14 February
CHAPTER 45
During the operation, Kendra sat next to Amanda whispering prayer beads and tahmid, clasping her hands tightly, she also occasionally kissed Amanda on the forehead. "Moly, you know what, the doctor said that your amniotic fluid is almost gone" Kendra said. "It's possible that when you swam earlier, your amniotic fluid has come out and you have also experienced contractions, just because you like swimming so it doesn't feel." Kendra stroked Amanda's forehead with her index finger "Don't repeat it again yeah, I'm so worried about you and our baby."
Amanda felt guilty for not hearing Kendra's words that had told her to change her clothes immediately. "I'm sorry, I promise I won't do it again."
Kendra nodded, she clasped Amanda's hand again.
Seeing the attention and kindness that Kendra gave to her made Amanda often in the haunt of guilt and unpleasant to her husband. "Mas, what if there's no part of you on this baby's face?"
Kendra smile. "After this we make something similar to me," he responded to Amanda's words casually. "We make two at once."
From the beginning Kendra did not have expectations that Lily would be similar to her because it was clear Lily was not her flesh and blood, but over time she felt a deep affection for Lily. Just like the fathers in general, Kendra was excited to welcome his birth, he could not wait to hold his tiny baby.
"I'm serious. If only I hadn't set you up... At this time Ken will not bother to take care of us, take care of a baby that has absolutely nothing to do with Ken mas and Ken mas also must have lived happily with Mba Fay, Fay, who is also very happy, the woman Ken loved."
Kendra stroked Amanda's face gently. "lillahi ta'ala I'm already happy with what happened, I love Lily so much, and I also feel comfortable with you, too, so I never felt bothered at all," she wiped away the tears that had welled up in the corner of Amanda's eyes. "You don't have to think about Fay, he's found his happiness. Now it's your turn to escape this guilt and be happy with me, and our son."
"I'm so happy to have you, you are the best part of my life. My deep thank you for everything you have done for me all this time, I love you, I love you more." Amanda kissed Kendra's hand.
Kendra can only nod with a smile, because so far she can't lie to her heart, if she can't love Amanda completely, there's still Fay's name in her heart, but in her mind, Kendra promises to keep learning to love Amanda.
Kendra and Amanda's attention is instantly sidetracked when they hear the cry of their tiny baby. As the doctor lifted Lily's tiny body, Kendra could only see her silhouette, as her gaze was blocked by the tears that began to bathe her eyes. Kendra was so excited to see her daughter born.
The nurse laid him on Amanda's chest. Both of them looked at the tiny face of their daughter who was trying to open her eyes, Kendra felt it was a very amazing sight, especially when her little baby yawned, Kendra was getting more and more heartbroken for her, Kendra said, she stroked her baby blonde hair.
"We have a beautiful baby" Kendra said with admiration.
The feeling of happiness was instantly gone when Amanda felt pain in her stomach, the nurse rushed to take Lily and asked Kendra to come out because Amanda had severe bleeding.
'Oh Allah, I beg you to save my wife, ' Kendra's mind does not stop praying for the safety of her wife.
In the waiting room it felt like time was running for so long, Kendra kept pacing back and forth waiting for the operating room door to open. His hands trembled as he picked up the phone from his mother. "As-Assalamualaikum, ma'am."
"Alhandulillah is done, mah. Lily's going through an examination, while Amanda's..." Kendra was silent for a long time.
"Why son?" the feeling of Ajeng is getting less and less.
"Amanda's still inside, the doctor told me to come out because Amanda's bleeding."
Ajeng exhaled heavily, "Patience yes, son. Mama and papa are already in Jakarta, now we are heading there, approximately two hours we arrive. Keep telling me, don't break up praying, we're praying for your wife and son."
"Yes, thank you."
"What a strong one, Ken. Your wife and son need you." Ajeng continued to give encouragement to his son, he was impatient to arrive in Bogor soon, so he could accompany and support his son directly.
"Yes, um."
After more than an hour finally the doctor opened the door of the operating room, Kendra rushed to the doctor, and asked the condition of his wife. "How's my wife doing, doc?"
At first glance the doctor lowered his head while shaking his head, he sighed heavily and then conveyed the sad news that he had not managed to address Amanda who experienced obstetric complications with a fairly severe prognosis.
"No way doc," Kendra shook her head, not believing what she had just heard. "My wife couldn't have left me and our son."
"Once again forgive us, sir." The doctor invited Kendra to see his wife's body.
With shaky steps and tears streaming down his face, Kendra walked towards the corpse of his wife who had been covered in white cloth. "Moly.." he said softly as he opened the white cloth that covered his wife's body.
Kendra bowed limply to see the body of his wife who had stretched stiff. "Moly, why did you leave me and Lily?" he hugged his wife tightly. "Please, don't stay with me, I love you, Mol." Kendra still hopes that this is just a dream.
It felt like just now, he laughed happily at the birth of his little daughter, but that happiness had now turned into sorrow. "Don't we ever promise to raise Lily together? Are there not many plans we have not yet executed? Don't leave me, Moly." He shook Amanda's body.
Realizing that what he did hurt Amanda, Kendra took her hand off Amanda's body. "I'm sorry, Moly." she stroked Adamanda's face gently and then kissed her forehead. "I love you.." Kendra covered the body of his wife with a white cloth and tried to accept Amanda's departure.