THE SOUND OF LOVE
EPILOGUES

...There was once you ...

...Who always faithfully pronounce ...

...'Good morning' with a smile,...

...To me ...

...*** ...

A week after his departure..

A few days after your departure, I became someone who had a hard time controlling myself. My friends and friends, they all tried to come over to cheer me up. They say I'm not sane because I locked myself in a room and dissolved in sadness that I knew when. Some of them tried to distract me. And, still, they didn't make it.

Everything about you is too strong for me. Killing slowly my feelings for you or about you is tantamount to suicide. As if you were a part of me, and vice versa. Then what should I do? A few days after your departure I felt like I was no longer. There is a missing piece there like an imperfect puzzle because there is a missing piece.

Tok tok tok tok

"Calistas. Open the door dong, mother bring this food from yesterday you have not eaten loh" exclaimed the voice of a middle-aged woman with a tone full of sadness.

"They? Open the door dong, it's me Dira. Where can I go alone? I miss Calista, my best friend who always makes me feel good" Aldira's voice held something back following Sonya's words. It was very desirable that he broke down this door but the intention was to be undone considering that his best friend was dying. Her heart.

Then a loud noise began to be heard from outside the room door. Makes me want to not want to say to convince them that I'm okay. At least that's what it looks like from the outside.

"Calista, be good here. Please give me the time I make it myself" I cried from inside the room in a limp and pitiful voice.

"Until when? We all need lo, Calista. Lo family, your friends, your friends. Everyone" chirped the bass voice I believe once belonged to Bang Ami.

"We've all been heartbroken, Lis. We all. Do not waste your youth with kayak gini, there are still many people out there waiting for you. Calista Hartawan, the new one" shouted a firm voice belonging to Axel Atmadja.

"They? Don't you want to see us again?" Said Jihan while sobbing. Making me who heard it from behind the door quietly sob.

Then followed by the voice of Ivanna, Anggia is also some people that I remember vaguely. Trying to persuade me to get out of the room. I just need time alone to reflect on my past instead of committing suicide. Hey, I'm not that stupid. It's just that maybe this will be hard to live with. The noisy voices were not heard anymore, the silence that was previously present now re-filled.

Tissues strewn all over the room make anyone want to curse me, but who cares? This is my private area. I sobbed around the giant teddy bear that Agas gave me when I was seventeen and we celebrated with our friends in the gray white.

"Gas? Lo where the hell is it? Why not tell me? Have you found any other happiness? Don't Gas, don't be that fast" I said to the empty air while tightening my arms on the teddy bear giving Agas.

Your departure seemed to lock every laugh and wipe the smile off my face. Do you think someone can smile or laugh when they are sad? Answer, No. Even if they can smile and laugh, they are just pretending to look happy.

A week after your departure, my heart palpitations didn't rhyme as well as they used to. Is this miss? Yes, this is it. I miss the way you talk, miss the way you listen to me, miss the way you hug me and miss everything you have.

Yesterday's farewell didn't seem to separate us. Indeed, I'm not ready to get used to it without us. I never really said that I was a tough woman, who wouldn't be defeated by sadness. I just prefer to appreciate yesterday's farewell to keep growing tomorrow.

Because there was once a faithful you said 'Good Morning' with a smile for me

Time passes by feeling slow. I don't recognize any changes that have happened to myself, including my feelings for you. Nothing changes even if some heart is willing to replace and change it.

Still with the smile of the charade I do every day, they thought I had recovered from my broken heart. No, they are just easily fooled. They took my smile as a sign that my heart was fine. Though, no.

I can't pretend to smile just to look strong. Because pretending would only bring my sadness deeper. Be aware, you are a half-self thief and some of my happiness. Can you gladly return it?

"Welcome back, Lis" greeted them with a twinkle on their face and eyes. I smiled and looked at their faces one by one.

"Gue thought we were going to play the drama sleeping beauty, when you still did not want to go out of the room" said Axel Atmadja with a mischievous grin.

Suddenly I also shook his head with a spoon of sugar "Snajis. Amit-amit. You pervert lo Xel!!"

"Ish basic woman bar-bar" Axel murmured while rubbing his head, it made their laughter all explode due to my and Axel's behavior.

"Oh yeah, a month after we graduate will come to my engagement?" Bang Ami's words made our laughter stop instantly in shock. Waw, finally after so long dating by breaking up their story can be happy ending. Different me.

"Cieee. Finally Bang, officially also lo"

"Help congratulations Bang. Also happy for us"

"Hopefully follow, doain Bang"

Then the quality time event returned to the way it was. We purposely spend some time together before we graduate. This time we are quite busy with fieldwork practices that make us rarely gather like this. And in a few months we will face a trial before the thesis.

I gave them a smile and I laughed at myself. Am I wrong? It seems not, because losing someone you love is always able to make someone great in terms of pretending to be happy.

Don't have to go back with you who loved me the way you used to, at least give me back the way I did before I loved you and lost you. I know you understand, so there's no need for me to ask you to grant it.

Ting

An incoming message again interrupts our activity. As soon as I froze reading something there, my tongue was twisted, I felt my eyeballs heating up.

"Lo why Lis?" Aldira asked worriedly followed by their gazes.

"Gue. I. The manuscript I received the publisher it means gu-"

"That means we've got the temen of a famous writer" their happy cheers as tears begin to pool in my eyes.

Is this the definition of happiness? Always along with the tears that are the sign.

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