THE SOUND OF LOVE
Run as Far as You Can

...Go as far as you can, ...

...If God says "He is yours"...

...So keep going home to me. ...

...***...

Inexplicably longing is the most beautiful word to remember you in the second to come. Somehow I feel like I'm really gonna lose your figure even the taste you tried for me.

I love you so much even though you never know how big..

With the tears that had dried up I forced my hand to wave in the air and smile as the car passed from before me. It felt as though there was a pile of concrete slashing against your chest.

That instant also 'Hindu' is a word that will continue to bounce when time gives me pause to think about you.

Sorry Gas. Forgive this Stupid woman..

My mind is full of regrets. If only it could be said, if Agas knew it, if time were not this complicated. But time is not destiny which by its power determines the choice of our hearts.

****

The sun refused to shine as it normally does, allowing the cloud to hide its glare. Perhaps this state is appropriate to describe the state of my heart. Hollowly.

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. It still feels the same, cramped. Like there's a hole forming there. Somehow I can get through one day and the next.

It all seems to stop. There is no notification from Agas. As if we really ended. I miss him so much. Missed when she argued with me, missed when she talked about the thing that made me frown, missed when I went into her kitchen and made cooking for her.

I miss Gas, I lost..

Dddrrrrttt ddddrrrrrttt

I felt my phone vibrate, with a little disappointed I read the chat from the class group today, making me lazy to go to college. All yesterday's events made me stomp my throbbing forehead.

I put my feet down to step on the floor of the room and immediately got up from my bed to the dressing table. I noticed my other reflection there. Shabby, pale, with bulging, pathetic eye bags for sure.

Wearing a very lo List, the new break has not really broken.

I looked in my heart while smiling and looking at myself at this moment. I grabbed my phone lying on the dresser and typed a chat in the classroom that I couldn't attend college today because I was sick. A classic reason for Calista.

It has been two days since Agas and I decided to take a break on our relationship. Both of us have started to adjust to a sense of loneliness and reduce the intensity of our usually unhealthy communication. Small things can cause debate.

Imagine if Agas and I did not control each other's emotions could have world war back this century. Maybe this is not going to happen at the moment.

I'm in a state of love that doesn't mind losing. Because in the end, the destined one will still be farming. And those who are not destined will always find a reason to leave.

Today as usual my activities are only filled with lectures and hang out for a while at the canteen. When others laugh I just smile as if I'm fine and talk as necessary.

I shouldn't regret the decision I made myself. Not bad, after all, everyone in any relationship needs time alone to install themselves. Including me and Agas.

"Udah do not be upset List, just break not really broken yet" led them to me who I understand their intention to entertain me.

"Yaaaaah, don't dong. Thanks for the prayer. His mouth was so sweet as a chili" my lips were no less than their blow and we ended up laughing and laughing together.

It turns out to be single tuh gini yes, there are rame-ramenya so even though the heart is quiet..

***

Bukhara SD..

The thing that is always awaited by anyone to shed the longing due to the distance that blocks the body. The piles of outdated memories are now spilling over in the atmosphere of reunion.

I look at one by one the people who have lived in my past. A happy smile, warm hugs mingled, joking & laughter also complement the euphoria of this time makes me drown in it.

Well, I miss you so much. A magical red white moment for me. Six years we spent together, studying together, playing together, joking in class, on the strap in the school field for not complying with the rules regarding school attributes, and many more of their memories. Right now in front of my eyes that memory is playing like a movie. There's nothing different about them, to me they're still the same as they used to be, kids who like fun, joking and a little naughty.

"Heiii. You guys finally came too. I thought you guys weren't coming" said Nadia who broke my daydream.

With her long hair straight and jet black, beautifully seared with her sweet smile the girl came up to me and also some of my close friends. Nadia is still the same as before, the difference is that she looks not too fat like when we were in SD.

"Hi Nad? How are you?" I said as I hugged her and so, and then we really dissolved into a classic story of our past.

I don't know who opened that box of our past. The happiness that cannot be bought is time. How can we buy it when the moment is being created, repeated will not be the same taste.

"They? There was Rahardian tuh" pointed at the Maharani Flower one of my close friends at the time, with a glance of his eyes and I followed the direction of the glare of his eyes. My glances stopped right at someone who was the same stature as my male SD friends. Ideal height, mature sapodilla skin, sharp nose, thin lips and. well, now the body is somewhat filled and shaped because diligently ngegym. Really good boyfriend anyway.

"Hmm Cieeeeee" Interrupted Dika Novita who is still my close friend while elbowing my arm to tease me. Followed by my other friends. Fortunately not everyone heard our conversation and our sometimes abnormal behavior if it had been collected.

"Samperin times, have a conversation while playing doang glance" said Tika Nasution who added the spirit of my current friends to tease me.

"It's not usual to salting that, who knows the other lyrics are not lo Lis" a spicy beat came out also from the full lips of a sweet fat girl named Anggia Yunifa.

"Well, is that too? Eiiittss does not mean that it was intentional, the lyrics were like in ftv or that film" I replied in self-defense and our laughter broke.

"Where is Raffi? Didn't come?" It was Damas who interrupted all of our laughter.

"Obviously, again in the sky is the same Ridho has not been able to get their holiday" said Bima who incidentally closer to Raffi and Ridho. We also used the letter "O".

By the way Raffi and Ridho are both in education. Raffi was in Air Force education and Ridho was in Pilot education. Besides them, there are some of our friends who can't reminisce together. Some were studying in Moscow Russia, some were studying also in the military, some were not sure where the event was decided.

Once again I don't know who started opening that memory box until all of our diatmosphere flew. Although invisible but felt encompassing the atmosphere around us all.

Ting.. 💌

My phone clinks between the crowds. I saw a message coming in from Agas making my lips curl up.

From: Agas ⛄

To: Calista

"Don't forget to eat there. Don't come home late from 10 o'clock on the Malem List. Love you's.. "

From: Calista

To: Gnat

"Siaaaap captain.. Love you too"

****

A few days after the reunion passed I and some of my close friends more often spend time together especially when it is still a semester break. So today we plan the bukber back, the difference is that we are only a few people.

Same as SD time. There are Flowers, Dika, Anggia and Diana. Actually there are still two more people but they can not attend, well bukber this time held in the house of one of our friends who time bukber rame-rame not come. Her name is Yessy Carlina.

You could say we were a Nerd group at school back then. People are usually just me and my friends. Boro-boro wants us to join them sometimes their treatment is arbitrary.

From the one who told us to buy food for them to do their duties. It does not stop there that the tradition of bullying has existed for a long time. We are also sometimes the stuff of their jokes.

But it's been a dozen years. For what is mourned again, we already have a new sheet each. Remember, the wheel of life always revolves around us. A person's prayer can destroy the entire sky when it is pluralized by Him.

"Yessyyyy" toa heboh Dian aka Diana when the door of the house opened revealed a girl berparas chinese ala-ala.

"Anjiwiiir. How tall is yess? Eating poles?" Chirps Anggia. Really, really mouth.

"Yes? Is this elo yess? We have the wrong house. A very different oath lo now" said Dika no less excited with us.

"So, enter here first" while commanding us and we followed while the signs say yes.

"Assalamualaikum.." chirped Anggia with a plain made-up face.

"Waalaikumsayang" I replied with a plain made-up face as well.

"Idiiih disgusted lo List" her lips that I immediately rewarded toyoran. We also became their laughing stock.

After opening and praying together we continued our chatter in Yessy's room. Dian and I who are non-Muslims wait for them to pray for a while and this is where we have piled all on the king size bed belonging to Yessy. The thick pink nuances in this room plus makeup equipment and the dresser also explain how girly the owner is.

"So, so yesterday someone played the same lyrics Mr. R's? " Dian started our conversation.

"Huh what? Mr. R who?" Samber Yessy who knows nothing about the Korean drama incident that I experienced when we Bukber rame-rame.

"Ooooh I know I know." said Dika accompanied by laughter who was also busy with his phone shortly before we started the chat.

"Who the hell? All of a sudden amnesia" I replied, laughing and following them.

"Should I say his name?" The Anggia chirp that previously laughed

"From yesterday I mulu mulu mulu malu" I murmured.

"How are you Gia who saw Mr. A chat with Calista when you grab a drink?" Chirps Dika who really likes to pay attention to people.

"Well. Loh it turns out there is an eptivy kek kek that" sambar Yessy who was enthusiastic to hear our story that is not quality at all.

And so one day we go through with nostalgia from romance stories to horror. You know that time is very meaningful and expensive. One day only there are various moments that can be created, how can you miss that one day without doing anything.

One second two seconds and in the next second sometimes tucked a moment that without us knowing can lighten anything. And that moment is grateful.

Happy Reading guysss 😘