THE SOUND OF LOVE
I'll Survive Though Not Possible

...If you can't often ...

...Be happy sometimes, ...

...When life is not easy ...

...We have no reason to give up. ...

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Time goes by so fast when an encounter happens that a farewell is picked up. Why do we hang out with people who don't deserve to fight? Why do we give tears when he doesn't care? Like hugging a shadow. If he's not for you, then stop. Hurt yourself for someone like that is a very stupid thing. Is that what you call love?

"Actually I also have someone to talk to you" said Ivana while putting down her phone and moving the bowl as soon as it had been toilet.

We fixed our sitting position and closed ourselves to Ivana, waiting for something to come out of her lips..

"What?" ask me to be curious while knitting eyebrows

"Gue fought great with Adhi, I heard balesin chat Bang Ami so Adhi was very angry with me" said Ivana who raised her lips while propping her chin on the table.

"Couldn't you? Elo he reckless already know the nature of your guy so Na" sambar Jihan reminded

"Yes I know I was wrong, so all the guy contacts on my phone were removed all the same to him. Crazy ga tuh guy" complained Ivana while kneeling temple suddenly stricken dizzy considering the problem with his girlfriend.

"Yaudah gapapa Na, he really wants to keep elo he does not want you to be a cheap girl who wants to be deketin guy. Take the positive side Na" advises Fellicia while sipping green tea.

"Cowok who is like that even good Na, he doesn't want to lo why. Rizal is like Na, possessive. Banget." sambar Aldira who smiled wryly remembered his love story.

When you believe 100% in others, there are only two possibilities. Get a life partner or get a life lesson.

It doesn't feel like time is moving fast, it doesn't wait for anyone. The heat began to fade into shade, me and Aldira also decided to go home not to forget to say goodbye to them. Today it all unfolds surprisingly, even unexpectedly.

You know humans are created to have their own goals, tested according to their respective abilities, given different awards. Should we complain? Problems are also created by God to remind us of him and rely only on his strength.

Inside car..

"I played for a while to your house? Still at this hour, hehehe giggling" I said while showing a row of my teeth that are less neat because there are two teeth shuffled.

"Iyeeee, yaudah yuuuk street" he said as he put on his seat belt and I drove to Dira's house.

It was turned on by my car radio by Dira and it just so happened to be a song that was often sung.

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"Dir lo ga bosen dengerin this song?" I said that we stayed focused on the streets and we were stuck in the traffic jam of the capital. Goody.

"That's the title Stupid Man. Just like Lis, sometimes the girl is sincere and stupid simultaneously. It's hard to stop" Aldira's parrot while sipping on the chocolate ice pop.

"Why?" many of me who do not understand while looking at him.

I heard Aldira's tired breathing..

"Because any pain persists, the girl never steps away before being told to leave" she replied, glancing out the window. Which I nodded while glancing at the traffic lights.

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The second song played, somehow my heart screamed bitterly as this song echoed in this car..

(To you, never realizing

Everything you have, you have,

You dumped me. leave me.)

Gases.. What does it feel like when we never realize we have everything?

(You destroyed me like I never existed.. )

How else do I try to be the best for you?

Not even a tear fell without me preventing it, Aldira who saw me reflex rubbing shoulders tried to calm me down.

(I'll hang on even though it won't be possible..

Exploring his story, though painful.. Although it's a thing)

"It turns out that fighting at the beginning was bad for Dir, and fighting alone is more painful than being given false hope" I complained with a bitter smile still focused on the road.

Arriving at Aldira's house..

"Dir, I went straight back to my nutmeg dizzy da-" I haven't had time to continue my words Aldira even finished it.

"And Galau. I know we're same, right" he said with a faint smile, I just nodded in response.

"Yeah, so I'll go to home now and see you tomorrow" I said with a smile and drove my car towards my house.

Unexpectedly my phone clinked in, I lyricized a glimpse of my phone and put it back on top of my car dashboard. I don't know who's obviously not Agas.

After arriving at the yard of the house I immediately put my car into the garage and close and lock it. Then I walked into the house and went straight to my room to take a shower and clean myself. When I finished I went down to dinner.

As usual dinner is never complete at one table, just me and dad at the moment. Sometimes it's just Dad and mom, or Dad and Kirana, or Mom and Kirana or even alone well that's how it is. After finishing eating I say goodbye to Daddy who is still busy dancing his fingers on the laptop with reading glasses Faithful perched on his nose and did not forget the cup of coffee that became his friend.

In the room I threw out my body which I felt crumpled with tiredness. Recalling a chat from someone this afternoon, I took my phone in my bag and replied to a chat from Agas and a chat from someone. More precisely my junior brother who was already very familiar with me.

Renaldy Lee: "Fuck!!!"

Calista Hart: "Yes deck, why?"

I ask who does not want to get stale, if Agas saw about what his reaction would be?

Calista Hart: "Hmmm no deck anyway"

Oh my God forgive me, Gas I'm sorry..

And our chat on chat continued. Not that I want to leave Agas, if indeed my intention to leave may have been a long time ago I should have done, but how can I go with half a heart.

Everyone knows how to love, right? But only a few people know how to stay in one heart for a long period of time. I hope that's the reason I survived..

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Mentari shyly appeared on a blue canvas studded with fine white cotton, trying to tease anyone who was still asleep in his sleep. Another day that changed, whether it would end like what today, whether there is a story like what today. Still a secret..

The ringing of the phone made me open my eyes even wider when drowsiness was still attacking. I'm raba over my nightstand looking for my phone. Suddenly my eyes opened to see the name on the screen of my phone. Oh my.

"...."

"Sorry Gas I forgot, I just woke up. Tomorrow I go to your house" I said in a trembling voice while biting my lower lip slowly.

"...."

"Maaaaf Gas" I said again in a regretful voice.

Then the phone line was cut off unilaterally. Started again. The most difficult thing for a woman is to break down the male ego.

Because men are born leaders and be patient with us as women because we are born partners.

Might as well..

It's simple like this if we love people, not how we own him but how we happy he is. But how can you be happy and destroy your ego simultaneously. As big as I was fighting wanted to win one of them.

With a troubled mind and heart I walked straight to the bathroom, after I finished wiping my wet hair with a towel I wrapped around my head, turned on the music from my phone and walked to open my closet. Today there is a field practice in the health ministry so I wear my college uniform neatly and carry my hair neatly that I have previously dried with a hairdryer also do not forget to polish thin makeup.

After feeling enough I came out of the room carrying a bag filled with medical devices, walked down the stairs while glancing at my watch and walked towards the mobi garage to get in my car. The clink of the phone gave me a pause while putting on my seat belt I read a chat that turned out to be from Aldira. He always could not wait. I drove my car straight to Aldira's house.

In front of Aldira's house..

"Lo brought a white coat, right? Ck. Our uniform is just a free dress the same white suit in the style of medicine doang loh dir today" the beonya who immediately entered the car while closing the car door.

"Well, what am I wearing? Ujan's coat? " my lips while laughing at his stupidity.

"Kamvir. Tell me I'm afraid of lo saltum, stupid. "he said as he shook my head to the side.

God wants it to drown him in the Amazon..

"Where is your relationship with Ijal Dir?" I said the one who opened the conversation.

There was no answer, a second passed and almost a few minutes we were silent to each other..

Unable to stand the atmosphere like a man at war I played music in my car to wait for an answer that might surprise me.

"Lis doesn't understand the song, change the cake" said Aldira, who turned to me after a long struggle with her phone.

"Someone said, who did? " i said pretending to be upset

"Anjiiir. Ask to be thrown by ex-lo ya" said Dira who replied to my words

"There are more magical voices. Anjiiiir my car seems to have to be in-" has not been able to continue my speech cut by him.

"Dikasih sajen" and at once our laughter broke.

Aldira then changed the song..

"Gue is fighting again. I answered your question" he said again as he closed his nose and took a deep breath.

"Jeez, there are no days without fighting. I think your relationship is less healthy Dir. Means a lot doesn't suit you or maybe you're both high in ego"

"Abis want how else Lis, there are only things that are credited even trivial things are also credited" he said while kneading his temple that is not dizzy.

"Dir, every relationship is a lot of trials, and every relationship is also different because Love is different forms. Kayak lo same bang Ijal Your love grows because you flush with the principle of 'possessive' different from me. I'm the same Agas watering Cinta with the principle of 'So much you want to say what is clear lo my girlfriend'. Everyone has a different view in a relationship Dir" I said while parking the car right in front of the KemenKes building.

"One more Dir. Love is like a kite. The more you pull it over and over will break up too, just like when we are stretched. The more you linger long will disappear. So all will meet at one point, a loss. When the time comes we don't want to be ready to accept what should not be for us" I said again, ending my conversation with Aldira in the car, and we got into the building to practice the field.

After that, Aldira and I got in the car. Today we came home fast because it was just a field practice and today Agas took me away. It just so happened that I wanted to talk to her about something.

I should have let you go. Your name is half of me still keeping you, the other half is still expecting very much. Even with my stupidity, I knew surviving alone was painful.

Gas, no matter how cruel you treat me, no matter how cold you are as I am. I still love you..

I did my car out of the parking lot of the building and converged in the euphoria of Jakarta's traffic jams. Suddenly my phone clinks and Aldir took my phone.

"Dir, from whom? " i said, focusing on the road.

"Chat of Alvin. Who is Lis? " aldira said at once asking about the person who sent me the chat

"Oh that's my class brother when smp Dir, emang time smp I deket same class brothers" answered me sekhenkau is possessed by him.

"Gue thinks lo Lis's affair, where there are people who are resistant to dating like an ice man like Agas that is" ledek Aldira and my reflexes sing my lips.

After taking Aldira home I went straight to my house. Not until my cell phone's house rings in the middle of the road to my house. I took a deep breath and raised my phone that was ringing.

"Yes Gas? " i answered someone across the street.

"...."

"Yes, I'm on the road again want to go home first, you will pick up at home Gas" I replied again and immediately drove my car to home.

Even if you ask how could I fall for you? Sorry, I don't know myself because I love you. Love just flows, falls for someone I never thought I would.

Happy Reading's..