Till The End Of Time [Inuyasha Fanfiction ]
Chapter 143

"Rin-sama's hands are immovable" explained Jinenji slowly. Standing inside Sesshoumaru's study, he stared at everything in the room. "I don't know what's going on. But, his hand muscles had now stopped functioning permanently. Chances are if things continue, he'll be totally crushed."

"How do I cure it?" cut Sesshoumaru. His voice was slow and flat, as calm as ever.

"That's...." Jinenji did not know what to answer Sesshoumaru's question, because until now, he did not have the answer.

"You don't have the answer?" asked Sesshoumaru again, his voice remained calm and flat, but his golden eyes sharpened to the point of making everyone alert.

"Sister," called Kagome, she was also one of the people who took care of Rin, therefore she could not let all the responsibilities fall on Jinenji alone. "We will definitely heal Rin-chan."

"Right, Sesshoumaru," added Inuyasha who was beside Kagome. His golden eyes were full of confidence staring straight at Sesshoumaru. "We will definitely find a way to cure Rin."

Miroku, Sango, Kohaku and Kaeda who were in the room said nothing, but their eyes that shone with confidence like Inuyasha were also directed at Sesshoumaru.

Sesshoumaru did not say anything hearing Inuyasha and Kagome's words. Staring at everything in the room, he then closed his eyes. Silence is silent, inuyoukai it makes everything there is not know what to say anymore.

Healing?—tangis Rin who was full of fear and despair when he knew his hand could not move. Tears that fell, screams that were, pain and—the destruction of the woman's heart. Sesshoumaru could not forget—it was the biggest failure of his life.

What did she want most?—when she decided to hug Rin, Sesshoumaru knew, she wanted the human woman to always smile and laugh, happy as she should. But, he only knew now, how difficult he was to do that.

Sesshoumaru, the destroyer of life. Inudaiyoukai the great and victorious ruler of the western lands. The owner of the bakusaiga, the fangs of destruction and tensaiga, the fangs of life, the youkai that are revered and feared all life—his name and epithet so proud are now of no use in the least, for; she could not stop the tears and tears of the only woman she loved most in her existence.

What is the use of names? What is the use of power? What use is strength?—himself can only let that human woman suffer.

Kreeett

The sound of shoji's door closing suddenly opened. Making Sesshoumaru's closed golden eyes open again and staring at who entered, as well as everything in the room.

Inukimi walked in, her face expressionless even though all the pairs of eyes they had in the room were fixed on her. His golden eyes stared at the calm figure of his son, yet at once was also extremely chaotic in front of him.

Stopping not far from Sesshoumaru, he then threw a scroll of documents in his hand in front of his biological son. "Find and perfect fushi no kusurah as fast as possible, Sesshoumaru."

Inukimi's words made everything else stunned. Not unless, Sesshoumaru.

"I don't know what happened to my daughter, nor to all who are here" Inukimi continued in her calm voice. "But, fushi no kursi, the medicine of immortality might be the only way there is to save little Rin."

Kagome lifted the scroll of documents that Inukimi threw and opened it. Reading in silence, he was unable to hide his shocked feelings.

Fushi no kusur, the medicine of immortality.

A drug that can prolong the life of a human being. A drug that can stop the time of the man who takes it, provide health and cure all the sick of disease—does such a drug really exist in this world?

Sesshoumaru seemed to be aware of Inukimi's words. Fushi no kusuri, the drug he was looking for Rin so that the human woman could live with him forever—may indeed this drug is the only one who can realize their existing hope.

"Sesshoumaru-sama!!" jaken's voice suddenly sounded. From behind Inukimi, through the open door, the frog youkai ran in. "Rin is conscious!"

Jeken's shout immediately made Sesshoumaru stunned. Not moving, he did not know he had to stay to discuss what Inukimi had said just now or look for Rin now—the first time in his life, he did not know any more the priorities he had to take.

Inukimi who saw Sesshoumaru not moving sighed. His stupid son, and his cruel destiny. "Meet little Rin now Sesshoumaru," said the former ruler of the western lands slowly. "He needs you now."

Inukimi's words were like an encouragement to Sesshoumaru. Without saying anything, ignoring everything, with an unchanged facial expression, the inuyoukai ruler of the western lands ran over. Run as fast as she can to the room where the woman she loves most is.

There was nothing stopping Sesshoumaru, Inuyasha and the others could only silently watch Sesshoumaru disappear from before them.

"I think we better wait in front of the door of Rin and Sesshoumaru's room" Miroku said slowly later. Like her, she knew everything in this room right now must be very worried about Rin's condition. "If you can't get in, at least we can figure out Rin-chan's condition.."

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Arriving in front of his room and Rin, Sesshoumaru paid no attention to Kiri and Kira who stood guard in front of the closed shoji door. Stop running, he strengthened his heart to open the door of the room slowly.

Rin's glasses when she finds out her hands can't move anymore. Her cries and cries of despair—Sesshoumaru did not want to see her a second time again; he did not want to be a figure who could only hug the human woman in despair until falling asleep.

Kreett

Stepping in, Sesshoumaru's golden eyes could only be stunned, because what he saw first turned out to be not tears and tears, but a smile that he loved so much.

"Okaeri, Sesshoumaru-sama."

With Shura sleeping beside him, sitting on the futon, Rin smiled so beautifully at him. If it wasn't for her eyes that were still red and puffy, Sesshoumaru would probably think the screams and cries of despair he had seen before were just a nightmare.

Approaching Rin, Sesshoumaru's hand shook. Touching the small and pale face in front of her, she saw the human woman closing her eyes and tilting her face, as if wanting to feel the warmth of her hands more.

Opening his eyes again, Rin then chuckled at Sesshoumaru. "Pardon Rin for worrying you, Sesshoumaru-sama.."

Rin smiled and laughed. Calling her name soft and apologizing for having worried her, Sesshoumaru could only think, what is this human woman feeling now?

The smile and laughter mask she was wearing had been broken, but even though it was broken, the human woman was still wearing it. All just because he tried so hard to hide the tears and screams of despair that were behind the mask—because he didn't want anyone to grieve for him.

Raising both hands, Sesshoumaru then hugged Rin's tiny body tightly. Immersing the laughing face of the human woman on her chest—the first time in her life, Sesshoumaru felt pain from that smile and laughter.

Rin is innocent, stupid and naive, Rin is kind and gentle, Rin is always thinking about her loved ones. Laughing and smiling at the moment when she was actually crying and screaming in despair in the heart of— in this vast world, why should this woman experience all this?

Rin who was laughing in Sesshoumaru's arms could only laugh louder and close her eyes. Sesshoumaru's trembling hands, his expressionless face as well as his golden eyes—lie if he says he doesn't know what the inuyoukai ruler of the western lands is thinking.

A thin layer of ice.

Rin knew that was his life now. He stood up and walked on a very, very thin layer of ice. If he is not careful, then the ice will break, and he—himself will fall into it carrying with him those who love him.

Ah, Rin realized now, it turns out that what he did, the choice he chose was not wrong. Keep smiling, laughing and saying she's okay no matter what happens—at least, their lives will be better passed than when she cries, right?

Ah.ba.ba.." The voice of Shura who had been sleeping beside Rin suddenly sounded, making both Rin and Sesshoumaru immediately turn their eyes on their son.

Staring at his two parents, Shura's golden eyes were filled with dissatisfaction. Both of his hands moved up and down, clearly he did not like it because he felt ignored.

Rin laughs. Turning his body away from the embrace and turning his back on Sesshoumaru, slowly and with great difficulty due to his immobile hands and weak body, he bent his back, pointing his face right above Shura. "Are you awake, my son from the west?"

Shura laughed at Rin's question. Eagerly, her two little hands touched the face of the woman who was the center of her small world.

"Sorry, yes, Shura," Rin said slowly. His voice was slow and gentle as usual, a smile filled his pale face. "Mother can't hold you anymore like she used to.."

Both hands that could not move and felt again, although very bitter, Rin still strengthened and accepted the reality. At least he can still see his son, right?

However, a pair of hands suddenly moved down Rin's two arms. Clenching the human woman's hand, slowly and carefully, she lifted Shura's small body and held it in her chest.

The surprised Rin immediately turned his face to Sesshoumaru, because he knew that the owner of the pair of hands that moved his hand now was the inuyoukai behind him.

"S-sesshoumaru-sama.." call Rin slowly full of confusion.

"It's okay" said Sesshoumaru slowly. His two golden eyes looked straight at Rin's brown eyes filled with gentleness but also strengthening. "It's okay, if your hand can't move, because Sesshoumaru's hand will be your hand and move it."

Surprised, Rin silently nodded to hear what Sesshoumaru said to her now.

"It's okay if you can't walk one day, because this Sesshoumaru will take you wherever you want" continued Sesshoumaru again. His face remained as calm and flat as ever. "It's okay if your mouth won't be able to speak, because this Sesshoumaru can convey whatever you want by reading the movements on your lips. It is okay if your eyes will not be able to see, because this Sesshoumaru will always whisper what is in front of you in your ears. It's okay if you can't hear one day, because this Sesshoumaru will write down whatever's on your back."

Stunned, Rin can only stare at Sesshoumaru, not believing what he hears.

The biggest regret Rin had when her hand couldn't move anymore, Sesshoumaru knew; it was because she wouldn't be able to hug and touch her and especially the little—Shura.

Shura—their precious son. From the moment she was born until now, there was not a day Rin let go if she was at her side. Always hugging her, holding her, holding her in the chest. How much his son was loved by that human woman—all there could see him.

Rin's love for Shura is the most sincere and deep love. Sesshoumaru knew, the depth of love was as deep as Rin's love for him— therefore; the sacrifice of the human woman for them was enough. This time, it was their turn to sacrifice for him.

"—and it's okay if you can't hug this Sesshoumaru and Shura again, because from now on until forever, watch that hug you."

Tears flowed, falling down Rin's cheeks. However, the smile on his face widened. He smiled again, though he did not know if this smile was true.

Warm.

Sesshoumaru's words were very warm. Very, very sweet, but at the same time very bitter, brings him happiness, but also pain. With what feeling does that inuyoukai say this?—Rin can only guess in the heart.

Gathering all the energy, Rin then nodded his head while laughing. His two brown eyes stared gently at the golden eyes in front of him. "Yes," she replied slowly. "Yes, Sesshoumaru-sama. Rin understood."

Sesshoumaru did not say anything more, with his left hand still tapping Rin's tanga to hold Shura's hand, he moved his right hand to catch the face of the wabita and kiss the tears.

Shura who knew nothing, was in Rin and Sesshoumaru's arms, she laughed happily. Being beside her parents, she was always happy—because with them her little world was perfect.

Rin lets Sesshoumaru kiss her tears. Closing her eyes, she silently silently began to organize her heart. What's to be done? What choice to make?—hei, he wanted to ask whoever was there but did not dare, if it was in his position now, what best choice would you make?

In Sesshoumaru's warm embrace with Shura in the arms, Rin wants this to last forever, but in her life, there may not be a— forever.

Come again, something Rin least wanted, something she wanted to avoid—sang death.

Rin could only laugh. He already knew death was cruel and had no mercy. Death will come and go as he pleases. Come at the most unwanted moment and leave by leaving her who will hurt those she loves—sang an arrogant death.

Crying, crying and begging—no matter what you do, death will not budge. The soul that should have died but remained, Rin knew, he could only go on and on against the death that came to pick him up.

Why?—because Rin can't lose the little warmth and happiness she gets.

Opening his eyes, Rin looked at Sesshoumaru. Smiles filled his face. A warm spring smile, yet with unspoken sadness. "Sesshoumaru-sama, Rin wants to play hide-and-seek with Shura."

A request that is said slowly and with a smile. However, it made Sesshoumaru stunned.

"Can Sesshoumaru-sama accompany Shura?—Rin have to hide." Rin continued again with a smile that did not change one bit.

Fetish.

The meaning of the game Rin wants to play with Shura, Sesshoumaru knows—a cruel game that wants to be played with a door that will separate them.

"Rin won't hide for long" Rin's voice remained calm and quiet, as if what he was about to face was nothing. "Can Sesshoumaru-sama with Shura wait outside?—wait until Rin opens the door again.."

"R-rin-s..." Sesshoumaru's voice trembled. His embrace is Rin hardened for fear that the human woman will drive him away with the power of meido seki. His golden eyes stared panickedly at the brown eyes in front of him.

"Rin won't be anything," Rin's smile turned into laughter. However, his voice trembled. "R-rin will always stay—for you and Shura.."

Rin could neither hug nor touch Sesshoumaru anymore. Looking at the golden eyes that were staring at him full of panic, he could not calm his beloved inuyoukai as his mess again. This feeling—she's a cruel woman, right?

Once again, Rin can only think for the umpteenth time, right or wrong?—since her world has changed like this, since death has come her way, every day she thinks of the answer to this question. Sometimes he feels he's right, but, now, he feels again he's wrong.

Wrong or righteouslywho can answer for him? He really needs this answer.

"Rin please, Sesshoumaru-sama..." Said softly and softly, with tears flowing back down her cheeks, Rin could only return to—smiling.

Rin's smile was always the smile Sesshoumaru loved. However, now, for the second time, he hated this smile.

Don't smile and tell her to leave herself, don't smile and ask her to let herself suffer.Don't smile and ask this Sesshoumaru to keep quiet!!!

But, what can he do? What can she, Sesshoumaru from this western land do for the only human woman she loves?

"Come out, Sesshoumaru-sama," Rin laughed widely. Tears flowed unstoppably looking at the despair within the golden eyes of his beloved inuyoukai. "The game starts now."

Closing his eyes, with an expressionless face. Sesshoumaru then stood up. With Shura protesting in his hand, he stepped forward leaving Rin on top of the futon.

One step.

Two steps.

Three steps.

Four steps and—next step.

Slow and steady steps. Not full of confidence and also full of confidence. But, at every step, Sesshoumaru felt an unbearable pain in his heart.

Opening shoji's door, Sesshoumaru did not turn his face back one bit, because he knew, if he looked back, then he and Rin would be destroyed.

Loving a human woman named Rin, it was something easy. However, now, Sesshoumaru knows, it turns out that it is wrong, loving a human woman named Rin is the most difficult thing to do in the world.

"Sister?"

"Sesshoumaru-san?"

"Sesshoumaru-sama, what is it?"

"What's up, Sesshoumaru?"

Inuyasha's voice and the others were heard. Those who were outside the room were confused with Sesshoumaru and Shura who suddenly walked out.

Sesshoumaru did not say a word. Closing his eyes, he could only hear a soft whispering voice carried by the wind from behind him. "Thank you, Sesshoumaru-sama..."

Along with the words spoken by the wind the shoji door opened shut, and the third time again, the fortune appeared and locked a human woman in the room.

"Sister, what the hell is this??"

"Sesshoumaru, what happened???"

The sound of panicked cries and question marks sounded as Inuyasha and the others saw the wealth that appeared shutting Rin in the room.

However, once again, Sesshoumaru ignored him. With her eyes still closed, she then turned her body. Sitting on his knees down, with Shura still protesting for not knowing anything in her sling, he opened his golden eyes. Staring at shoji's closed door with emotionless flat eyes.

"Left, Kira," call Sesshoumaru then. Her flat, calm voice did not change, though she began to feel what Rin was feeling behind the shoji door. "Tell the whole world, whoever can bring Fushi No Kusuri to Sesshoumaru this—Sesshoumaru will give him whatever he wants."

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Shoji's door is closed with Sesshoumaru's strapping back he last saw, Rin dropping himself on top of the futon.

When death first came, Rin smiled. For the second time, she cried, and now for the third time, she—laughs.

"Hahahahahahahahaha!!" laughing very loudly and loudly, Rin was sure, if anyone saw him now, they would definitely think he was a lunatic. But, even so, he was unable to stop his laughter.

A burning cold attacked, an unbearable pain came. The sound disappeared, the light was covered in darkness.

"Hahahahahaha—Ahhaaahhah!!!! Ahhhhh!!!" laughing and laughing, not knowing since when, laughter became a cry of despair. Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!"

The pain of his broken heart. The feelings of guilt and despair that existed, who understood him? Wh why? Why is their story like this?—Rin wants to ask why?

Shouting and yelling all that she has in her heart, Rin only knows she must keep her eyes open and fight death again.

"Sesshoumaru-sama! Sesshoumaru-sama!!! Sesshoumaru-sama!!!"

Back when Rin was little, if she screamed that inuyoukai name, the inuyoukai would definitely appear before her and save her. However, now, even though he was shouting loudly calling out that inuyoukai name, he did not expect that inuyoukai to appear again, because those—inuyoukai would not be able to save him anymore.

"Sesshoumaru-sama!!! Sesshoumaru-sama!! Sesshounaru-yama! Sesshoumaru... Sesshoumaru... Shuras... Sesshoumaru... Shuras.. Sesshoumaru..."

The loud scream gets louder until it eventually turns into a small whisper at the tip of the lip. In the end, it was for Rin who was already unable to feel anything anymore. Alone in the room above the futon, although not in front of him, still only the second name inuyoukai most meaningful in his existence is the occupant of his life.

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