovered with my own strength. I don't want to feel a recurring fall on everything called 'Friendship'. You tau? It takes a long time to get up and recover. Forgive me, everyone can do it. But forgetting? I think only tough people can do that. Wounds can heal but actions? Smoothes and melts in...

...a memory....

...*** ...

Grey clouds hang from the ceiling of the capital. Hustle and bustle of the city has always been a separate entertainment for its connoisseurs. You can see the people who peddle the morning newspaper also do not forget the people who peddle their merchandise in the midst of traffic jam every morning. The simple sounds of horns and the mockery of impatient people waiting.

Satisfied with the entertainment that was plastered in front of my eyes was not spared also enjoy the sound of light music genre jazz in my car. Tau no? Sometimes we need to enjoy life a little, you could also say relax a little relax the tense muscles due to being too serious in living it.

Just look at this city in the morning a lot of busy people are being chased by time and what are they after? Nothing else, no is not it 'Material' and if they've already gained? Do they have time for themselves? Why do they always chase time to gather materials? Were they not afraid that they would enslave themselves to continue gathering material?

I don't know, I think everybody needs material. That is true, but will after getting the material life we will always be happy? Of peace? I don't think so. Happiness is not always about the material. Indeed, with all the material things in this world we can have, is that enough? People will never be satisfied, remember. Happiness cannot be measured by how much material you have. Especially feeling 'Peaceful'.

You know what not? Many people are busy collecting material until they forget to pay attention to small things, that is his own health so useless if we work hard to collect material and in the end only to throw it to the hospital because of our own actions. What's all that for?

After a long time racing with time on the highway I finally arrived at the campus. Today I'm not with Aldira because last night I was staying at Anggia's house so Aldira and I went to college, lucky Aldira understood.

I dragged my limp feet through the rather quiet passageway with the occasional yawn. And damn it, I ran into Axel. I don't want to argue with him.

"Calistas? I'm sorry." he said sincerely. I'm still disappointed in him, because what? Because he played with someone's feelings.

"Lis, I'm really sorry ma-" he hasn't had time to continue his apology right away I cut.

"Xel, you know there are no words 'Second chance' it exists? But for me free there is a second chance that you will do the same thing one day" I said as I walked past and stopped for a while before entering the class and turned to Axel.

"Don't apologize to me. I am disappointed but it is not my heart that is broken. So sorry you didn't apply" I added and disappeared into class.

Dealing with Axel broke my mood today. I noticed my four best friends had gathered in a corner. It seems like there is something serious they are talking about. Well, I put my bag on the chair not far from the lecturer's desk and pulled the bench near them and entered in their conversation.

"Because we're complete, we're just starting to be honest" Fellicia said. Lucky I came in time. Then Fellicia turned a pencil and the pencil stopped on Aldira and it was a sign that Aldira first had to be ready to accept as we poured out our junk. What we don't like about each of us.

"I don't like lo Dir, you're too good for people" said Fellicia who began shedding her strands.

"Take a. Don't be too good with people, you can be used by Dir" said Ivanna.

"I think, well it's okay to Dir but don't want to be fooled by people. Too good to make people arbitrarily equal lo" said my fiery.

"Well, it's Dir. You also have to learn to say 'Not' the same people who you think use lo" added Jihan. And so this one day was spent with each other open.

But unfortunately after being open and knowing each other's weaknesses and shortcomings, it was not enough to maintain and even improve the friendship of the five of us. Still there is a crack that we do not realize and certainly the crack is invisible when just seen with it. I was quite understanding and understood with the reason why Fellicia decided not to get any closer to us.

This is the thing I hate the most. I once got up and recovered with my own strength. I don't want to feel a recurring fall on everything called 'Friendship'. You tau? It takes a long time to get up and recover. Forgive me, everyone can do it. But forgetting? I think only tough people can do that. Wounds can heal but actions? Immerse and melt in a memory.

I once moved forward without a memory. Stupid to walk without remembering, it feels like walking in the clouds do not know the direction of the destination. How can I get up after I know what it's like to fall? Nothing will be okay when you get hurt. It took me a long time to hold back the tightness and gnawing pain simultaneously so that it made me roar like a madman.

After that I put on a hypocritical mask as if I was a person who had no burden in this world. I laughed loosely, I smiled cheerfully, telling things in a passionate tone as usual just to hide a wound.

Day after day, week meets week four times a month. The five of us are getting fractured, but there are still things to be grateful for there is still me, Aldira, Jihan and Ivanna who are still together to strengthen each other. And my relationship with Axel is still tenuous. The best part is that I didn't really lose my other best friend. Yunifa Anggia.

I just don't think about destiny. For the umpteenth time I stumbled to fall and again the stone is 'Friendship' where it should be a place to lean is not something that can disappoint. Then how do I get back up after it took me a long time to fully recover.

"Aldira?" My voice broke the silence in the car. A few weeks after the incident, there was no reason for Aldira and I to spend more time together.

"Why Lis?" The answer is still focused on the road.

"Why are you sicker than others?" I said with ambiguous words. Aldira just raised next to his neat eyebrows while glancing at me who had been watching the road.

"Because the people who know us better know our weaknesses" Aldira replied.

"Lo is wrong Dir. The person who is like that never knows what form of gratitude is like" replied I who was still looking out the window.

"They? He's been in the hospital for almost 3 weeks, and we're closer to him and no one's been looking." Before Aldira continued he glanced at me.

"Lo wants to, we look.. Daisy's together?" Those words escaped Aldira's lips. I turned my head in slow motion, trying to digest Aldira one by one.

"Where do you know he's being treated?" I asked in a sultry tone while cursing Aldira who mentioned the name of someone who had been like him in my life. Unfortunately, he hurt me unconsciously.

"From his sosmed" Aldira answered and refocused on the streets. Today we want to spend time together, so many things happen in our days.

After a few minutes we arrived at one of the cafes and restaurants in the area of Tebet. You could say we are a hobby of culinary travel like this compared to surrounding shopping centers for hours to compare prices or just pampering the eyes.

Aldira and I had the same taste when choosing a place. So here we are in a classic room with a pale white room plus beautiful furniture made of teak and oak that is certainly sturdy for centuries and fragrant.

Aldira and I sat in one corner of the room next to the window whose glass is transparent so that it immediately explored the room out door imitation that looks original and fresh behind this glass.

After ordering on the menu and giving our orders to the waitress in this cafe, we also kept quiet busy with each other's thoughts. I don't know if this is a silly idea or if my umpteenth bad luck is waiting.

I who was restless and anxious could not help but ask, I finally resolved to ask. I slowly bit my lower lip out of nervousness before asking Aldira. But the arrival of the waitress with our order made me undo the intention.

"Thank you Dir?" I said on the sidelines we ate our food.

"For ?" He asked while looking at me with his innocent face.

"Always beside me even though you know my ugliness, you also never take any advantage of me, you know all about me even to things that I should not share. While many people out there are talking about things they don't know the truth about me, you bother coming to gulurin your hands and believe in me.." I said while holding something in my eyes.

Aldira froze in place staring at me. I know this is a shame that should not be discussed, I am also a person who refuses hard to be pitied but that does not mean I am too strong to bear the sadness alone. No. gabe. I'm also a human being, need someone to share, need a place to lean.

"Lo know why God loves difficult tests? That's because God knows you're not a weak man. I also don't know why God gave you in my life as a friend. But I believe God is never wrong to give the best people of our lives. You also know that everyone in our lives can come and go as they please, even leaving scars. But some people will settle the list, whether it's as a friend or a friend" Aldira said gently while smiling sweetly.

Ah, with Aldira I feel like our friendship has grown a lot in every way. We didn't even realize that we were growing up in terms of thinking. I am so grateful to have Aldira as a friend, he was always hard if there were things wrong in our friendship, making us also learn to introspect ourselves.

Finished spending our orders in silence with our respective minds we also tried to find a light topic to talk about. For the sake of melting the atmosphere around us.

"So you know who Mr. X who's been neror lo?" Aldira asked as he sipped his cappucino.

"Udah. You know my ex, his brother Thomas our upperclassman?" I said while reminding Aldira about someone.

"Sister Thomas who?" He asked with a deep frown on his forehead.

"Sister Thomas is his girlfriend, sister Olivia Xander, our tiny and beautiful upperclassman full of it" I said. And Aldira just parroted.

"Keep why?" Ask again with a plain face. Wanted to knock his forehead with a scoop of ice cream.

"Yes, you know what? His brother's name is Francis Frederick, who I usually call 'Frans' inget lo?" I said I was upset and cut my lips.

"Oh.. Yes, now I just want to. When you are class X doi class VIII" Aldira replied accompanied by an amused laugh at the thing he had just said.

"Don't look at the times. I feel so old in the past" Cibirku replied to his statement.

"Keet you can relate again? Komas know?" Ask Aldira curiously.

"Hmmm this is complicated. I myself never know why he is present again in my life, such as 'Invigorated Intentions' like that might be his theory. If it's about Agas, I don't know if he'll ever share. That means just look at the time I spent with you guys there were just things to fuss about, like he wouldn't share my attention even though maybe my parents.." I said pausing my words for a moment to take a deep breath and exhale slowly.

"The worst part is probably my life which will be the guarantee if Agas knows, Dir" added me smiling.

"All will be well Lis" said Aldira holding my hand reassuringly.

"So when are we going to see Daisy?" I said at last, Aldira widened her eyes in disbelief at what I had just said. How not we avoided that sensitive topic.

****

The smell of drugs in the air pierced my sense of smell. Aldira and I were sitting in the waiting room of the hospital. I shouldn't have asked such a stupid question a few hours ago got us here.

"Dir? Go home yuk? I'm not sure I can" I said whining to her like a child.

"They? Now or not at all" Aldira replied firmly.

"But I'm afraid I can't control myself if I face him" I said again anxiously.

"Lis, when are you going to delay? I know the word sorry later can not turn everything back to its original state but do not hurt yourself with hate as much as him. Continuous" said Aldira who grasped my hand to channel the calming positive energy.

Accompanied by the sound of footsteps we entered the patient's room when the clock reopened. In this Flamboyant room a girl is being checked by a patient. My eyes shimmered in all directions up to the infusion hose attached, before our eyes met each other.

Those eyes were both sad and weak at the moment. I know him very well. A few years into his sharing friends, it is not difficult to understand him. I just can't figure it out, doesn't she know that being happy also has limits? Like, don't take the happiness of others for example. And when our eyes met the twinkle of an eye it dimmed instantly. Replacing deep regret but covered with ego.

"Hey. Aldira, Calista" She said with a faint smile in a sitting position leaning against the pillow over the head of the bed.

"Hi, sy" Aldira answered smiling as she put the fruit on the nightstand.

I just smiled and walked slowly towards him following Aldira. I think I want to go home. Like being stuck in a rainstorm, you know? I used to be so happy to spend time with him like with Aldira. She was my second friend after Angelina when we were in junior high school. I love it when he tells me to stay overnight when his parents are out of town. We had a lot to enjoy while I was staying at his house. Her parents were also very close to me, even when they were away together Daisy would often whine for me to go with her.

You can Lis. Apologizing first is better, although maybe it is pure is not your fault.

My mind is at war with my ego right now. Which one should I do. I force my brain to think, right now what do I need first, logic or feeling? If I choose logic, why would I forgive someone like him who is obviously disappointing. Hugely. But if I use feelings? I was like a weak person, my heart that was as hard as a broken rock seeing that it was this weak.

"I'm sorry, huh? Make things that might stress you out" I said, whose reflexes made us hug each other. I don't know how long we've been like this, until our tears can't be weathered anymore.

"Gue also apologized for my attitude that made you go far and unknowingly our relationship cracked like a mirror. Even the mirror had broken" he said, sobbing in my arms. Aldira who only saw us like this also shed tears with a smile they lipped.

When we choose to forgive, an admirable principle immediately works. If we change, others will change too. Once we change our attitude toward others, they change their attitude. However, when we change our perspective, others respond to changing expectations.

You should be able to forgive him even if it is difficult. If not, you will suffer..

Happy Reading's..