Am I Different?
(S2) ~ Worry

"If we meet for two more days, yes? Or are we just the ones who are just like that?" ask mother.

"What's up, Mom? How I am confused. Tomorrow my employer happens to be out of the country just came home the day after tomorrow, if you want to meet can. But if you ask for forgiveness, I do not dare," explained Bi Asih.

Mom looked at me immediately.

"Ask Kevin not come, Mom," I said.

Mother also nodded.

"If Kevin is coming?" ask mother.

"Well, how do you know Den Kevin? Sorry who are you guys? Don't hurt Den Kevin." Said Bi Asih sounding worried.

Mother looks confused when she wants to explain to Bi Asih. Maybe I'm afraid something's wrong.

"Hello, if it's not too important, sorry. I am afraid why-why Den Kevin," said Bi Asih while deciding his phone call.

My mother looked at me in turn.

"Kevin who, Auntie?" ask Jeje.

But I didn't answer Jeje's question. He just looked at my father and me in turn, as if he needed both of us to propose.

"Connect again, Mom. Just tell me you want to tell me about the death of his mother," I said.

"But it's not that easy, Dek. They are rich people, maybe Bi Asih's side is also afraid that this is just a tactic of people who don't like it" said the father.

Hearing dad's answer, my mind was deadlocked. I don't know how to convey it anymore.

Right now there was only the sound of the television lighting up, from us none of us spoke. The night was getting late, but there was no thought going by about how to tell Bi Asih easily.

"Just rest, yuk. It's ten o'clock, you guys rest too," said the grandmother breaking this silent atmosphere.

"Yes, Mom. Come on, Je." Take Aunt Santi to Jeje.

"Antar Keyla first to the room, there's something I need to convey to both of you," said the grandmother.

Grandma's face looked serious when saying something, which made me curious.

"Anyway, Grandma. What's up?" my many.

"Keyla just go to the room, yeah. It's an old man's business" replied the grandmother gently, but it felt so hard in my heart.

I just nodded slowly, and then my father led me into the room.

"Well, what's up? Why can't I come?" my many.

"It's not okay to come, Dek. It's late, Dedek needs to rest" I tried to give an excuse.

"But right, yeah ..," I said hanging.

"Dedek needs to rest, who knows tomorrow morning the greater miracle is coming. For example, suddenly being able to shift my own legs, Father and Mother must be very happy, "father tried to distract me.

"Yes, Dad. Who knows tomorrow could suddenly stand on its own, keep walking on its own" I replied as I turned to my father who was pushing my chair.

"Well, yeah. If all we can make a small thanksgiving yes, Deck. Let everyone feel the happiness of Father and Mother" said Father.

The two of us were by the bed, and dad rushed to carry me. He moved me on the bed, while my father and mother would sleep in another bed but still one room with me.

The mattress I use is enough for two people. So since we were here with my condition still like this, my father and mother decided to move the mattress that they usually use in other rooms.

My father helped me get the medicine I had to take before I went to bed, after which he left me alone in this room.

It felt quiet and quiet when I was here. Even though there's a television in this room, I'm not interested in watching it.

In my mind said. If Esteh were here, I would have friends to talk to. Or there's no one I can ask to listen to what Grandma said.

Sometimes I feel funny myself, why as if I feel so dependent on Esther's presence next to me. Even though Esther and I were friends for just a little while, I somehow felt so close and lost.

Suddenly tears welled up in my eyes, slowly the tears spilled because it was not strong for me to hold anymore.

"Esteh, where are you going? Why are you leaving, I hope to see you again. But in the real world, not ghosts" I said.

Maybe because of the effect of the drug, either since whenever I suddenly fell asleep.

*****

I dreamt of sitting on the porch with Jeje. We were joking around in front of the house, eating the snacks we had brought.

Not long after, I saw from a distance a beautiful girl in two braids and wearing yellow clothes.

That face looks familiar to me, she's familiar and I know her. I thought she stopped by the sunflower, which was on the side of the road not far from my grandmother's house.

She held it with a smile, not knowing why when she saw the girl smiling, I smiled too.

"Esteh." I said softly.

Suddenly the girl turned and smiled at me. It might sound very awkward, because I just said softly and coincidentally the beautiful girl turned to me who was watching her.

I thought he continued walking, he walked over to us. I also poked Jeje who was busy with her snacks.

"Come, Esteh. He's back," I said.

Jeje without answering anything just followed me who was up from my seat. I guess the girl, waved at me.

"Hi, Keyla." Call her.

I smiled when I saw Esther coming back with me.

"Esteh, here. Don't go around anymore" I waved at him

He walked slowly, yet he looked very real. He was getting closer to me, from the look in his eyes he looked happy when he saw me again.

"Steel." Call me again.

He suddenly stopped when he was already in front of the gate of this house. He just smiled at me.

"Here, we play together," I said still by waving my hand.

"Cannot. Later you will meet me, but not me like this," he said as he walked away.

I was confused by Esther's words.

"How do you mean?" I said with a slight shout, for Esther walked further and further with me.

I saw him back waving his hands.

"Just wait, I'll accompany you. But remember it's not me like this." Shouts from a distance.

"Steel." Call me, who I thought was slipping on the floor.

*****

I woke up in shock because I slipped in a dream. I don't think I'm the only one who's experienced this, but everyone in the world has experienced it.

"Astagfirullah, it was just a dream" I said.

I looked in the other bed, and my mom and dad were lying there. Then I looked at the wall clock, I saw the new time at 03:00 so I decided to go back to sleep.

Seriate....