Till The End Of Time [Inuyasha Fanfiction ]
Chapter 144

Be ill.

Stuffy.

Chilly.

All of them attacked him simultaneously. Opening her eyes full of difficulties, Rin finds herself in endless darkness. Closing his eyes again, he curled up alone with his body shivering in the cold.

"Rinku..."

A soft voice called out his name. A strange voice that was very familiar to Rin, only this time, she could feel how sad the voice was.

Slowly, Rin opened her eyes again. He could see, right above him now, a ball of light shining brightly. A smile immediately filled Rin's face. "M-meido seki-san.."

Meido Seki did not answer Rin's greeting. Flying downwards, he emitted an increasingly powerful and brilliant light, trying to dispel the chill that engulfed the human woman that was precious to him.

Rin shook his head and laughed, although his body shivering cold still did not change. "That's okay... R-rin is okay..."

Meido seki remained silent staring at Rin. The light and warmth he wanted to give the human woman would not be conveyed anymore. The soul that began to be torn apart—he could do nothing more but accompany him.

Laughing again with her voice trembling, Rin then smiled. "J-don't be sad for Rin. R-rin doesn't want anyone to grieve for R-rin anymore..."

"My foolish son." Meido's voice remained soft, filled with unspoken sadness. "Your soul is beginning to rip apart. You'll never get that calm in your subconscious again..."

Rin kept smiling. "T-it's okay, R-rin can deal with it.."

The fact that there is, a soul that begins to be torn apart, slowly and soon, Rin knows, this coldness will always accompany him. When he is conscious or unconscious, both in his subconscious and his conscious. But...

'Rin.'

'Ahhh.. A.ba...'

Sesshoumaru's smile and Shura—Rin's laughter can only smile and close their eyes. In the conscious as well as the subconscious, they are still the only culprits.

"Life; meeting—death; farewell," said Meido Seki again. "It will never be spared in life."

Life and death—meetings and farewells. Rin knew that, but again..

'Rin.'

'Ahhh.. A.ba...'

Sesshoumaru's smile and Shura's laughter flashed again. A large, warm hand that held his hand, a precious little hand for him. Rin knew very well that life was a joyful encounter, and that death was a painful farewell. The meeting was beautiful, and the farewell was scary.

That's why; it's okay.

Its alright. Those words will always be a mantra for Rin—ah, no. He alone made the word spell. Didn't he win against death many times? Therefore, he was very sure, no matter how many times death came, he would not lose—he would always be the winner.

The smile on Rin's face only made meido seki's sadness grow. A pure soul that persists even though he knows the consequences a real soul; a fool.

"Why are you willing to suffer like this? How far are you willing to suffer?”

Meido Seki's question then made Run stunned. However, a moment later, he returned his smile—his broad smile in unspoken agony. "You know the answer, Meido seki-sama..."

Meido Seki could not say anything hearing Rin's words. Yes, the human woman is right—she knows the answer. However, he wished for the answer he had; wrong. He hoped that the human woman would stop all this foolishness and close her eyes. It was fine even though his soul would disappear, at least he would not have to suffer anymore like this.

"I hate them now" Meido said later. His voice was slow but without lies. "I hate the man you love so much and your precious son now.."

"Meido seki-san..." Rin can only come back stunned by Meido seki's unexpected confession.

"If the two of them never existed" Meido continued. "You're not going to be like this, my beloved son.."

Rin, who was stunned by Meido's words for a second, then laughed again. "Don't hate them.. T-This all has nothing to do with them... It's Rin's own choice..."

Meido Seki said nothing more. What he wanted to say he had said, in the future what it was like, he could only—see.

Shining brighter, Meido flew up. The light dazzled the eyes, leaving Rin's eyes open shut. "Go back to them both, dear Rinku.."

Darkened.

Darkened.

Rin wanted to open her eyes, but she felt that her eyelids were very heavy, as well as all of her bones and body that were very painful and painful. Therefore, without moving, he allowed himself to continue lying on the bed with his eyes closed.

"You know, Shura." A man's calm and flat voice rang out from beside Rin, making himself desperately try to open his closed eyelids. Why? —because he realized, there is Sesshoumaru and Shura beside him now.

However, Rin still could not open her eyes. He did not have enough energy to do so, therefore, he could only continue to lie down and gather all his strength to open his eyelids.

"What did your grandfather teach you to Father the first time in his life?" sesshoumaru's voice was heard again. Stay as emotionless as ever.

"What your grandfather taught you to father the first time in this life is—holding a sword." Sesshoumaru's voice remained slow, and there was a small laugh heard from his voice. "We inuyoukai heirs of western lands should always be strong. We are born into the world. We are the fighters who will never lose."

Trying and forcing her closed eyelids open, Rin then felt relief as the darkness began to dissipate. Focusing his gaze to the side, he found Sesshoumaru sitting staring at Shura who was in his carriage.

"But" continued Sesshoumaru again, Rin could see a smile on the handsome face of the inuyoukai. "What you want your father to teach you first in your life is not to hold a sword, but rather to embrace your mother."

Rin could only be stunned to hear Sesshoumaru's words. Unable to move and speak, she silently silently stared at the child father beside her.

Shura who looked back at Sesshoumaru's straight gaze then laughed. Not knowing understand it or not, the western land heir laughed with great happiness.

Sesshoumaru's smile became even more obvious when he saw Shura's laughter that was so identical to Rin's laughter. Patting slowly on Shura's head, she then turned her son's body to face Rin. Using both of her hands holding Shura's small hand, she opened them wide slowly

"It's very easy, open your hands like this" Sessgoumaru said slowly. Staring at Rin, he then opened and guided his two little sons hands to the neck of the human woman who again—cried. "Circle your arms around your mother's neck, and put your face in the neck."

Shura laughed even harder. Sensing Rin's warmth, she closed her eyes and buried her face in the neck of her biological mother.

Releasing Shura's hand and letting their son embrace Rin, Sesshoumaru's right hand moved slowly caressing Shura's hair. A small smile filled his face. "Good work Shura. Don't forget this..."

Rin could only cry and cry. She did not want to cry anymore, but looking at Sesshoumaru now and feeling the grace of Shura's body, she was unable to stop the tears.

Bending down, Sesshoumaru hugged Rin and Shura slowly. Kissing the soft tears, she whispered softly. "It's okay, Rin. All will be nothing, we will never be separated— forever together..."

Gathering all his energy, Rin nodded his head. Yep. Never will be separated—forever together. Do you know how much those two words mean to them?

"Hold on," said Sesshoumaru again and tightened his embrace. "This Jesshoumaru will definitely find a way to save you.."

Nodding his head again. Rin closed her eyes and smiled. He believed Sesshoumaru's words. That Inuyoukai never lied to him, he always kept his word, therefore—they will definitely be together for good.

Why are you willing to suffer like this? How far are you willing to suffer?

Meido Seki's question flashed through Rin's mind. Why is he willing to suffer? To what extent is he willing to suffer?—if he sees himself now with Sesshoumaru and Shura, you will understand, right?

....xoxOx....

Sitting silently in silence with both hands folded on her chest, Inuyasha looked at the winter sky in front of her. Being on the front porch of the western land ruler's bedroom, he could clearly hear Sesshoumaru's words to Rin who was inside, and he—tmanung.

"Kagome," called Inuyasha then without looking at Kagome who was also sitting next to him. "Rin is conscious."

"Eh? Really true?" asked Kagome surprised, although a moment later he immediately realized, because his existence now outside the room was nothing but to check the health of the soil kisaki when conscious.

"Thank you for telling me, Inu—" Kagome said quickly as she stood up. However, Inuyasha's right hand quickly pulled the future miko's left hand back to sit down.

"Don't go in." Inuyasha's orders are short.

"Brava!" call Kagome again full of frustration. He did not understand why Inuyasha suddenly behaved like this, did he not know that checking Rin's situation was very important? "You're ta—"

But once again, Kagome's speech came to a halt as Inuyasha's two hands suddenly hugged her tightly. Deciding his face on the chest of the field in front, the future miko could clearly hear the heartbeat of the inuhanyou's regular one.

Aware of Inuyasha's abnormality, the vexation on Kagome's face disappeared. Raising her hands in return for her husband's embrace, she asked quietly. "What's up, Inuyasha?"

"You think" Inuyasha said quietly and placed his chin directly over Kagome's head. Both of his golden eyes were directed back up into the sky. "How much is Fushi no kusuran?"

"Eh??" inuyasha's question made Kagome very confused, she did not understand the direction of their conversation right now.

"I wish there were two" continued Inuyasha again without allowing the slightest view of the winter sky. "One for Rin, and another one for you."

Kagome was stunned and speechless not knowing what to say with Inuyasha's words.

"A-aku—" Inuyasha's voice trembled, and his embrace of Kagome tightened even more. "Don't want to lose you again.."

Losing—death.

Kagome is human, and she is hanyou—their relationship is not much different from that of youkai and human. In a time that moves forward, sooner or later, death will come and take the woman he loves from him.

Inuyasha used to think, when Kagome came back and decided to stay in this world—he swore he would give that future woman all the happiness she could give. He will respect her, appreciate her—love her. They will be happy, and he will not allow any regrets between them.

Inuyasha also remembered, once in the palace of the southern lands, he said aloud to Sesshoumaru that he was strong—that he would be able to face the world without Kagome in the future. He thought he would be fine even if Kagome disappeared from him again one day after their togetherness reached its end. But now, seeing Sesshoumaru and Rin—Inuyasha; afraid.

Is he really capable? Is he capable? Losing Kagome back when Naraku was wiped out, Inuyasha already knew how much miko the future meant to him. Then, now that they were truly happy, would he be able to lose again?

Laugh in the heart. Inuyasha could only think, how foolish and arrogant he was a year ago to Sesshoumaru. Because in reality— there will never be a word alright again if she loses Kagome in her life again.

Who can live well when you have tasted what happiness is but loss? Who can live again in a cold world when you already know the warmth of the world?—Inuyasha know now; he will never be able to.

Kagome still didn't say anything. But, deep down, he felt very sick and also sad. That luhanyou remark, her fear—lie if she doesn't know.

Loves.

Humans and youkai, humans and hanyou—their love from the beginning was indeed not an easy love. Humans who age and die quickly with youkai or hanyou who age slowly and live long—their story ends, like what?

Not wanting to think about the end of their story, just thinking about their happy and always together life as it is now. Kagome wants to always live like that, and maybe also—Rin.

They are dissolved in the love that exists. Sweet togetherness, pleasant warmth and joyous happiness. They've blinded—ah, no. They are not blinded, but purposely blinded; purposely forgotten about an unstoppable painful reality; a terrifying separation in the future.

Blindfolded, tears streaming down Kagome's cheeks. Swallowing, he tried to laugh and let out a trembling voice. "K-ku hope too, fushi no kursi there are two—ah, no. I hope fushi no kurusi there are many..."

Fushi no kusurai.

Kagome really hopes the cure is there a lot. For Rin, for herself, for Sango, for Miroku, for Kaeda, for the children—for those who mean in her life. Can life contain enough meetings without farewells?

....xoxOx....