
10 Days before the full moon,
The sound of thunder rumbling between the torrent of rain flushed flat Selaka Jaya village and surrounding areas since last dawn. The cold air in the morning blew through the masui through the cracks of the living room window, making Mahmud and Kosim raise their legs on the chair.
After the dawn prayer, Mahmud and Kosim sat in the living room. Two cups of black coffee and four leftovers of bananas last night are still lying on the guest table. Abah Dul and Mang Ali had said goodbye to the dawn after picking up Kosim at the Karang Turi cemetery until last night.
"Sim, I wonder how the story is that you are lying in the cemetery that is," said Mahmud open the silence of the morning blind.
Kosim did not answer immediately, he looked confused and tried to remember him again. Sucking a deep cigarette while continuing to open his memory, Kosim was really confused where to tell him from, all he remembered was his meeting with a woman on the side of the road and then piggybacking on him.
"I don't know Mas, I don't remember everything but I remember when on the road to the project I was dismissed by a woman and asked her to deliver home because she said there were no angkot passing by," terang Kosim then fell silent again.
Kosum rests his head on the back of the chair. Kosim tried hard to try to remember again. Embossed-drowning remembering sometimes he remembers feeling sitting in a house, sometimes interrupted again do not remember the continuation.
"Yes, already Sim do not be forced if it does not remember," said Mahmud could not bear to see Kosim thinking hard.
"When on the road actually I had a whisper of sound without the likeness of Mas but I ignored it. He said there are women not humans, I think where there are no days there are subtle creatures," said Kosim.
"That's the result of Sim, it's the same as insulting the mandate for ignoring it. The message happened, right?" timpal Mahmoud's.
"Yes Mas, I'm sorry too" murmured Kosim.
"Many more istigfaran Sim," said Mahmud.
It does not feel outside the house the weather has begun to light up by the morning sunlight. The chirping of wild birds sounded earthy welcomed the chirping of Mahmud's love bird in a cage hanging beside the house.
"Yes, if you sleep, just sleep Sim. I want to bathe the bird first" Mahmud said as he moved from his seat.
"Yes Mas" answered Kosim briefly.
As Kosim answered, Mahmud's hape rang. Mahmud paused his steps opening the front door intending to leave the house. His steps turned towards the bupet to immediately pick up the phone.
"Halo assalamualaikum, yes what is it... Oooh yes, okay Mas thank you yes. Yes thank God Kosim's condition has improved Mas, yes, yes later I say. Okay, okay mature nuwun Mas," Mahmud ended the call.
Mahmud returned to the living room and sat in the original place opposite Kosim separated by the guest table.
"Sim, Juned just called if you are not healthy really do not need to go to work first," said Mahmud.
"O yes, yes Mas." answered Kosim.
"Sim remember not yesterday went to the project ride what?" mahmud asked as he looked at Kosim with a smile.
Kosim frowned remembering what he did yesterday. A moment later Kosim jumped, "Astagfirullah! I brought Mas Mahmud's bike," Kosim said.
"Waduh Mas, I have to go there again on the bike. Hopefully not lost but the bike is where there is a cemetery," said Kosim anxious to mix confusion.
"The motor is in the office of Karang Turi Village Hall, Sim. Found people parked under a Cambodian tree in a cemetery. Let me go there with his letters" Mahmud said.
"I took a shower and kept sliding there, take the bike," Mahmud continued.
"Liar with me. Borrow Abah Dul's bike" Kosim's sergeant.
"You just rest. You haven't slept all night, let me be with Abah Dul" Mahmud said.
"Yes Mas.." murmured Kosim.
Mahmud passed from the living room. After Mahmud's death, Kosim bowed deeply. There was a gurgle of sadness, regret even anger raging into one in his heart.
"Mas Mahmud was very good even though I was the brother-in-law of his wife's sister. I am deeply indebted to him and I may not be able to repay him at any time. There have been too many sacrifices that Mas Mahmud has made for me and my family, Arin, Dede" Kosim said in his heart.
"What would happen if until Mas Mahmud became a victim to defend my actions, I really am the most evil person in the world. O God, will I be forgiven for doing what I tried to have fellowship with the devil? But I was really wrong," he murmured regretfully.
Without realizing it, her tears had been shed on both of her cheeks. Kosim hurriedly rubbed it with his palm. He looked up and blinked his eyes that were swollen and still glazed.
His face looked increasingly haggard and a little pale plus because of the tiredness but Kosim still reluctant to go to sleep. His mind was still shackled by the series of events that had befallen him.
His mind drifted again thinking of all the events that happened to him and to those who defended him.
"Mahmud was almost dead, Mang Ali was also critical, Arin, Dede also did not escape the impact of my actions" Kosim said in his heart.
"Do I give up so that everything is not affected by the consequences. It may happen that good people can die defending my deeds."
Kosim covered his face with both palms with a long breath. The recesses of his heart were troubled by a dilemma full of confusion and despair.
In the eternal, there is a pessimistic feeling in Kosim's mind that the occult agreement that he does not realize it will not be concluded peacefully. More of him who died and became a monkey demon slave in him than to sacrifice his wife, let alone his son.
'I would also never be willing if Mas Mahmud, Mbak Dewi, Abah Dul or Mang Ali had to die for defending my actions.' Kosim.
Regrets always appear at the end, not at the beginning. But that does not mean it cannot be resolved correctly and also does not mean there is no way to be resolved in the best way to come out as the Winner.
All back to the faith of one's heart, the choice is only two.The first, survive and finish it until it comes out of the bitter state, bitter, the second stopped and gave in to despair and ended quickly avoiding bitterness by choosing to die.
For a man who thinks briefly, it is possible by dying to assume all problems are finished and become free. From the point of view of life it is true that all people in the world are spiritually cut off and physically no longer feel pain but actually there will be a life after death that is much more painful and will be longer to live out his pain in the realm of death.
All the problems that befall us in the world, it could be that Allah SWT is testing one's faith to raise his degree higher than now. Be patient and pray for His guidance and then live the bitterness and face the way of the knights!
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