THE SOUND OF LOVE
SEASON 1 IS OVER
1 Year after his departure..
Not only love him who needs struggle, after parting I still have to fight. Struggling to move himself from the heart, to a place called memory.
My heart said that my choice to let go was the right decision. While the reality today proves that he is still often secretly I miss it.
Because letting go is not something easy nor is it something difficult. I just need to prepare myself to start with 'Wind' and do it with 'Will' I'm ready to recapitulate. Breaking out of his grasp for the feelings I was about to kill slowly.
"Is it true that the book you wrote tells of your personal life?"
"Are you not ashamed if your life or your past is known to the public?"
A charming smile of a woman growing up on my face, made me sure "Right. I was embarrassed at first but I knew what I was doing"
"Then what about your relationship, is he back?" The question from one of the press left me stunned and frozen on the spot.
My eyes shimmered looking at them one by one, only then did I realize that I was on water could have been when I spoke like this they could see me on the glass screen. What I had to answer, I lyricized one of my publishers and he nodded his head reassuring me.
"She.." I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. They were waiting for my answer expectantly.
"He's... I didn't know about him anymore after we split up" they just fell silent with their thoughts.
The separation of time actually creates a distance that is shrouded in longing. There was no news of her state and existence, which had once made my heart seem to lose half consciousness.
"Then how is your relationship with your friends, is there still a sense of disappointment that causes you trauma?"
"Are you going to continue with this novel or write a new novel like any other writer?"
I pulled the corners of my lips up "Honestly, the trauma was still there. But I am not a God who has the right to judge. Just let it run as it should. At least we know someone how seen from events that have a time span close together, but the effect is chronic (yearly).
To write a new book again, is in the process" I replied.
"Then do you plan to re-establish a relationship or decide for yourself?" all audiences stared at the only people who asked that, including me.
I paused for a moment and then cleared my throat.
"Ah sorry the question is personal so if you are not willing to answer, no problem. We can la-"
"It doesn't matter, let's see what I can answer" I said
"From all my travels in the love life, I spent a lot of my failed rations. Meeting a lot of men and with their respective characters, made me learn a lot and understand about this male type creature.
If women are difficult to understand, but for me men are complicated. Because some of them are not able to describe what they believe in its existence. Love, that's it"
Because there was once you and I who told you about many things without ever thinking time would take him away.
*****
"Be careful, Jihan? When you get to Jambi, will you?" Said Ivanna sobbing in Jihan's arms.
Aldira and I also looked at the two of them like this
"Gue must be very kangen lo Han" said Aldira parau hugging Jihan alternately with Ivanna who retreated his steps back.
Jihan loosened her arms and turned towards me "Jihaaan" I took my legs wide to grab her and embrace her.
"Don't eat a lot of chili? Less-reduced drinking of cold water, limit the same fast food foods that are sweet-sweet-"
"Iyaaaa, Lis" he said as he turned the lazy eyeball
"Stop waiting for the uncertain Lis, she'll never come back. Even if it came back, his feelings would never be the same again" he whispered in my arms. He relaxed his embrace and I nodded my head with a teary smile.
Time waits for no one and at no time like anything. He kept walking forward without ever looking back let alone stopping. When everything came back as it should, I believed that this was all his design.
Every meeting will have a farewell at the end of the story. I don't know what it's going to be like after, we'll never know.
Every mistake will meet a word of regret in the end. Waiting without ever trying to fix it will never meet on the word okay in the end.
Learn from every mistake that others make, because humans are not born to be perfect. Being resilient from the past is the result of the processes that have been passed, being great in the future is the result of being stocked in the past.
"We're not in the hug either?" Axel chirps with a sad face made up.
"NOT MUHRIM" Our chirps in unison with a loud voice. Making the atmosphere at the airport quiet because of our behavior that made them look at us with intimidating looks. Then our laughter broke out to accompany the departure of Jihan who soon brought everything with her.
Han, I promise you will see my efforts to be good after his departure. I promise Han, I'll open a new sheet even though I'll fall awake on the process but its ok, I'll try. My mind is smiling pias.
"Guy !! We take pictures first yuk, hopefully this moment will always tell us if we ever existed and ever this much" Cecer Bang Ami who suddenly came to bring officers to ask for help.
"Ck. You old man" my grumbling who uprooted their ugliness.
Jihan's flight schedule has arrived and we can only get her here. I don't know why this song played at the airport is a song that will always remind us of many things when together. (Endank Soekamti - See You).
The day after graduation I decided to leave the house that had kept me from staying, though one of the residents has long gone and does not know whether to return or have found another house out there for him to live with his new happiness.
Relinquished you.. I'll do my best, get used to it without your presence again. Indeed, it will be burdensome life but will not burden the steps.
It is not wrong to let go without forgetting. Just like a leaf that falls even though the ground never says it will accept it.
...Best for Cokrodinoto Agas:...
..."I'm goin... We remain good friends at other times, at other feelings. Thank you for ever loving me"...
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